YOOO guys !!!! i finally posted my first kokuto/tsukasa fic on ao3 (generally, i love calling them kurokasa ww). if you liked my posts about kokuto, you’ll like this one, i promise. there’re also two gays obsessed with each other and being affectionate in everything they do, isn’t that a nice bonus? I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AHHHHHH !!!!!! MORE PEOPLE SHOULD LOVE THEM !!!!!!!!
let me know if you liked the fic and/or the ship! i’m already getting awesome couple memes ready for everyone interested in them :3
belated happy birthday to the most beautiful and unhinged oshinari brothers from me :3 hope they never stop shining and we see more and more of them in the future!
i’m next in this line (my bday is tomorrow coincidentally lol), so i kinda feel like ishida-sensei made a present just for me /j
KIITOMARE !!!!!!!!! GRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
they’re so dumb… despite not being into jj lately, i still love them with all my heart 🥹🩷
genuinely have no clue what i've been doing the whole july. another depressive episode spiked and so it seems i've been simply existing and rotting with no purpose or motivation to move and change it whatsoever
i'm slowly but surely erasing whatever block i had in my brain regarding jj and will be trying to at least write a small fic since i find it the best way to go back into the groove
i was also complaining to my friend about it, gosh. i'm genuinely upset no one really talks about kiitomare as a ship here, and i'm as much upset with myself because i lack mental capacity and ingenuity to spread the agenda and engage others properly. i gotta lock in and do my babies justice
hopefully, i'll return to the game itself in august too. might go for soushiro or mitsuki this time unless my mood changes
you big into momoyuki? don’t even joke lad. this has stopped being a crack ship of mine. now i am dead serious
shoutout to my friend for supporting all my neat and not so ideas. i’ve had them on my radar for a while now, but i’ve grown a bit more confident with the thought only just recently and so made two ship charts which i might as well show here because they’re one of my favorite ship dynamics and i’m here to talk about what i love in the first place :3
you big into momoyuki? don’t even joke lad. this has stopped being a crack ship of mine. now i am dead serious
shoutout to my friend for supporting all my neat and not so ideas. i’ve had them on my radar for a while now, but i’ve grown a bit more confident with the thought only just recently and so made two ship charts which i might as well show here because they’re one of my favorite ship dynamics and i’m here to talk about what i love in the first place :3
only just now remembered i wanted to post these a few weeks ago lol
here are some kurokasa (kokuto/tsukasa) memes i made because they’re the funniest and most precious duo and i want more people to take a closer look at them and their dynamic
i can’t say it met my expectations in terms of canonical romance (i still like the ship, and i’m still very fond of suzu himself, don’t get me wrong), but it definitely surpassed them in terms of side characters development. sugakaido and first-years—those were really fun to watch….
i’m glad i could see a few more sides to mare specifically because it’ll be of great help when i’ll be writing the fic i’ll probably get down to one of these days. it’s not a small one, though, and i need to make up lots of stuff to make it entertaining, too… hopefully i’ll be able to finish it the way i want to and someone will find it decent in the end :3
my brain has been rotting because of kiitomare a whole damn LOT lately, i need to get it out of my system (/pos) already TT
me and @starsinoceans had lots of fun assigning musical instruments to all the jj characters
please note: everything's based solely on the Vibes we've been getting from the characters and that vague knowledge both of us gained by spending a few years playing a mobage about high school boys in a concert band-
a short explanation for red crosses: mare started with a french horn, but it was too difficult to handle (unpretentious, too), so he changed to piccolo quite soon; kisa used to be a clarinetist together with souchan when they were kids, but had to quit for family reasons, then came back a few years later picking up a trumpet instead
if you have any questions, want to hear more about our choices, or even add something else to the headcanons, don't be shy and let me know. i've never been a band kid specifically myself, but i LOVE the achetypes, memes, and drama school bands can catalyze. jj cast has ALL the potential, believe me
here's a small bonus as well because i couldn't help it
talked a bunch with my bestie today on our headcanons in jj and other things and as always it got my head spinning because i want to talk about so many things but keep stopping myself out of embarrassment
by now I already finished mitsuki's and fumi's routes and going through soshiro's slowly and still didnt manage to write my thoughts about it. even though i want to. but i hope to still do that later ^^ i love them so much and both routes were a delight to go through
today is about my mitsufumi brainrot tho. a bit of a rant just to get some thoughts in order. for a while it still felt weird that i locked in so much on them when my priorities were so different before but it was also inevitable as they check all the boxes for me huh
i still adore every combination of mitsu fumi kai trio of course but. those to got to me in ways i never expected
it was a silly little idea for a while when i was going through mitsu's route but everything from winter to the finale convinced me all the way through
the way mitsuki cherishes his senpais is obvious and always present. how much he sees in them and admires them and wants all the best for them. for fumi to be free. for kai to see his own worth. for them both to still shine brightly as partners. it's all in plain sight in the winter. and they care for him so much in return, knowing how kind mitsuki actually is and how he cares for people and how he can do and be so much more and always believe in him
it's the way mitsuki saw the literal worst of fumi's behavior, watching it closer then most. and also saw him struggling. got close enough to see who fumi really is and grew to love him so much.
and how fumi in turn saw mitsuki too. from his place, seemingly far above everyone else at the time
this is the moment that solidified them for me btw
it's about how they watched each other like that and got to see more and more of each other as people. with deep respect and admiration (which mitsuki didn't even know about. for him fumi is the brightest star and also a person he wanted to support and later set free. but didnt have the courage to. didn't think he could)
it's how mitsuki, despite knowing how good fumi, still doesn't take it for granted and cares about him as a human being. you know, something fumi always wanted. to be treated like this. he is just a person who works really hard in hopes to make people he loves happy. to be told he did a good job.
i also love how mitsuki's whole thing is about trust and boundaries. how he was denied those boundaries in his family and had to close himself off. and then went even deeper because human connections are always difficult and he cares to much. hide and try to seem like he doesn't care is always easier.
and it never worked on fumi though. and in return, fumi is one of the most honest and open people mitsuki could meet. he's the one you can always trust and rely on, by the time he is a third year and finally got to look at people around him properly. appreciate them. care for them. he always has that undeniable trust in mitsuki even when mitsuki himself doesnt believe it. and he knows how warm and caring of a person he is and respects his boundaries always but also doesn't want him to close off too much. and mitsuki lets him in. of course he does.
both of them just see so much more in each other then most people do and are so determent to make things better for each other. to protect and cherish that light they admire so much.
“i will do my best to support you so please be free and go all out” and “because you are here, i can be confident and free”
do i maybe talk about the same thing over and over? maybe. but oh well. i want to say so much more about them but i am a bit sleepy and pretty much putting this together on a whim.
i also think their proper romance blossoms after mitsuki graduates... after a year of hard work and a lot of thoughts and missing each other too much. and realising that the presence of the other person was always so nice and refreshing and made everything easier. missing this and being worried and finding time to meet and still help each other or just get away from the noise and hard things together. knowing they will be understood and getting to stand more and more on even ground with each other (because mitsuki is more confident now and it shows)
the process of falling for each other might have been subtle because of a lot of things but when they finally get the chance to properly be together again it all falls perfectly into place. as if they were meant to be after all
welp. what if i say kokuto's normal ending is the best for me. what if i make it his one and only canon ending. then what /lh
unfortunately, i was only able to check it out just now,,, but anyway. a very short rant from me (that's the last one as regards kokuto's route, i promise)
i know it's extremely simple and short and doesn't give him as much closure with his dad as his best ending might seem to, but in my opinion, it does what it should and serves him quite well for one simple reason—it gives him time and space to free himself from the shackles of his past and thus to heal and grow at his own comfortable and healthy pace
as much as i love his monologue by the sea in his best ending, i must say i only love it on the condition that it happens at least a few months later. a year or two later, in the best-case scenario. it was too hectic and belittled the incidence of the trauma he didn't even try to deal with for so many years. to me, it felt like he replaced the great importance which he attached to his dad in his life with kisa's "perfect" existence. at first, he believed in god who died, his dad, and then he found another god who's alive, kisa, who he can now build his whole personality and carrier around more easily and, seemingly, less painfully. that's what i see in it
his normal ending, on the other hand, is triggered with quartz winning mere silver which, in contrast to gold, doesn't give that "i'm a genuis" feeling back to him. it's the opposite: it grounds him, it makes him human, it helps him realize he isn't perfect (which i also find incredibly ironic because that's exactly how we started with him ordering around like a know-it-all he is which the game itself presented to us as a hurdle he needs to clear to become something more than a husk lol). he made a lot of mistakes in his life and has a long way to go before he can finally deem himself worthy, special, and talented. that's the point of the character development i think he should've come to all long
honestly, if he proceeded to deem himself a genius, he'd probably end up like his dad—having no one around to understand, help, and support him, giving sense and paying attention to someone else but never himself thus sealing his own doom too soon which is... definitely not what i like him to be
and don't even get me started with everything that involves kisa. i'm so glad to see him just . leaving her alone. LMAO. he doesn't tie her to himself, to his ideas and dreams. he just lets her enjoy her life and growth in univeil realizing, most likely, he can't be everything to her and there're people around her who are more reliable, who are better for her, better than him, at this very stage of her life
yeah... this ending is thought (and imagination) provoking, and i'm completely fine with it. i'm great. it's great. it makes me love my blorbo even more
sweats ….. i’ve been on the wave of anxiety the whole week due to personal stuff, and it kind of extended too far, so i had to unclaim the prompt in the jj event, unfortunately ;-; i’m fully aware there’s still so much time left, no need to hurry and all that, but also feel like people might find my portrayal of kiito somewhat iffy. my vision on things in general. i can’t really explain it unless i finally write something about him (hopefully, getting down to it after i finish what i’ve already started)
a bit sad and disappointed,,, participating in such an event meant getting to know more people, sharing thoughts and experiences, and here i am depriving myself of all that yet again. i wish i could just go and say fuck it, we ball, but i can’t TT perhaps next time
scratches head….. i definitely did not start a random kurokasa wip instead of the kiitokasa prompt i claimed in the summer fest and need to get down to asap
the thing is i realized one of my favorite songs fits kokuto and his father perfectly (+ kokuto’s loved one, which is tsukasa in my case) and couldn’t fight the urge to write about him “grieving” on his own, with no kisa by his side as it was a year ago, and realizing that he, in fact, is not alone
the fic is gonna be ver smol, but i’m posting it once i’m done writing. i want to drag more people into our kurokasa swamp UUUU TT
felt compelled to make a few memes with amber thanks to small bits of discussion we’ve had. might as well post part two later if you find these fun cuz i’ve got much more of them lol
i’m not sorry for the large powerful form chui; my friend has been complaining about his abs and clothes since day one and it can never not be funny to me
