Writings of my thoughts

“Write what should not be forgotten”

[asimplenormalperson]

The Accident

The doctors and nurses put her weak body on the stretcher.

They began to connect various things to her and measure others.

While she didn't know exactly what was going on.

Everything seemed to go in slow motion with a blurry vision.

She felt the movement of the stretcher begin to move rapidly.

Voices at her sides begged her to be okay and not to leave.

They asked the doctors all the time to rescue her and help her.

She looked up where the ceiling was dizzying as white as it was.

The smell in the hallways was medicine and people.

In the background you could hear people crying, laughing, babies or children crying.

Although she looked like any other place it was a bloody hell.

The girl hoped that she didn't make it to the emergency room on time.

To not have to be hospitalized in that place once again.

[asimplenormalperson]

Time

Since the last time I decided to write here, I had not realized how much had happened in so little and too much time at the same time.

sometimes time can be something that seems eternal as well as short

and throughout this journey we have managed to live and take with us unforgettable experiences

new learning and achievements as well as failures

time is part of our daily lives, we cannot advance it, go back, or stop it

just live every second of it

you decide how to treat your time and how to take advantage of it or waste it all on the edge

It is something valuable to everyone, something that no one can control or figure out.

However, it came to ring when we came to this life, and it will stop ringing when we finish.

[caostalgia]

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[asimplenormalperson]

I told her I would never leave her like the other people in her past...

But then I learned there was a reason everyone left.

[asimplenormalperson]

Wanting to laugh, cry, get angry or express whatever was exhausting

Couldn't feel anything real

Nothing was really expressed

She had told herself that she expected nothing next year, and it started off in the worst way.

nothing could be recovered

One month into the new year and she only felt an emptiness and rebuke in her chest.

She no longer cared much

She had stopped eating, sleeping, talking, acting, living

she was dead inside

And no one noticed

And those who did try to help

But she never left them, she denied them help because she didn't want to cause trouble and drama.

she saved them

she kept them

and that made everything worse

She feared reaching that phase but she was already there.

[asimplenormalperson]

I just feel so empty

[asimplenormalperson]

“Last chance”

I usually give up very easy, it kinda hurt and tired just to see how I get down everyday without improved.

Maybe some days I’m on the top but others I’m just on the floor without doing nothing at all.

But this will be the last chance that I will give them.

The last one, becouse I’m done trying always.

Just one more chance, and it’s done.

[asimplenormalperson]

“Happiness again”

This feeling confuses me a bit

I can't understand it

But for some reason I like to feel it

I like how it was formed and how it grows in me

I think it's happiness-

One second..

-I'm happy?

-Did I make it?

-Am I happy again?

Yes I am

I smile as I wipe the tears from my eyes

-The war is finally ending

-I can smile in peace

-I can take off my mind and free myself from everything

-Because I'm happy again.

[asimplenormalperson]

“Special day”

It was just a single day

A day which since he was a child excited him

The day that made him feel loved and important once again

But it didn't feel the same anymore

could not be the same

had grown and matured

And I knew that things would change

I had no other options

It only remained to open my eyes

look in front of me

Make a wish

And blow out the candles

"Happy Birthday to me"

[asimplenormalperson]

How do you do to stop feeling?

[asimplenormalperson]

[asimplenormalperson]

And so when the world turned its back on me

You came into my life and made me look forward again

[asimplenormalperson]

No es necesario que te esfuerces tanto por demostrar algo que no eres, eres suficiente y haz hecho un gran trabajo ♥︎

[asimplenormalperson]

Tired Of You

That strange feeling in your chest

That feeling that confuses me

That feeling that you hate so much

I hate feeling my chest so tight

I hate to feel this kind of hate and feeling again

It seemed to have disappeared for a moment and came back

That feeling that causes stress and irritation

That feeling that comes back every time that moment passes

I wish I could control it but it's hard

They just arrive and the feeling goes with them

But I hope that soon I will be able to dare

And finally spit it out to stop feeling it

Because I'm making several advances

And I won't let them step on my face again

And to see my face of idiot again

I’m done with your games and jokes

This is my final point.

[asimplenormalperson]

One minute

In just one minute everything can change in your life.

Be it an action or phrase.

Whether it's something you've done or said.

Things can change in a matter of minutes to seconds.

You never really know how and when it happens.

Sometimes we start to analyze and think about it.

We think: "How did this come to pass?"

"How did I get to where I am?"

"When will I change so much?"

Life changes us from one click to another.

We don't really know what kind of action will change us completely.

In a day you said that you would never do a thing.

And the next day it fascinates you.

One day you liked to play with your toys.

And the next day it was just a childhood of yours.

Everything advances and changes every second that passes the day.

It's more.

You may be doing something right now that is going to change something in your whole life and you don't realize it.

And everything can change in just a minute.

[asimplenormalperson]

Let you go

I should feel good right?

feel proud

That she finally manage to continue without needing me.

But it's not like that.

I just feel more excluded.

I feel like I don't matter anymore.

As if it were just a replacement.

As if I were left in her past.

It seems we are too far apart.

You no longer worry or ask about me.

You don't look for me anymore and you don't care.

And you don't care how I've felt and how I've gone.

I don't understand why I feel this way.

Maybe it's envy.

Maybe it's just jealousy.

Or maybe it's fear of being alone again.

I'm a little afraid of losing you.

Since I met you I had it.

But I think it's time to leave you.

And put an end to our relationship.

I'm sorry if I was a burden and that's why you walked away from me.

Or if I become very dry in my answers.

But hey, I'm writing this for a reason.

To accept that things are like that.

We are no longer like before that we talk to each other until dawn.

Or that we care about each other.

So let's accept it please.

This relationship of ours may have never really worked out.

Thanks for your company.

And thanks for being there.

But I come to say goodbye to you.

Because I don't want to get hurt anymore because of you.

[asimplenormalperson]

“𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚊𝚕𝚕"

I went up the stairs slowly.

My gaze remained on every step he took.

In the air his strength increased and my hair accompanied him.

When I felt that I had already reached the limit I directed my gaze to the front.

I stared at the door for a while and then turned the handle.

I pushed the door causing it to open.

I walked to another door that was inside the room.

When I opened it I was on the roof of my house.

Take a breath and walk across the roof.

I reached the shore where the wind was stronger and my hair was directed to my face.

I saw the sky for a moment, it was clear and there was sun.

There was no noise from the street below me.

I looked down and saw the street.

I took another step without taking my eyes off until I found myself completely on the shore.

I thought for a few moments.

"Just jump and all that pain will be over"

I pressed my lips and hands to my sides making a decision.

"No one would miss you"

I took about 2 more steps to the point where my toes were dangling in the air.

"But it's necessary?"

The question made my head spin.

I began to balance playing with my own life.

Until tears began to cloud my vision.

My lips started to tremble.

I could only see below without stopping to think.

Maybe it was true.

Maybe it just wasn't that necessary.

It hurt me.

My chest hurt and I breathed.

Was I really going to jump?

Is this how it would all end?

That was all?

....

I suppose not.

I took a few steps back, looking straight ahead and feeling my cheeks wet with tears.

And I just broke.

I fell to my knees, hugged myself and broke.

Because I didn't have the courage to do it.

And that gave me courage.

“It was supposed to be just a fall”