“... the short answer would be y e s.”
servant’s mitten was off; as his hand - enoshima’s hand - needed re-bandaging. it was currently kept clean and bandaged; even touched up by servant himself, but he knew it was r o t t i n g away on his stump. brainwashed or not by enoshima, servant was fully aware - and fully in control of - his emotions surrounding nanami. perhaps it was part of enoshima’s condition, part of his mental state combating her brainwashing. servant wasn’t sure.
“however, that short answer could not entail the entirety of my regrets. i could go for hours upon h o u r s of speaking of how i should have s a v e d her - how i should have noticed - but nothing can change the past. perhaps, in another life; another time - another c h a n c e, mayhaps. for now, i will see things as they are, and look past them and complete my duties. after all, i’m just a servant now - and a servant is as a servant d o e s.”