obligatory mourning of the dream of finding true love after society tells you true love will solve all your problems and the crushing reality of realizing you will never really find someone who completes you
I think I gotta clarify the term Ive used, which is asexual because its been pointed out that what Im describing is very close to aromantic, which can be true! I just use the broad term of 'asexuel' or 'ace' because I've yet to fully and truly understand the spectrum of my asexuality.
I still yearn for a relationship, but I know I don't experience that attraction like everyone else. And a part of me is still confused if its just latching onto an idea or just something I will forever experience. So I'm currently using the broad term of asexuality to describe myself, but it could be aromantic!
Labels are quite tricky. It's a very neat way of understanding what you are or what you feel and having very nice descriptors to aid you in your quest of identity. At the same time, sexuality and attraction are such a complicated muddle of unique quirks that do not truly fit one label. I think I personally don't mind a label, but I like it in broad terms, and not specificities, mostly because I'm trying to figure myself out.
If you do enjoy labels, congrats! I'm so proud of your journey into identity! And if you dont got labels, I'm so proud of you for trying to navigate the complicated systems of life, and making it this far! All you just need to be is the best version of you you can be right here and now.
Of course, I still identify with whatever makes the bit funny 🫡













