cami

get back here lesbian 19 she/her

[dismoondart]

they exactly where they want to be

[articsiren]

I often wonder what my passion is or what makes my heart yearn for more. For me, passion requires spontaneity, creativity and vision.Creativity & vision aren’t difficult for me to come by,I feel as if I spend too much time in head imagining and envisioning for me to be able to fulfill two out of the three requirements for passion ,but spontaneity is difficult for me, because spontaneity requires you to not be afraid to lose control, to not be afraid of failure,to share a piece of yourself with the world and i’m not quite to sure if I know how to do that yet.

I like control, I love a routine, I try to make sure at least 90% of my steps carry meaning, even me thinking theres certain requirements for a passion might still be me living in a rigid box. I often feel like an actress, like someone or something is watching me, yet I don’t know who I’m performing for what I am so scared for people to find out about me, but oddly enough it’s kind of nice feeling like an actress sometimes, I’m the only one who knows what drives me, what makes me want to be better, what makes me lose control and give into spontaneity, the downside to all of this though, is I don’t fully know either. I’ve yet to fully figure out what makes my heart beat and my soul yearn for more, but that confusion and lack of understanding for who I am is comforting, while others may try to figure out my image, I’m able to figure out my soul, i like knowing both parties will never fully understand me, never be able to fully figure it out, it keeps life interesting.

Something ive learned to discover about myself is that my passion isn’t necessarily a hobby or something physical but rather a feeling of discovery, knowledge , & understanding and how those feelings can morph and be created into some many different things, at least for now that’s exactly what makes my heart flutter.

-articsiren

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

alternatives to “i want to die”:

i want things to change

i want a different life

today was a shitty day/week

i don’t want to live like this

i want to be somewhere else in life

i’m not where i want to be yet

+ much more

[articsiren]

bottles scattered across the room, the blue liquor we drank now staining our lips, there was a cold chill to the air outside, yet in that room and in that space between us there was a warm feeling that was inescapable in our bodies and in my heart, our bodies pressed to one each-other not caring about who saw or passed…

[oxypill]

male pickme

[articsiren]

closest thing we will ever get to hell on earth

[pukicho]

You are not "three apples tall" bitch you are an evil ghoul and you are tall as fuck

[articsiren]

i need to be medicated like it’s not funny anymore

[articsiren]

that first cocteau twins listen on a sunny spring day…

[jjuuppiter]

playing dress up with tikki~ cute, cool and playful style ^^

[jjuuppiter]

minou minou minou 🐈‍⬛🌸

(cant believe we got a whole bread of marichat today 🥺)

[kosmogrl]

the day is gonna end anyway and your warm bed will be waiting so you might as well do the hard things and not let them ruin your day

[killonovas]

Backstage at Tom Ford fall 2014

[thisisalovestry]

file -> phrases that are going to shift something in me forever

[insomniparty]

[articsiren]

7 year tumblraversary is coming soon eeekkkkk

[articsiren]

this depressive episode has beat my ass in ways i didn’t know were possible

[articsiren]

give me ao3 now

[articsiren]

I LOVE GIVING GIFTS AND RECEIVING THEM!!! i trust the universe will always give me the creative and financial capabilities to give gifts to all my loved ones and myself

[articsiren]

got my friend clairo charm 1 year anniversary merch, animal crossing lego set and glossier cherry balm dot com i just need to get her a card and we r set!!