In My Mind

Nihil/Xander. Trans. he/him/his. This is a random dumping ground for my various interests. Visual Kei, personal rants, fandom stuff, cute animals, funny pictures, etc.... Follow my writing blog @nihilwrites

[fairycosmos]

fucked that you can’t fix other people especially when you really care about them. Oh so im just supposed to be there for you while you suffer. like a useless cunt gargoyle

[apolladay]

Do you miss being in your late teenage years (16 - 19)?

Yes, strongly

Yes, a bit

No, I'm indifferent towards those years

No, I have complicated feelings about those years

No, I didn't like those years

I don't remember enough to form an opinion on this

Nuance/results

Do you miss being in your late teenage years (16 - 19)?

Yes, strongly

Yes, a bit

No, I'm indifferent towards those years

No, I have complicated feelings about those years

No, I didn't like those years

I don't remember enough to form an opinion on this

Nuance/results

Remaining time: 2 days 17 hours

[teathattast]

[patterns-pets]

When cats put their whole body into making a sound. Only to be squeak.

[artemisnihil]

Idk how to deal with my dramatic feelings I should be getting a stupid haircut but I’m already bald

[depsidase]

[chainofclovers]

Put in the tags the completely finished (whether cancelled or wrapped up on its own terms) TV series that has YOUR perfect ending, however you define that

Please don’t include huge spoilers for the specifics of the endings, and it would also make me happy if people don’t use this to talk about the shows whose endings they hated

[no-soul-no-sleep]

my boyfriend made this meme and said i can put it here so i did

[homunculus-argument]

Hey people who have several pets, with obvious differences in intelligence levels: How did you figure out that one of them is smarter than the other? What do they do?

[mikkeneko]

There are a lot of things that lead me to think my elder cat is unusually intelligent compared to other felis domesticus I have known (understands pointing, can open every door and cabinet in the house except the ones with round knobs or that I added child locks to, understands enough English to know from a phone conversation that a stranger is coming to the house) but in terms of specifically comparing one to the other, there was The Case Of The Mousey Puzzle Box.

When we got our younger cat Skadi, her favorite toy was (still is, but she's calmed down with age) the rattley mouse. She would bring the mouse to be thrown for fetch so many times that not even two human adults in the house could keep up with her. So my partner started making puzzle boxes to put the rattley mouse in that would occupy her for longer.

So, we have a setup: mouse is in the puzzle box, puzzle box is on the floor, younger cat is trying to resolve the puzzle box, elder cat is sitting on the cat tree observing all this. Skadi spends about fifteen minutes trying and failing to get the mouse out of the box. She sticks her paw into the holes. She sticks her nose into the holes. She pushes the box to and fro on the carpet. She meows beseechingly for a human to come solve the problem. Sticks her paws into the holes again.

Finally, she gives up on the puzzle box and wanders over to see if there's any food to be had. As soon as she walks away the elder cat gets up from the cat tree, big stretch, jumps down, walks over to the puzzle box, hooks a paw under the edge and flips the whole thing over, spilling the mouse onto the floor.

Gives the younger cat a look of utter disgust as if to say "That's all you had to do!" and then walks away, utterly uninterested in actually playing with the toy.

[bisexualbaker]

Older cat just subjected to fifteen minutes worth of those horrible mobile game ads where the player is failing really badly to make you want to play.

[marinella-ela]

[tiger-in-the-flightdeck]

There's something so deeply calming about watching megafauna prance and gambol about like they're little lambs

[blatantescapism]

Bison pronking is already so magical, and then the double rainbow and the happy birdsong just put it way over the top

[uwontrememberme]

everything will probably be fine but i have to get really anxious just in case

[sleepyspoonie]

when you see a tumblr poll with this picture attached and you know it's time to lock the fuck in lest you get a bad grade in an impromptu absurdist pop quiz you didn't know you were about to take

[myryzza]

Which Letter would be Most likely to Kill You?

A

C

H

I

J

L

M

N

Q

S

V

W

Voting ended onMar 15

[sleepy-salami]

i'm just saying that if i was kidnapped, tortured and killed, my broken body dumped to rot in the dirt next to the people i failed to protect, and my brilliant and terrifying goth crush came to look for me, and saw me, and understood me, and gave me what i wanted without having to ask, gave me fangs and claws and my murderers at my feet, gave me the power i never had in life, gave me the justice i never got in death, gave me the pure catharsis of letting the bastards get what they deserve without worrying my pretty head about anything else, i would also look at him like he hung the moon in the sky until the end of time. and what of it

[sleepy-salami]

and if you thought the "i give you permission to repay them in kind!" line was straight fire, how about this being the last line of the chapter in the old version of mdzs

“Since none of you will admit it, then I’ll let him point out the culprit himself.” As if he had been waiting for those words for a long time, a black silhouette stiffly rose from the ground.

[sleepy-salami]

i can't fully relate to any takes that treat wei wuxian raising wen ning as a fierce corpse as a straightforwardly violating/reprehensible act, bc like. yes sure there are lines that should not be crossed and these two are full speed drifting over them in circles, and the fact that consequences are still real but their long-term planning is for a few hours ahead tops, and the inescapable power imbalance this event creates between them, and the obvious danger of not only letting someone have full control over you but blindly trusting them to handle it, and obligatory murder is bad don't do it at home kids. but it's not like wei wuxian only used wen ning's body as a convenient tool to vent his frustration without sparing a thought for wen ning's own feelings on the matter? as if it's not explicitly framed as an ultimate power fantasy fueled by wen ning's OWN anger and desire for revenge that wei wuxian is giving him a chance to fulfill?? it's always “remember that wen ning is powered by resentment and not a pure uwu sunshine boy” to argue that he's secretly a bitch or something, but when his spirit is taking revenge on the fucking. labor camp officers who beat him to death in a dedicated torture shack suddenly it's “wrong” and “bad” and “disrespectful” and “how could wei wuxian do this to him“? smh. wei wuxian crawled out of a mass grave as a vengeful ghost himself!! HE GETS IT! HE GETS IT!!! they're each other's worst enablers because there are things they understand about each other better than anyone else!

[mikkeneko]

#i support undead corpse rights#but more importantly i support undead corpse wrongs#they could've been so much worse and i would still pull up with pompoms and a bullhorn#like yes king get his assss - via @whorerific

[californianlabyrinth]

So gay I'm reading romantasy for someone. Its made in response to the exact reasons I don't read romantasy. Fuck me I am about to take notes so I can better crit. Saints alive i am smitten

[artemisnihil]

So gay I’m reading Omegaverse. Which seems to be subverting ABO tropes I cannot even identify.

We are smitten 🤝

[thefloatingstone]

I think it's really funny that Japanese also has a word for "Edgelord" but theirs translates to "8th grader"

[holmoris]

it's not even '8th grader' it's even funnier. chunibyo is eighth grade syndrome. like explicitly a diagnosis. i diagnose you with edgelord

[asneakyfox]

real people cannot queerbait you. real people cannot queerbait you. if you suspect that a real person might be pretending to be possibly-queer for clout the correct thing to do about it is assume they know their own life better than you do and it's none of your business anyway and then shut the fuck up about it forever

[ticklefighthockey]

I think I vaguely agree with all the reblogs saying that shane seems like the type to listen to self-help books on audiobook. crucially though these are NOT brene brown type self help books about self-acceptance and unlearning shame. he does not see those as relevant to his life. they are instead all about hacking your circadian rhythm for peak performance and optimizing your routines to manifest greater success and using mindfulness techniques to mind-control your goalie into making more saves

[fractally]

I think it just blows peoples minds that Shane is both the bottom and more masculine than Ilya and so that’s why fics just kinda rewrite it and make Shane feminine. Like people can conceive of a power bottom that’s why everyone’s always going on about Shane dog walking Ilya or whatever. But they can’t conceive of a masc bottom. Even though he’s right there on screen