"Where does one go when they die?"

Maybe together we can stop, grieving together?

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Guess its time I introduce myself:

I am (Formally) TheAllConsuming: i am 18 year old bisexual male of Latino decent. And I am not of any faith, nor involved in any real Notable factions or groups to list. Save for conditions i live in shame with, such a ADHD. Amongst other conditions im not willing to vocalize yet. And expect this blog to be BIPOLAR AS HELL, we'll go to fandom stuff to me ranting, to me talking about something that came around my mind. So,get ready bitches

DNI: if you dont like to hear about topics that are kinda sad or would fall under "dead dove" and whip into me being down bad, to angry and so on

LIKES

● Sleep token (and most rock & metal music)

● Dr pepper

● Most of my fandoms

● art with passion (even if a little jank or ugly)

● the complex creation of OCs

● reading literature whenever i can

● the few loyal strings that keep me in reality

● really strange humor

● studying fictional biology of species in media

● horses, harpoons, and Hyenas

● clear and concise orders

● fanfics

DISLIKES

● most political candidates

● at least 35% of people

● art of all forms without passion or heart

● my failures

● most of my biological family

● my ADHD

● the eternal hunger that plagues me

● unclear and muttered orders

● my existence

● MOST COUNTY MUSIC

MUTUAL

my only real association with anyone is my "boss" or "sibling" whatever title they may choose to represent themselves with. And they are nobody else but

@pyxilate

CONCLUSIONS? Well its that

I have nothing but my sorrow and I want nothing more. It has been, it still is, faithful to me.

Why should I begrudge it, since during the hours when my soul crushed the depths of my heart, it was seated there beside me?

O sorrow, I have ended, you see, by respecting you, because I am certain you will never leave me.

Ah! I realize it: your beauty lies in the force of your being. You are like those who never left the sad fireside corner of my poor black heart.

O my sorrow, you are better than a well-beloved: because I know that on the day of my final agony, you will be there, lying in my sheets, O sorrow, so that you might once again attempt to enter my heart.

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

HEY HEY HEY, GUESS WHO HAS SOMETHING TO ADD ITS THIS GUY

So to add all the fandoms (or media i interact with) im into and can expect post vaguely referencing it, or what not. Now this isn't the complete list but the ones you might find me in should you track me down across all forms of social media or find me interacting with

SHOWS/ANIME/MOVIES (mostly anime, because im a dork)

RWBY (had a big phase when I was kid, hadn't watched it since, been planing on a rewatch)

Jujitsu Kaisen

Chainsaw Man

The Amazing Digital circus

Gachiakuta (hey bud if your reading this, there's fine women over here)

Umamusume (horses? i love. Funny ladies? I love. Mixed together? I adore)

A decent chunk of marvel based shows

Same with DC comics

Kpop demon hunters (it made me laugh really good so obviously I'm looking out for it)

Don't watch many movies, mostly since I get impatient or too busy insulting or joking about it's logic to care about the plot

GAMES (I have a lot, but not all I can share so I'll condense it to groups)

GACHA GAMES (Genshin, ZZZ, HSR, and others alike like Wuthering Waves, or ARKNIGHTS ENDFIELD, Umamusume. AND LIMBUS COMPANY)

Any hoard shooters such as: payday, Left 4 Dead, Darktide, Vermintide, (killing floor i think it's counts will edit)

Rogue-lites/likes: Hades, Balatro, Darkest Dungeons, binding of Isaac, (Mewgenics. been meaning to play this one, but don't have it due to being broke), Dead Cells

Soulsbourne/Souls-likes: Bloodborne, Sekiro: Shadows die twice, Lies of P, Elden Ring (and Eldenring Night Reign)

Shooters: Call of duty/modern warfare (used to anyhow), TitanFall 2 (God i miss that game), TeamFortress 2 (had the orange box back on ps3, played the shit out of that, and now on my shifty laptop). Deadlock (technically a MOBA but it's in closed beta and im ACHING FOR A INVITE CODE)

Horror games: FNAF (classic), Outlast (love this series especially Trials), No I'm not human (love that vibe), Mouthwashing (first psychical horror that actually made me silently complement my life)

Cozy/chill stuff: Minecraft (occasionally when it's on my PS I'll mess about with it assuming I hadn't deleted it), Coffee Talk (making brews and getting to do impromptu VA work with my brothers? Good stuff...)

Man i just realize i don't have Cozy games in my library, no wonder I'm so fucking strung out

MISCELLANEOUS SHIT

WARHAMMER FANTASY/40K: (I know more about 40k, it's really interesting. It's just huge chunks of the fandoms suck)

WORLD OF DARKNESS: (also a real interesting little TTRPG with all the lore and the funny shit in it. Also if you need to be introduced to it? Just watch Bruva Alfabusa's video on the WOD it's a real funny intro of what to expect, hell he even has a web series set up inside WOD that's a good way to learn how to really get into the mood

PROJECT MOON: Lobotomy Corp, Library of Ruina, and Limbus company. All goated with other small little addiction to its lore like Distortion Detective and Leviathan (i think that's the right title). It's music and writing? It's absolutely fantastic. And I've been trying to find a way to properly introduce it to my buddy

DC/MARVEL/IMAGE COMICS: I like comics, like a lot. I go to a comic store pretty regularly with my brothers (i don't buy any personally since I have no interest in having a collection) i love them.. I just don't like taking the limited space i got up

Minecraft ARGs: you find me a good ARG with a decent plot and maybe a good narrator as they bisect it for me? Oh baby im good. Plus it's all yours.

Epic the musical (and anything by Jorge Rivera-Herrans) if you take a left at the cross roads you'll find my addiction to this musical and my awaiting for my next fix. I won't die until it comes and INJECTS ITSELF INTO MY BRAIN

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

GUESS WHAT? MUSIC TIME, THATS RIGHT I HAVE GROWN COMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO SHARE MY MUSICAL TASTES ON THIS SITE. This isn't a full list of all the artists I listen to but the ones I certainly enjoy

SYSTEM OF A DOWN: i like metal, and social commentary and they do both

SLIPKNOT: IM A METAL HEAD I GUESS. NOT TOO BIG BUT PLENTY OF APPRECIATION FOR IT

KORN: music kinda helps me with my home life. Even if some songs don't apply to me but my brothers more.

PIERCE THE VEIL: emo Mexican time

SLEEP TOKEN: mean....do i have to add anything more to this note

BAD OMENS: that singers voice does something to my body I can't say

TYLER THE CREATOR: it's basics but I like it, plus Why not?

KENDRICK LAMAR: been listening to more of him as of late, with a lot of a older rap. If yall got suggestions send them my way

6LACK (BLACK): i like his music, sure I don't know much of the guy but he's earned a spot

AVENOIR: also don't know much of this guy but FUCK is this music a good one (especially when reading a real steamy fanfic)

THE WEEKEND: mean I was probably too young to be listening to his music, but when you know the guy and his struggles it really gives you a certain perspective on his music (even if he gets out of his league by trying to make a movie)

MFDOOM: been listening to his stuff, and they've been joining my personal Playlist

GORILLAZ: I grew up on this shit and I don't skip any of the rap in the music

WILL WOOD (plus Will wood and the tapeworms): it's good music that I find myself listening to

ADO: one of the best Japanese artists i found myself listening to

KENSHIN YONEZU: wonderful music by this lad, can't help but vibe anytime they come up on my Playlist

JOHNNY CASH: one of the few country folk I actually like. (May god bless his soul)

REFUSED: they make good music i can't help but find myself scream singing "Jackels can't be bothered to dream" or "I wanna watch the world burn" anytime it plays, even if it makes me seem like a loser

Paramore: do I? I'm sure you blasted misery business in you ear before

AND ONE: found him off social media trends and all that. But damn the music is good.

SHE WANTS REVENGE: now this is the freaky music. And I can't help but enjoy

KINO: now I don't speak half a tidde wink of any Slavic language but damn do I enjoy this music

SADSVIT: Ukrainian, I don't speak any of it. But I enjoy the music, and well its good music and I want to support. So who cares

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Im apart of this discord server for project moon fans and its half a absolute clown show and somehow we had two members of our server have a duel and one had died.

(We revived them and by i mean we, I mean myself i got the cred surprisingly)

But we ended up having one of the most melodramatic and somber scenes worth of a fucking Grammy because what do you mean my work was imperfect and all I had given them was a delay to death?

It was so dramatic as I practically acted like a fatherly figure comforting a scared child after their brush with death and realization that I had failed technically speaking and them coming to a somber but calm confronting of their demise?

I JOINED BECAUSE IT WAS FUNNY AND NOW IM PRACTICALLY IN A RP SERVER?! AND IM A PLOT IMPORTANT CHARACTER?

Fuck, I didn't think this would be my fate. And I hate it was so good idea cried slightly and it became a muse for a future drawing

And now with each ring of my notifications im actually so invested im FOAMING OUT THE MOUTH for a continuation because it was so ENRICHING TO MY MIND. Maybe because how invested I've become to this main party that drives the main conflict and conversions of this server (and that im apart of it)

This server feels like this post made manifest

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

I have a compulsive hatred for being observed while i draw. So I cant draw in the kitchen like brother does, so I gotta wait for him to FUCKING LEAVE THE ROOM WE SHARE BECAUSE THATS THE ONLY PLACE I LIKE THE DRAW ON MY BED

[pyxilate]

I think what my favorite game to play with ppl occasionally is be like “if you could instantly learn any 5 languages on top of what you know already, which languages would you pick” because for some people, it changes over time, especially if they’re younger or their tastes in media change frequently. For others, usually older people or those who tend to have more stagnant preferences, it generally stays the same, frequently associating directly to locations they’d want to visit later. (for example, one of my languages I’d pick is French, because I took 2 years of French classes and retained nothing except the difference between Bonjour and Bonsoir. My mom picked French because she wants to go to France)

So to test this theory, I’ve decided to come to tumblr and make a silly lil tag game. Basically, its just, include your age, and at this time, five languages you pick that you would learn instantly.

@people-displeaser (cause I know you like tag games), @biteygremlinanon , @zippyskyfalls , @fireinthefoxpen , @robot-prince-of-the-apocalypse , @luceygoosey9 , @holybananapants, and, uhh… @grey-rays-of-sunshine and @asingularlamentingbutterfly (stop changing your url goddamnit!!)

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

No i shall not, im a growing boy who changes his name based on his self perception of himself. Also my answer is as follows

Spanish

Arabic

French

Korean

Nahuatl (one of the many languages of the native population of Mexico)

That's my answer, mostly for practical reasons and the last for the fun factor

I dont really know anyone here to tag so..I guess open?

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Past me to future me when he decided that a guitar/chainsaw was a good idea for a weapon design and that im probably going to suffer drawing it

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Things are in motion

AKA: im going to suffer by drawing. Probably after a nap

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Me when the vacant urge to rebrand my whole profile once more because of a fleeting fancy

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

I've rebranded....again, this time because I've began to accept my flaws. No longer a roach but a fleeting butterfly

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Me when the vacant urge to rebrand my whole profile once more because of a fleeting fancy

[lainsdomain]

OH MY GOD

[pyxilate]

@zippyskyfalls

WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Huh, not my act not my role. But I am interested

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Honestly the more I suffer trying to save people from their flaws the more and more I realize its me trying to avoid my own

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Me explaining what new lore or factions I've made (i barely remember it so Im going of vacant urges that are telling me that im saying the right thing) and also trying to find ways to glaze my buddy and my characters

[telumendils]

hello, average tumblr user. your challenge is to name a canonically lesbian female character in the tags of this post. if you name a male character for any reason, you will be shot in the head. good luck.

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

I find it funny. That how me and buddy @pyxilate would write like a random scene is that they'd opt in for dramatics, maybe emotionally dense scenes where the dialog show itself, where it feels more character interaction centric which is usually shows characterization through interaction with others which i like a lot (I just notice that she likes dialog more than description but hey, we all have our quirks)

And i would normally go for more casual, hide the meanings in the description the words might be short but the description from movement to mood to internal affairs of that person, to the occasional screen in my drafts that I spend half paragraph and a half describing how my character perceived themselves or someone random thing (I like writing characterization through integration with the world, and no i wont even post a fanfic because im too afraid I'll be called the worst creator ever and im afraid you'll laugh at me and call my projects cringe)

Then we'd probably both end up having something like this happening in some random during an action scene because we for some reason have ocs that are full blown freelancers who probably kill for half their living wages

Probably while the subplot included someone having a cute date with some girl at a pool being taught to swim with their crush and its overall cute and romantic but their platonic polycue parents is probably mid firefight while she has the time of her life

I cant wait for cyberpunk season 2 BTW and Im using this clip from the trailer to show my love and talk about my ocs

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Stole this shit, this fucking meme is frying the shit out of me and I cant help but laugh. Also have my rant on jax in the tags, I like the amazing digital jax show. But I was disappointed when I saw the ending and there wasn't much on the terms of lore

Like yeah it delivered the themes of "we only have ourselves so let's make bonds, that make and or Unmade us" or "find purpose in the purposely deprived life" but fuck man..i liked it

[kal8elle]

Superwoke 🤝 Super-bisexual

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

Conservatives when anything is slightly positive

[justgaming365]

[feralpumpkincatgirl]

some good tags on this one fellas

[enron-intern-1998]

Thank god I get to visit Pelican Town

[the-silly-words-on-your-screen]

Uh. Darktide??

I am????

SO fucked??????

[that-0ne-loser]

Middle of nowhere but blocks

(Minecraft)

[asingularlamentingbutterfly]

I AM IN PROJECT MOON DURIN LIMBUSCOMPANY: THE CITY I AM SO FUCKED

[toruandmidori]