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March 3, 2023

Hi, its been a while. had a realization today, Ive been living in the past, I kept looking back, all the pain, Ive endure everything from the past years. I could't imagine everything will go downhill. Now I'm living alone with a burden in my heart.

Ako na naman, the problem was me. I used to cry every night, until now. I want to share more but right now I cant, My mind was empty. My life is messy, Im a mess.

Pagod na pagod na ako. I cant do this anymore.

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Lol, first of all. Look down at my kid and her designer shades, collar and rain booties.

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LIFE LESSONS I LEARNED IN MY 20'S:

BE HUMBLE : Nothing in life is permanent. Kaya dapat maging mapagkumbaba tayo, minsan meron, minsan wala. As an OFW for more than 5 year, I've been through a lot, and yung mga pinagdaanan ko from year 1 upto now ay talagang hindi biro. I've learned to be humble enough, because at some situation I have nothing but myself. Maging Mapagkumbaba at all times.

LOWER YOUR PRIDE : Wag mapagmalaki lalo kung alam mo sa sarili na wala talaga, at wala kang maipagmamalaki, pero kung pinagpapaguran mo at pinagsisikapan mo ang lahat, why not? diba. I was in a very very odd situation, and the story goes like this.. I was in a relationship for about 3 years and 8 months with this guy (other nationality), My family don't like him kase nga iba, at di yung klase ng nagseseryoso. But instead of listening to them, I did what I did, inilaban ko talaga not knowing na third party pala ako, ginawa akong side chick in that 3 years. That time hindi na kami okay ng mga kapatid ko and nagusap kami sa park, public spaces at nagkaron ng sagutan they want me to apologize, nagsorry ako sa nanay ko, kung bakit ko ipinipilit ang mga bagay na hndi para sakin, and shempre umiiyak lang siya, kase nagaaway kaming mga anak niya. Akala ko makakababa ng pagkatao ko ang pag sorry ko, lalo alam ko sa sarili ko na wla akong ginagawang mali. Say Sorry when you're wrong.

YOU ONLY HAVE YOURSELF: I started working when I was 19, and by that time, I started living alone for 3 months by myself along Commonwealth. And upto now, narealize ko na pag nasa reality ka na, ang dami daming tao nagsasabi sayo na pag kailangan mo ng tulong, nandyan lang sila, pero hindi pala totoo yon. At the end of the day, Ikaw lang, wala kang kaibigan na maaasahan, matatakbuhan kapag gipit ka na. For sure I know, galing ako diyan, noong nawalan ako ng work, ayaw ako patuluyin ng isa kong kapatid sa kanila, wala akong mauuwian, wala akong pera, wala akong pagkain, wala akong matutulugan, nagpunta ako sa supermarket at umupo sa isang tabi habang dala ang mga gamit ko, nagiisip umiiyak, dahil sadyang mabuti si Lord, may mga taong tumulong sakin para makabangon ulit.

BE STRONG : DAHIL SA MUNDONG ITO, MARAMING TAO ANG MAPAGSAMANTALA, Sasamantalahin ang kahinaan mo, ang pagkatao mo. Strong enough na malabanan mo ang stress, depression, and unwanted mixed feelings. I wanted to tell some story but I'd rather to keep it to myself. Kase kahit ipaliwanag ko wala naman makakaintindi ng ganong feeling.

CHOOSE YOUR COMPANY WISELY : Surround yourself with people who share your values and continually challenge you to be a better version of yourself. It is easy to fall into a fun but incredibly wrong crowd (or relationship) ----- I KNOW BETTER, I WAS IN THEERE TOO! BELIEVE ME. and ang masasabi ko lang 9MAS OK MAG-ISA KESA KASAMA NG MGA MALING TAO) BE aware from toxic and negative people.

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS : Do your things, make your own money, at wag nang makisali, makisawsaw sa mga chismis sa paligid.

BE BOLD, HAVE YOUR FREEDOM: But with the Limits! I used to go places, foodparks and all from time to time alone. I usedmeet people and go on a dates, like movie and coffee time. I have been Invited by a friend of mine to go for clubbing, because I'm a GO-GO person and enjoy Life I'd thought it would be fun! But I wasn't a FAN of the CROWD and noise, I Got wine drunk which means I cannot walk straight! :) Good thing the friend who invited me splashes some lemon on my face, and gave me some coffee to wake my drunk soul.

NEVER STOP : Don't stop learning, growing and so on. Learning things from time to time from work, people and environment will help you a lot through life. If you want to do something, dont get stuck in one place, situation. Get out of the BOX! Incredible things will happen.

EMBRACE CHANGE: Kahit naman saan may pagbabago, be like a chameleon nakikisabay. I mean, pwede mo i adopt ung mga bagay na di ka sanay, like food, kung di ka kumakain ng ganito ganyan, baka dapat simulan mo na, kung di mo kaya yung ganito, ganyan, di mo pa na try ito, iyon, baka dapat subukan mo. DIba?

LOVE YOUR TIME BEING SINGLE : Huwag magmadali, i enjoy lang yung time mag isa, ako kase lagi ako nagmamadali kaya madalas ako magkamali. Lesson learned! .

KNow your Value : PINAGMUKHA KA NG TANGA, HAHABULIN MO PA? Never chase anyone, and remember that healthy relationships come both rarely and easily. If the person you choose to chase even gives into you for the time being, your heart will eventually be broken when they find what (or who) they have been looking for. Just skip all of that and move on while it only hurts a little to let them go.

VALUE EVERYTHING, BE GRATEFUL: SMALL THINGS, BIG THINGS MAGING GRATEFUL KA!!!!

ASK FOR ADVICE: Pero kung di mo susundin, wag ka ng humingi hingi ng advice, sayang lang laway ng kausap mo.

PRAY. PRAY. PRAY. IT WORKS.

STAY IN THE PRESENT: yung nakalipas di mo na maibabalik, wag mo ng balikan ung mga sitwasyon na alam mong hindi na talaga pwede, Wag magsisi, alam mo kung nasan ka ngayon, DIyan ka talaga nilagayn ni LORD, sabi nga nila it's either Blessing or a Lesson. Wag mag sisi, charge to experience yan!

Do not dwell in the past and do not worry about the future. Work toward attainable goals and do not hold expectations for situations beyond your control.

DO NOT TRUST EASILY: Specially nowadays! One of my mentor from lebanon told me, to not trust, never, Do not trust anybody, any friend, even your sister, brother, you only have yourself to trust! Thank you Mr. Chadi for that advice. It really helps me a lot. People can be really deceptive.

DONT BE SELFISH. IT WONT GET YOU ANYWHERE. BE A GIVER ISNTEAD.

FORGIVE YOURSELF: Hindi dapat sinasaktan ang sarili, wag mo isipin na lahat ng nangyayaring hindi maganda ay kasalanan mo.

BE APPRECIATIVE. THANKFUL. GRATEFUL. AS I SAID BEFORE.

LEARN SOMETHING FROM EVERYONE : LIKE PAG PINAGSABIHAN KA, TAKE IT, TANGGAPIN MO, WAG MO MASAMAIN YUNG SINASABI NG IBA, DAHIL KUNG MAY NAPUPUNA SILA, BAKA NGA MERONG KAPUNA-PUNA.

All experiences, good and bad, have something to teach us. Be thankful for the good and learn from the bad. Use them as motivation and stepping stones to move onward and upward.

You will make mistakes. You’re human. They happen.