Art and Soul

I made this blog on a new year which was probably two years ago. Wanted to start things anew, with a separate identity and more freedom. This is for artworks made of color and emotions; wordspill raw and real. This is me trying to be me.

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If you come and ask me today whether or not I miss you, will I lie?

Won't I tell you that I think of you still, that your thought became a part of me before it was a memory and I still, very much, live in that hollow space that is not a void but isn't anything else either.

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Karma

My friend tells me karma avenges when we can't ourselves. What goes around comes around. So maybe one day, someone will tell you that they love you, and not mean it.

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Love & cure.

You see one and think love is their healing. You see two and think, yes, love. Love is what they need. You see three and you know for sure. Only if you love them more. Only if others love them more. Only if they could all love more and consequently, heal quicker, move better, live and die nicer. And then you look at yourself.

You know you love yourself. You know some people who love you dearly. You saw it. So what is it then..? Come, tell me, what is it then?

It's okay to open sometimes, as it is.

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Here is what you will do next

Make art. Lots and lots of it. Do every good thing you ever wanted to do. Take your revenge like this. Grow more. Start.

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You were farthest when I needed you the most.

this is how I will remember you.

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far.

I have never wanted you more beside me. To hold my hand. To hide me in your arms.

You have never been this far. This utterly unreachable far. This I-can’t-see-you-anywhere far. My eyes are blurring with the constant looking. My heart hurts. It hurts and I don’t think any word will do justice to the amount of it. And anyway, how can you know? Why would you want to know?

You are not here and you don’t care. If you cared, well, why even fancy that...

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yearning

I miss you and want you. I can’t help it.

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Fear of failure

You see everyone doing it so great and you want to do it too, oh how badly you want to do it too, and not for them, but for yourself, but this fear... this fear of not being good enough, this fear of not ‘deserving’ to be out there. this fear will eat your art. gobble down on your creativity, your papers printed in poetry won’t even make it to the dustbin because you won’t let them out first!

You have got to start, dear one. Start somewhere. Let it be. Let you be. In your own messy little way. The world wants unique.

And trust me, you want it most.

Try, try and stop protecting this fear like a sacred fire for it only grows like that. Instead, let your thing set things aflame!

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Owning your story is the bravest thing you will ever do.

Brené Brown  (via wordsnquotes)

Planning to do that.

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Potential love[r] lost

I am sorry for being the way I am. I know you tried— But I think you didn’t try enough — you got tired sooner than what one can expect from a potential lover.

It won’t be true for you to say you didn’t want anything from me That you only wanted to “love” and give that Because trust me I inspected every movement, big or small And I know that’s all you ever wanted: a return gift. And I don’t blame you for that You deserved to get what you give. But not from me— Because I was very out of love And at least I didn’t hide that from you.

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just sad.

It's not even coming to me—I can't properly say it. So I'm gently trying to breathe and Curse everything without meaning it and Slowly fading out without really going anywhere 'cause I'm stuck Stuck in this hellhole you left me at I hate you and miss you so terribly, I can't I am low on defense mechanisms and other jolly tricks to keep moving but That's what I'll do. I'll find a way. HOWEVER this time Just this time I want to find another one. Maybe something that stays

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1005

You still cross my mind many a times a day.

How crazy is that?

I can’t not think of you. I have tried. A zillion times I’ve tried.

I’ve even tried not trying. I’ve tried all...

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To do/ wish-list

- beach reading [safe]

- slam poetry [confidently]

- northern areas tour and photography [and perhaps more of the world]

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Ugh

Two years. Bloody two years. I go back to read your messages so it would cause me pain. And because I have no other remnant of you left. This heart and those signals. Those bits. Broken, distant bits. Rusty dust.

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Months have passed.

Listen, it’s so sad what you’ve done. It’s so breaking. It’s so tearing.

Would you believe if I tell you I still feel the same twist in my stomach when your name comes up? That I cannot blame this tear on anyone else because I just know whose name it calls..

I search for you still. And it leaves me rolling in pain.

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Of absenting.

My new year resolution

Of not checking your blog or Facebook or Twitter

Mostly Twitter

Is going pretty well until now.

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