In an everlasting state of confusion

Val or 'Sparkle' - he/him - Illustrator currently in the UK -  ART COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN - personal blog with stuff I like and art. nsft posts tagged "sparkle after dark"

[asparklethatisblue]

Welcome to my commission list~

I’m accepting commissions at all times, if I’m too busy and can’t take your request I will let you know. All payments via paypal, more info under the cut

Prices:

Cartoon:

Lines (two characters): 30£

Colours/Background: 45£

Any additional character past 2: +15£

Lineart:

Lines (two characters): 60£

Simple Colours/Background: 75£

Detailed Colours/Background: 80£

Any additional character past 2: +20£

I will draw: OCs, any fandom, humanoid creatures/monsters, and basically any ship. Smut is absolutely ok!

Maybe: I might say no to certain ships and content if it’s not my thing or I don’t think I can draw it. For example if you request something that I absolutely know I can’t do justice I will tell you and try to recommend somebody else who might take it on.

Might not draw robots or furries depending on the design, as I’m not used to drawing either.

Will NOT draw: graphic violence, non con, underage characters or real people in nsfw situations.

Message me if you have questions about any of that or want something that’s not on the list.

[loth-caatgirl]

[beetroot-murdertime]

Und außerdem. Happy Pride month to this diva

Diversity win! Your vitamin-rich juice is asexual!

[kaffeekatze]

Sehr gute Tipps, bitte weitersagen

[vandrawsing]

for all your toasting needs

[i-got-a-penis-yall]

TRANS PEOPLE CONSIDERING SURGERY- READ THIS PLEASE GENUINELY I AM BEGGING YOU IT COULD SAVE YOUR LIFE

If you are getting gender affirming surgery, especially if it’s your first major surgery, PLEASE be aware that you can become SEVERELY depressed afterwards ESPECIALLY if you have a history of depression or suicidal ideation.

Post op depression is a natural reaction to the crazy mix of hormones your body goes through after major surgery as well as the stress and anxiety of recovery. Think of it like an adrenaline crash, but dragged out longer.

For me it kicked in about 6 weeks after top surgery and the worst of it lasted until about 10 weeks post op. EVERYTHING felt IMPOSSIBLE. None of the skills I’d been practicing worked. I thought everything was going to be bad forever. I didn’t attempt, but I was in the hospital. If it wasn’t for my support system I probably would have attempted.

This is not regret, but it can feel like it. I remain happy about my results to this day (going on six years later).

This is not you failing to maintain your mental health, but it can make you feel like a failure.

Things are not hopeless, but through the haze of this depression they can feel hopeless.

It can be terrifyingly sudden or it can sneak up on you. I didn’t even realize what was going on until after the depression finally passed and my mental health went back to normal.

I am writing this post because nobody told me about this before my top surgery. I was caught completely off guard. For my subsequent surgeries being aware has made all the difference. Being able to treat those symptoms as an expected and normal part of the healing journey has made them far easier to deal with. Because even when my emotions go to dark places I *know* they will pass. I have been able to tell the bad thoughts to take a bad seat and focus on healing.

PLEASE have a plan in place for if this happens. I know that this topic is taboo because of how often our mental health is weaponized against us, but I desperately want every single person getting gender affirming surgery to be aware of, and have a plan for post operative depression.

[asparklethatisblue]

Out on the shale James Fitzjames sees a vision of the future that could have been, could still happen. Something to live for, other than just the stubborn need to hold on~

For square “Visions” for @theterrorbingo

[asparklethatisblue]

I've got one more of these left as a a6 size zine~

[asparklethatisblue]

Do you like to look at Terror boys (and girls (and legs)) but don’t want to commit to putting a sticker on something? Then I have good news! Bookmarks! Printed on cardboard with rounded edges

You can find them here on my Etsy

And do check out the @terrorcamp Artist Alley here, for other amazing artists and makers, as well as discount codes

[asparklethatisblue]

4 exciting new stickers have hit the pack!

Check them out on my etsy

[lakewinnipeg]

[werewiire]

welcome back victorian era cross-writing!

[asparklethatisblue]

i wish all the bots that pop up in the reply of any tagged art a very die and choke on a cactus 🩷

[asparklethatisblue]

a little while ago @swanfloatieknight asked me to draw some medieval inspired colouring pages for a university event that would include some children. Feel free to print these out and colour some little guys

[asparklethatisblue]

feeling guilty as fuck for avoiding some things that are hard but necessary to feel better (working out or focusing on a book or focusing on a tricky drawing) only to be hit by a medically approved "don't do that"

i mean that doesn't fix that I'm annoyed at my brain working on energy saving mode but at least i have someone take it seriously

[luci-z-wont-shut-up]

HUGE fan of this recent thing we're doing where Adrian is, physically speaking, wayyyyyyy out of Rocky's league.

Like what do you mean of course they have the most gorgeous voice ever which to sound-based Eridians is basically the equivalent of why-the-fuck-arent-you-a-supermodel.

Of course they had sooooooooooo many mating/courting offers and gifts and love letters sent to them while Rocky was away (but they of course stayed faithful and weren't having any of that shit).

Of course Rocky forgot to mention to Grace their size difference and that Rocky is by Eridian standards a tiny little twink and Adrian is a giant also so when Grace meets them he's looking UP because they're less of a rock and more of a boulder.

Straight up The Bride And The Ugly-Ass Groom-ing it. We're all insane. I'm obsessed. Love love LOVE it

[uberguber89]

Morticia and Gomez, but rocks. Gotcha

[halondrus]

Lady in drive through had a bearded dragon sitting on her boobs and she held it up and let me pet it. killing myself canceled

[halondrus]

art is not my strong suit but this is my best recreation of what i saw when i opened the window. i have to emphasize that she was supermodel levels of gorgeous

[hussyknee]

The most basic, intractable fact about mental illnesses is that you simply cannot willpower your way out of them. The only exceptions to this rule are the ones I have, which continue to disable me due to lack of determination and other grave personal flaws

[this-is-anti-masculinity]

This is transandrophobia.

Ough, yeah, if you actually read up on the history of the term [link], it has never been specific to trans women. In fact, its origins are completely unknown - trans & gender diverse people of all kinds have been using it for years.

It's always been about "coming out of your shell", about growing into what you're meant to be, hatching out of the embryo stage.

The "chick" definition was just a fun add on that trans women were using within their own circles, and instead of remaining silly wordplay, it got twisted by transandrophobes and exorsexists into...whatever this nonsense is.

(Additionally, the "trans men killed the women they used to be" thing is such a massive red flag, considering TERFs use that as an anti-trans talking point all the time. Also, many trans men still align with womanhood in some way, so it's just...such a huge generalization of the trans man experience.)