tw @ashamedtobeme - Tumblr Blog

!disclaimer!

i do not promote or encourage dangerous or self destructive behaviours such as cutting or any other kind of self harm.

this blog is intended for me to vent about my feelings

i do not wish the things i experience on anyone else

if you’re struggling get help

I don’t want to live anymore

Not even in a depressed way

I do not want to live in an emotionless world, where people don’t care about the affects of the things that they are doing.

How can you not care that ai is killing the environment?

How can you not care that the food they put on the shelves are full of chemicals?

How can you not care how animals are treated in order to be mass produced and fed to people?

How can you not care about the rich getting richer as we get poorer?

HOW CAN YOU NOT CARE ABOUT THE AFFECT YOU HAVE ON THE WORLD

I am so dramatic

I want to be a pretty girl

All my friends hate me

Fuck me then I guess

I’m such a fucking idiot

My class graduated today and I didn’t

I feel so hopeless

I feel like doing something permanent and drastic

always crazy that someone loves me despite me being like this

What if I stopped smoking weed and actually spent a day sober

I don’t deserve my bf he deserves so much better than me omg

I got an age prompt that asked me for my age instead of my birthday and I put 18 at first before correcting it

Girl where are you pulling that number out of it has been 3 years

What the fuck

I remember the first time I wore makeup and my mom called me ugly

It wasn’t even much makeup it was JUST eyebrows

Realized I’ve been clean over a year now. I think.

I think the last time I cut was March-April 2025.

No way to be sure tho

Idk

Why do I feel like a lost kid

Like get me out of here

I feel like the opposite of Benjamin button. As my body ages my brain is going back in time

I’m becoming less capable and less mature and less logical than I was

tw