Can we get headcanons for Bertholtd and him trying to be more assertive and talk to his s/o but ends up being really sweaty and awkward and on how Bert would break down because of the weight of his sins and how s/o would comfort him? and maybe in the end Bert is more protective and is finale a bit more assertive, I'd like to see how he would stand up for his s/o too. I hope it's not too much its ok if it is 💕
((Oh god I made fives pages for this just because I was torn between fluff and angst. So my mind did one of these.))
-There you stood leaning against a tree just looking up at the sky. Bertholdt could only watch you from afar.
-Reiner gently bumps him to get his attention “Bert just go talk to them man.”
-Bert tenses at that blush crossing his face as he stutters before looking back at you with a sad look. “But…What if they hate me…? Reiner after what we’ve done… I don’t deserve her…”
-Reiner places a hand on his shoulder and gently squeezes it “Bertholdt, We were twelve during that…We were just following orders…Who knows how long this will last so, Enjoy it… Enjoy every second you can with her.”
-Bert goes to counter with something but Reiner starts to shove the taller male to you making him go bright red trying to fight against Reiner “Reiner! Stop!” He complains, getting your attention.
-Reiner only stops when Bert was right in front of you. With that he pats Bertholdt’s shoulder “Good luck Bert!” and he was off again, leaving a bright red flustered Bertholdt. You swear you could see the sweat running down his face.
-You huff a soft laugh at that “Are you alright Bertholdt? Is Reiner messing with you again?” He stutters in surprise and takes a deep breath to try and calm down.
-”Well uh, no… He’s just… He wants me to confess that well.. I like you…? Oh that uh didn’t sound very cool, uh just, let me try again!” You were pretty sure all the blood he had rushed to his face.
-Deciding to spare him, you lean up kissing his cheek with a smile on your face “I like you too Bert.”
-That was the best day of your life. After that the two of you would always hang out.
-You watched as Bert’s confidence grew and watched as he actually began to blossom in social situations. You couldn’t be prouder.
-That is until one night you see him hugging his knees at the tree where he asked you to be his.
-You quickly make your way over running when you hear his sobs and see his tall figure shaking. You run to his side and hug him tightly. “Bert… Bert what’s wrong?” You ask worriedly.
-He shoves you away with surprising force making you let go “Don’t!” he looks up at you tears streaming down his face “Y/n I’m a monster…”
-You feel your heart ache for him seeing the utter pain in his eyes “Bertholdt you aren’t a monster… Why would you-” He cuts you off.
-”So you don’t think the colossal titan is a monster Y/n? T-That was me… I did that…” He chokes out voice cracking. You could only stare in shock. Bertholdt… Your Bertholdt did that…?
-He had to be only twelve at the time… You could see the utter guilt swarming in his eyes and see that he was drowning in self hatred. You take a breath and reach over carefully hugging him again.
-”I don’t blame you.” You whisper softly to him. He was only twelve years old… Someone must have told him to do that… You hear his voice hic and he breaks down into you clinging and sobbing into your shoulder.
-A few months pass since that day, you had sworn to keep it a secret and even learned that Reiner was the Armored titan.
-”You couldn’t deny that you felt guilty keeping this a secret from everyone. They must feel even worse…
-You were lost in thought and accidentally bump into someone. “Sorry…” You say but before you could go on the person shoves you hard knocking you over.
-”Watch where you’re going brat! What squad are you in!?” It was one of the snobby higher ups of the military police. He lifts his hand to hit you when you just give him a sharp glare.
-But the hit never comes. You look up to see Bert had the military police member’s wrist tilting it at an awkward angle.
-”Before you ask sir, I’m Bertholdt Hoover of the 104th corps and now a Survey Scout. If you feel the need you can put in a report to Captain Erwin or Captain Levi. However I will tell them the truth about how you raised a hand at one of my comrades, I have doubts that the Captains will be too thrilled knowing that you are harassing their subordinates.”
-The guy goes wide eyed letting out a growl before pulling his hand away and storming off angrily. You stare up at Bert in shock. He had never looked so angry before…
-He turns to you, eyes going soft in worry “Y/n are you alright? Did he hurt you too badly?” he helps you up and you happily kiss his lips. “I’m alright thanks…”
-Bertholdt actually stops moving from the surprise and goes bright red.
-There you were on the top of the tower, Only able to watch in horror as the veterans are eaten right in front of you all. Bertholdt holds your arm with a look of terror across his face as he looks at the strange beast titan.
-”Hey Y/n…” He chokes out watching the sun set over the walls.
-”The outside world is a beautiful place… Full of things you could never imagine…” he backs up letting your arm go. You can only look at him in stunned silence.
-He carefully takes the knife from Connie, looking at how sharp it was a sad smile on his face.
-”Things like an endless skyline… An ocean that reachs as far as you can see… Despite seeing all that… I think my favorite thing was meeting you.” he laughs pain in his voice as he gives you a pained smile.
-You and Reiner realize what he was planning at the same time “Bert!” You try and call but he takes a step back getting ready to sprint. “Reiner, please take care of her…”
-”Hey Y/n… You loved someone like me… Despite my sins…” he starts to sprint and leaps off the tower giving you a bright smile as he flips back to look at you. “So for one last time… I love you Y/n!” He yells. Reiner pulls the others away from the edge getting as far away from the explosion that goes off.
-As your ears are ringing you look around seeing that it was pitch black. But the roof starts to move and that’s when you see it. Bert had sheltered the top of the building in his hands cupping the tower in his hands. There stood the colossal titan.
-Only half of it had formed from the ribs up and you could only stare into those empty eyes. But you knew better, you could see the pain in Bert’s eyes. As you look around you could see the shock and terror on everyone’s faces.
-That’s when the support team comes and you see Captain Levi swooping in towards the colossal titan’s neck.
-”Wait!” You try and scream trying to run to Bert but Reiner holds you back looking away.
-You see the blood spray and feel your heart shatter. “N-No…” You choke out before sobbing as you watch as the steam starts to rise to the sky.