ASKBOX: OPEN Please read the rules first, click the first linkbar (gray) right under this box! (click the other bars too it'll be fun i promise) "...why is summer hot and winter cold" art ask blog for kozume kenma, from haikyuu!! (tracking askpuddinghead)
GOSH it took me way too long to actually address this, I’m sorry to all the people who’ve been kept hanging… I did mean to keep this blog going but real life issues got in the way, then after things settled I found most of my motivation for this blog diminished T_T I have several new projects going on as it is, so I’ve decided to just up and say: No, this blog isn’t active any more.Thanks sincerely to all the lovely people who sent in asks, they were very much appreciated, and I’m sorry to anyone who never got an answer ; _ ; I had lots of fun, I hope you all did too! I won’t delete this blog, just in case any of you want to come back and look at the old posts, and if by any chance you wanna see more of my art pop on over to my artblog (onesandwichshort)…! Thanks again ///_///)
On the summer of his first year as a uni student Kuroo comes home from the dorms to the biggest shock in his life…((I like to think that once Kuroo graduates Kenma starts getting used to doing stuff on his own, and becomes comfortable enough to cut his hair short. The lady at the parlor may or may not have pointed out that just having longish front hair would pretty much work just as well as having long hair all around. Kenma’s pretty much the same other wise?? Maybe a little taller, some 170cms in height. He’s the kind of person people say “You really haven’t changed at all!” to at school reunions. ))"…what."(sounds of Kuroo spluttering loudly in the distance)
hey mun? do you head canon that kenma has social anxiety? i haven't had a chance to read the manga yet, but i've watched 21 episodes of the anime. and things that kenma has said have really lead me to believe that. i was wondering your thoughts?
Hoo boy. I literally spent the whole time after you sent this reviewing the anime/manga and chewing over the idea of Kenma having Social Anxiety. I’ll try to avoid writing a whole essay…
Thanks for the input! I see there are some details I've missed, mostly because of my lack of experience. Please don't hesitate to add your own thoughts! I'd literally give a penny for anyone's thoughts.
Since your ask box is closed and all, I’m just going to respond on this reblog. I hope that’s okay?
Also, disclaimer: As askpuddinghead has already mentioned, I cannot represent the whole SA population with my story. I have talked to multiple people with this disorder, and never has one story ever been the same, that’s literally part of the reason its such a tricky thing to deal with, okay?
So I first just want to say, I’m not hear to yell at you. Not at all. I’m here to love you and tell you your research has definitely paid off ＼(^o^)／… And provide a little bit of feedback. Also disclaimer of summing up some years long emotions into a short essay thing? Not fun.
SA is kind of like, a mix of introversion and shyness x30 and then through in some anxiety attacks and emotional turmoil over the dumbest shit like jfc self what the hell.
Kidding, kidding.
Sort of.
Anyway, as I said before, I can’t speak for everyone. I can give a great example as to how I’m just that different. Most people I’ve spoken to, speaking in front of crowds is like this horribly scary event. Me? It makes me nervous, yeah, but I actually don’t hate it that much.
Best explanation I can give for that is because of the way I most likely acquired social anxiety(for length purposes I’m not going to go all into that and quite a few other things, but I’d be happy to answer if you want to ask separately) was based on my inability to hold conversations with people. I still have a lot of issues with conversations, most of the time I look emotionless, despite being far from, stutter through words, come up blank so I just don’t talk. Blah, blah, blah it’s the same old things.
And you are right in a lot of ways about SA issues. You mentioned loss of control, but the big thing is loss of thought control. The thing about SA, is that, at least for me, it’s one of the most ironic things out there. Why? Well, it has completely taken away all my self-esteem. Completely. The only self-confidence I have is in that I have no self-confidence. But at the same time, it makes you one of the most arrogant pieces of shit.
Like everything is about myself and something I probably messed up. If someone looks in my general direction for too long? Oh it’s obviously cause I was doing something weird and I’m sorry please don’t look at me. That group project we got a B on instead of an A? Shit, shit you should have had Jennifer instead me you definitely would have gotten the A then I’m sorry. Thinking of that one question you messed up in front of class for a few hours/days/weeks. It just in general makes social things so difficult. I’m constantly focused on my surroundings and how other people react to me, so I never get a break when outside of my house.
This is kind of where the defining line between shyness and SA is. Though it’s always going to be sort of blurry, since they intertwine so much, the best way to define it, I think, is the amount of consistent emotional turmoil it causes.
Using Kenma as an example, do I think he actually, in cannon, has SA issues? Nope, nope, and nope. Well it is actually impossible to know, considering the creator will probably never address it, and since social anxiety is so much focused on how thoughts, it’s hard to tell unless that’s the main character in first (Or third person introspective…) person POV. But well, Kenma doesn’t really seemed bothered by being even sort of socially inept, just that he chooses the people he likes and sticks near them. Other people make him uncomfortable, but not SA level. Most of it you covered for him, but I guess there I one more thing to mention.
SA doesn’t take away your ability to read social cues, what it does, though, is take away your ability at times to differentiate between a cue you implemented on a person, and one they actually gave(Can go along with what I mentioned above.) Kenma doesn’t really do this, if anything he ignores them, rather panics over them.
Also, this is basically me saying cannon Kenma doesn’t. Whatever you write for FF Kenma doesn’t bother with canon, it’s just
That’s it. This is horrendously long, I’m so, so sorry. If you want to ask me anything(Or just want an explanation that’s easier to understand than this big jumble of words like jfc I can’t explain this shit easily since it’s such a big and emotional thing. Plus once I get started it’s like unplugging a drain I start letting out whatever comes to mind…)
Also.
I’ll write the thing. I will write you SA Kenma and its effects on the others if you actually want it. I’m totally willing.(But shhh don’t tell my friend she’d literally kill me for putting more ways to procrastinate on my plate.)
hey mun? do you head canon that kenma has social anxiety? i haven't had a chance to read the manga yet, but i've watched 21 episodes of the anime. and things that kenma has said have really lead me to believe that. i was wondering your thoughts?
*whisper*i just delete your pokemon save files*whisper*
(Kuroo) “Don’t do that, ya hear? He’s been moping for a week now. He won’t even start the game again because he’s too lazy. We had to cope with not having him set for us for a whole week. Ya hear? A whole week.”
