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Hiatus

I thought about it and um, I decided I don’t think I’m going to do anything with this blog for probably a pretty long while. I don’t feel as if I want to or should interact with anyone on here. So, I’m going on hiatus. I don’t know for how long, I just know it’ll be a long time before I return here. Bye for now.

The post with the screenshots showing what I did got messed up somehow. I had to go in and edit it. I’m pretty sure I put back the screenshots that were missing when I had to delete duplicate pieces of text. I couldn’t go to sleep until I fixed that. I’m going to sleep now.

I’m Confessing to Everything I’ve Done

(I couldn’t include every screenshot showing what I did because there’s a limit to how many images I can add. So, here’s the link to all of the screenshots if you want to see them. You can find them here.)

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/8tnqa5jgyywpbd5/AAAbVbaDZFd9AiMLc0uPmXR8a?dl=0

I lied and deceived all of you. I’ve been pretending to be something I’m not. I’ve been using Vile as an excuse to hurt people this entire time. To be verbally abusive to so many. I lied about being a system to my friends and everyone, acting as if I had alters. When I never did. I just didn’t want to accept that I did all of those things myself. That I could be so hateful and cruel. I used everything a friend told me about himself, some really deep personal stuff, to hurt him. Because I wanted to. I used and manipulated people through Vile and acted as if it was okay. i lied to some people who were trying to help me “get rid of Vile”, faking having alters to them, too. I lied about the whole situation, because I wanted it to be true. I wanted an explanation for why I wasn’t bothering to hold myself back. I tried blaming someone else, even though it was me doing everything. Never anyone else. Um, I have screenshots to show everything I did as well.

Where I lashed out in my anger to hurt my friend. Because I wanted to. I faked it being Vile’s fault, when that was all me. I did that to him and was verbally abusive in attacking him. I didn’t restrain myself even though I could have.

Where I lied to everyone in my server about Vile and Dire being alters of mine. They never were. It was all my doing, just rping as him to talk to people. I lied about the whole situation.

This person accused me of faking having alters, only rping as them. They were right, but, I lied to them about it. Making excuses about the whole thing.

I lied to my friend about it not being me who was responsible for saying what I did to him. Even when he asked me, I denied all of it. Because I didn’t want to believe I did that to him. I couldn’t accept I actually wanted to hurt him so bad. But, I did. I still lied to him and tried to act as if it wasn’t me, though.

I lied to the people who were trying to help me “get rid of Vile”. I was just rping everything that happened. I never had any alters to get rid of or kill. I used these people and manipulated their trust.

@inkygoo and @ask-tinybendy

I am so sorry for hurting you. Using you, manipulating you. For what I said to you. I’m sorry I lied about having alters and tried blaming everything I did on Vile when it was all me. I’m sorry I used your friends to help me get rid of him when he was never an alter to begin with. I’m sorry I didn’t just confess everything when you asked me why and accused me of lying about being a system. You were right, I never was. I only wanted it to be true because I didn’t want to believe I actually wanted to hurt you like that. I’m sorry for abusing you and being so hateful. I was angry, but, I shouldn’t have taken it out on you. I never should have lied to you about any of it. I’m sorry. I hurt you in the worst way because I wanted to.

On second thought, I think I will delete them. I don’t want to be tempted to slip back into that behavior and continue hurting others through him. I’m erasing every post with Vile.

I was going to erase everything having to do with Vile off my blog because I don’t want anything to do with him anymore. But, I don’t know. I want to cut him out of my life for good, yet, I’m not sure if I should leave the posts as a reminder to myself. I will delete every ask I have for him, though. As he’s not a part of this blog any longer.

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Emergency Commissions

// Hey, Tiny’s mun here so i need to make over $50 dollars before the end of this month or my laptop will be taken away because there needs to be monthly payments on it to pay it off and i’ve applied to many places and i haven’t heard back from any of them and i won’t be able to keep this blog going if i don’t have this laptop. I won’t be able to draw or anything so i’m going to try to make the money through commissions. I don’t draw much as it is but here’s what i can offer

Not the best examples but these are my most recent icons but usually charge around $5-$10 for these

Giant full reference sheet, these take a while to complete so i would charge these around $20-$30 depending one the complexity of the character

Any money donated i’ll do a small doodle for to show my appreciation ;w;

Please if you want a commission or want to donate anything dm me! And if you can’t do either reblogging this will help greatly :’3

fendybendy

((Everyone go help my buddy. They need it ;u; ))