Ammonite

they • 20 this is functionally my online journal

[anxiousammonite]

i think i might deserve to die

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

I just need a beautiful woman to tell me that my bizarre imitation of human social skills is alluring and sexy

[queenofnots]

Supposedly progressive and left leaning people thinking art preservation and space exploration and just research and history in general are useless endeavors sound so republican to me.

[ocprompts]

How does your oc deal with guilt?

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[anxiousammonite]

silas locks himself away for hours to ruminate, as is the nature of ocd.

[anxiousammonite]

i genuinely feel like i’m dying rn

[ocprompts]

what kind of clothes does your oc wear?

[anxiousammonite]

silas loves a grandpa-esque fit- deep rich crimson cardigan that’s soft to the touch because he has sensory issues, cotton t-shirt with a painting or band logo on it, slightly baggy trousers, ankle-high white socks and dark brown lace up shoes.

[ocprompts]

what's something your oc can talk about for at least 10 minutes nonstop?

[anxiousammonite]

silas COULD talk about theatre history for at least 30 minutes. would he? probably not.

[anxiousammonite]

cleaning my room i am drowning in bullshit

[pondering-narratives]

the fake tiktok woke could never comprehend the radically progressive yet oddly inconsistent man that is percy bysshe shelley

anti slavery, anti imperialist, anti religion, pro ireland, vegetarian, animal rights activist, total pacifist, proto feminist, told the oppressed to rise against their governments, probably pansexual, was atheist and polyamorous…

still hated the poor in his own time whenever he came across them (as far as i can tell it’s because he hated religion and they were often devout, and also bc they ate animals which everyone except him did lol) but was actively advocating for their freedom from bad government + advocating for their education.

yeah his private letters are pretty crazy

[importantcatpics]

[anxiousammonite]

the gaze is frying me

[anxiousammonite]

GOODNESS I LOVE LOVE LOVE OVERANALYZING CHILDHOOD MEMORIES TO KNOW IF I’M A HORRIBLE PERSON

[anxiousammonite]

rereading ‘radio silence’ and the way people act like they’re entitled to the lives of the creators of their favorite pieces of media is… it’s just so eerily accurate to life…

[anxiousammonite]

[anxiousammonite]

and before anyone accuses me of being antisemitic because i support palestine, let me just say i’m a very proud jew and that’s exactly why i believe what i believe.

[anxiousammonite]

someone needs to force me to take my binder off

[anxiousammonite]

the machine was broken. it worked, day in and day out, but it didn’t work right. the mechanisms were slightly off, the gears were creaky, the hinges were stiff.

the machine was broken and didn’t know how to be fixed.

[anxiousammonite]

i love looking like a girl trying to look like a guy trying to look like a girl.

that is what gender truly is.