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Boycott Israel Cheat Sheet: Cosmetics, Health and Personal Care

When I began this blog, it was my intention to keep it strictly focused on the art of Palestine, and not to use it as a sounding block for pro-Palestinian politics. This is not to say the two things are unrelated – to the contrary, the art coming out of Palestine and from those living in exile is often explicitly political, and in all cases is shaped by the ongoing occupation of Palestine. My feeling was, and largely still remains, that this is a place for contemplation rather than debate. In light of the latest assault on Gaza, however, I have been doing a lot of talking with friends about BDS. What started as a conversation bemoaning the affiliation of MAC cosmetics with Zionist causes rapidly turned into a project; I spent the better part of a day compiling a list of cosmetics, health and personal care brands to avoid if you’re boycotting Israel, along with alternative products to use.

The process was abysmal. Surely, I have taken care never to underestimate US corporate ties with Israel, but even so, the explicit connections and the vast scope of products involved is frankly demoralizing. That said, the boycott of Israeli goods is a vital step towards liberation for Palestine, and if you are interested in learning more, visit the BDS website and consult the list below.

A note about the scope and content: I focused on health and beauty items because they are the items I use most in my daily life, and because my friends – who seem disproportionately to be incredibly beautiful and well-groomed femmes – wanted to know about the products they are using. To do an exhaustive list is impossible at this juncture, though I hope to make lists focused on different sales arenas in the future. Topically, it bears repeating that Palestine is a feminist issue – we as women and/or feminist advocates should remember this as we make choices about the kind of products we buy for our bodies.

The list is after the cut, please share widely!

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I hate that I'm so scared of inconveniencing people that I will make a fuss just to ensure people do not need to do anything for me, or am I not a nuisance

And then I complain about feeling alone and lonely lmaooksk

It doesn't help that it's easy to interpret from the "people in my life" that I am indeed, a nuisance.

It's like, it's one of my core beliefs lmao.

You can't really break that kind of thought process of being a God forsaken nuisance if there are people in your life to help you exercise the muscle of not making you feel like you're a burden, or too much to handle. Not sure if I'm not able to do that because I hate myself so much so project on to every person around me, or I have shit friends, or both lmao

#about me #obnoxious post

I always come to Tumblr when I feel most alone

I decided I'm going to speak this post instead of writing you, because I feel like I need to speak to someone, but there's no one to speak to, so I will speak to myself.

Like I always come back to Tumblr when I'm at my lowest when I film is alone when I feel like I'm rubbish

I guess this is the closest thing I have to feeling like I can rely on someone and speak to someone openly about how I feel. I don't feel like I can speak like this and ask for support and help without being told to go to therapy, all that something is wrong with me.

I don't know how to ask for support because I feel like I don't deserve it. I don't want to ask support for support because it reminds me that I am useless so not good enough. Deep down. I feel like I am useless and not good enough and a fraud. It could be that my period is coming so my self perception is really bad as a result cuz I get really low before my. But I really feel like I'm in pain. My head hurts, I can feel my heartbeat in my ears, and then my chest. I feel like a fraud.

I'm also really confused. Do people have people that they go to when they feel like this? Or do people just deal with these feelings themselves. I'm very close to taking a sick day because I'm really struggling. I really want to go to this acting class today, but I don't feel good enough to go. I just feel like there's no point going and I just want to stay home and be sad. And every time I feel like crying, my body stops me from doing it because there's too much to the handle.

#about me