My Regret
I become like him. In the moment, I felt honor. I killed too many people, too many enemies of his country. “That was any youngers job!” I thought like this while killed them, supported and used too many other people.
They tortured them, killed them and I supported.
But right now, I’m thinking was it worth? Maybe my wife’s tortures to me my punishment. I’ve been thinking like this.
On east, people lives too poor. Everyone told, “They supporter of lighbulb so they want this.” But despite everything, this people really deserve to live like this?
I remember, before election some kids (they fuckin’ kids! And they joined revolution too! This was insane! Maybe they deserve this and I just mad) listened to us. Than they left and did talk other youngers and they told, “He’s become like him! He’ll save us country, like him! He has blonde hairs and blue eyes too!” I heard this and told them “No, I’m not him. Anyone never become him. I just save his country from terrorists.”
After at least 10 years, I’m feeling like shit. While I just look, I saw death and tortured bodies. Everyone loves me, everyone proud on me, but I’m feeling regrets, pain and more pain.
"She gradually alienated my children from me. Ilanku manipulated and brainwashed them, causing them to harbor hatred towards me and consistently affirming, 'You're weak, you deserve her sexual sexual tortures.’
“Since their birth, I have nurtured deep affection for them. I have provided breast milk because my wife, Ilanku, chose not to breastfeed our children. However, presently, I harbor aversion towards them. They now appear more as her children than mine. Therefore, I do not wish to continue caring for them."
“These are your final remarks regarding this case."
“Yes.”
Her kids look at me and they’re sad but I don’t fuckin’ care anymore. After years they’ll start sick incest relationship already, just like their crazy maniac ancestors.
And another shit Red Turkic entry this case. Man said, "I am the representative for Ilanku Yankuchi, and we are seeking custody of these children."
I thought “Finally they took these monsters and this fuckin’ case will end.”
He gave me an arrogant look, and the judge said something to me, but I stopped paying attention to the case after that.
After end of this shit case before leaving from courthouse my lawyer called me and he said “You win finally! Everyone supports you!” while we walked to exit gate. I said, “Even her! Oh my fuckin’ goodness even this bitch I win this fuckin’ case!”
He said, “Don’t say like these while you’re still in courthouse!” I laughed and everyone looked at me however they didn’t know my body is out of hand. My lawyer tried calm me and everyone pitied me. “Can’t you hear noisy from gate door? Everyone wants to see you like this-“ “I really don’t care anything.”
“We have to get out without they see us! I know portal’s place. Let’s go quick.” He forced me go to the portal room but we saw journalist army. “Holy shit!” he murmured. One random boy saw us and screamed “It’s Tolga Yankuchi!” and everyone surrounded us.
“Please don’t call me her disgusting surname anymore. She forced to me for change my surname.” Journalist army asked too many questions but I didn’t care them. I screamed “Don’t ask me your stupid questions and listen to me!” everyone fell silent and listened to me carefully. “Soon, I’ll share my memories and everyone will understand my pain. On today at 5 p.m.”
And before journalist army I ran for Portal and go to my apartment.
