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he/they| 24 | sometimes post nsfw | multifandom, mostly DMMd and HgSN brainrot | art-acc: @anxious-corpse (main)

[aquilaofarkham]

[ozempicofficial]

[tall]

[221bluescarf]

You think you know what a person in psychosis looks like, but you probably don't. It's not confined to someone walking down the street screaming at hallucinations or ranting to everyone about the FBI implants. And it's not an axe murderer. It can be someone quietly sitting alone. It can be someone having an anxiety attack. It can be someone who's disoriented and dissociated. It can look like anything.

I've had psychotic episodes where I simply come across as depressed and a little confused. I've had them where I'm anxious and rocking and crying but I'm not loudly proclaiming my delusion.

I've had psychotic episodes where I thought my family was being stalked and I had to harm myself to appease the beings stalking us but nobody knew. My injuries were hidden and I simply stayed inside the house.

I've had voices make me feel terrible so I just cry and talk about what an awful person I am but that just looks like low self-esteem.

It can be right under your nose.

Stop acting like you know exactly what psychosis looks like - especially if you assume people who have it are violent and out of control. If someone tells you they have psychosis or schizophrenia, don't treat them like a ticking time-bombs waiting to kill someone.

[brainfilehasstoppedworking]

I was bored

[rottencore]

This post keeps making me cry laughingg

[aoiraincoat]

There were so many things to do more important than trying to OCify Ta'nok and make her na'vi but here are sketches with some basic design ideas anyway. Since the thought of her being a na'vi woman learning to survive without eyesight and unable to navigate the world via echolocation like the tulkun do crossed my mind I've been unable to stop thinking about her.

I should've made her shoulder line look more triangular and the second top deserves a trypophobia warning

[aoiraincoat]

Self-inserting into AFOP to imagine scenarios where I show Teylan studio Ghibli's environmentalist animation

[aoiraincoat]

Dorian and Lord Henry interacting after receiving the news of Sibyl's death

[orphanedsource]

hey guys whats up. got you a new drawing. this time? with some text. what can i say

[aoiraincoat]

Emerald Fennell could've just mashed up Farleigh and Oliver into one character and they would be a much better Heathcliff than the one she ended up writing

[saucefunk]

OSCAR NOMINATED HORROR!!

[aoiraincoat]

So, I watched Sinners and the two most significant scenes for me were the ones with music and dancing and large groups of people and they read as parallels to each other

When Sammie started playing at the bar I thought "Oh, this is where most modern music comes from. If not for the pioneers of blues and jazz and their soul and persistence there would not be any of it" and as this thought crosses my mind the representatives of all music that lead to that moment and that came after, from traditional music and dances of African tribes to heavy metal, hip hop and electronics, appear right there in the same very bar, moving to the rhythm of Sammie's guitar like one big manifestation of generational ties and community and massive cultural impact. I won't exaggerate, a vampire horror is the last thing I'd expect to cry about, but this is not just a vampire horror and I found myself in tears while watching through this part.

And the second one, when Remmick gathers all newly turned vampires outside the bar and traditional Irish music, music of a culture that has suffered oppression and erasure throughout its history, is twisted and weaponized into an act of mass mind control, forced onto people who were not a part of it to begin with. And now there's no sense of true unity, it's "them vs us", the same mentality that Remmick uses to prey onto the first turnt racist couple, it's absurd and grotesque and uncanny in the same way he uses people's memories of their loved ones against them. I couldn't think of a more poetic way to express this.

[creaturecandids]

Writing for chapter 3 is going well

[aoiraincoat]

When I finish reading The Amphibian Man (for the second time this year) I will write a huge essay on how accurately and painfully this book represents the isolation of "assimilated" indigenous and ethnically mixed people despite the main intention behind it being different from that

But for now it just hurts a bit too bad

[mcpayne]

overlooking the brown latin lead (Oscar Isaac) of a film (Frankenstein) in favour of his white aussie co star (Jacob Elordi) , and only ever acknowledging said film for said white aussie cast member (Jacob Elordi), is a very interesting way to watch a Guillermo Del Toro film rooted in latin trauma, Academy Award Voters (and to whoever else it might concern), but that's just me.

[aoiraincoat]

If I got paid a nickel every time I developed a hyperfixation around an illegally pretty over 6ft tall Australian actor who played a softer, more innocent version of a character from a globally recognized piece of mass culture who is an embodiment of experiences of everyone outcasted and shunned for things they have no control over I'd have two nickels but it's odd enough it happened twice