and then… it was just over? i don’t know what happened. it hasn’t been the same. believe me, we’re still very good friends, and i wouldn’t give that girl up for anything. i really, truly, love her, but there was a time where she was my best friend, the only person that i had, my light and my dark, and i know that i was the same person for her. and it’s not to blame her or anything, but we drifted over the summer and then just kinda replaced each other? now she has ********, and it’s not like i’m jealous of her or anything because ****** complains about her all the time, but she’s filling the role that i used to serve, and i’ve gone back to my dance of having everyone but no one at the same time. i guess what i mean to say is that we’ve gotten comfortable again. we’ve gone back to the way we used to be. and it makes me kinda sad. because i honestly don’t think she notices or cares? and if she does then she thinks that i don’t care and happily went on with her life. i thought i had her all figured out. i thought that she would need me forever. i thought that i was really the only one for her. i think we both knew that she’s the only one i’ve ever had, but she wouldn’t be my only one forever. she still thinks that i need her, because she knows that she’s one of my only outlets. i guess i had this fantasy that we would be the same forever. but times change, people change, life changed us. and now we’re just existing. we can go for weeks without texting, except there used to be at time where i stayed up till 5 am talking to her. she used to tell my everything, and know i’m the last one to know. i used to feel lost without her, like a beached whale, and now i’ve evolved. i strand myself on the edge of the island and then get up and keep walking. i don’t need her help to drag me to shore anymore. we clashed for just a moment, we melded, and now we’ve separated. i was a shoe, and she was gum. we stuck onto each other, and with every step you could feel the presence of the other on you. but then, someone stuck me in the freezer and then pulled the sticky right off. you’d think that you’d get some kind of relief from it, but i miss it. it had come to be calming, reassuring in a way. it was familiar. but then again, this feeling is the most familiar of all.