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{ out of electricity: ahhh sorry i’ve been so inactive on aigis; her muse has been failing me lately, and i’m afraid i might have to put her on a semi soon. hopefully she’ll perk up once my mood improves, but until then, i might be a little slow! }

#ooc

takebaby

Memories of the City [CA Closed @ Aigis, Minato]

The air was still in Sector 6. The brunette recalled that this sector was the most peaceful of the six, and for her, she needed the tranquility to escape everything going on. She didn’t want to find her apartment. She didn’t want to ask questions. And in some cases, she didn’t even want an answer. She just wanted to go back home…go to school, be with her friends. The archer had just had it with being in this big fat mess.

“If I cry, it’ll just be a waste of time, won’t it? Hah…”

The brunette had promised herself that she would not let the stresses of the city get to her. She had been here so many times, she assumed she would get used to the difficulty. However…being torn away from her friends and her home and put into a situation like this ripped her heart out, each time significantly more painful than the last. Her friends were nowhere to be found, even though Fuuka (the only one she had been able to find so far) assured here that a lot of them were present in the city. She lowered her head, staring at her brown loafers as she reclined on a hard, wooden bench. The wind was brisk and she shivered. And shuddered. Eventually, her shudders evolved into grief-stricken sobs. The weight and pressure of the stress on her shoulders had finally broke her. Yukari buried her burning face in her palms, tears falling onto her skirt.

athenasaeon

XX -- | [ Aigis was wandering through Sector 006, an area she had yet to explore thoroughly. She was enjoying her time alone, enjoying the quiet. Still, it was not long before she started to feel lonely. She had seen Minato and Ryoji, even Yosuke briefly. She had made friends with some new people. But it was all very fleeting and inconsistent. In their old world, she had become accustomed to constant contact with friends and loved ones. Even colleagues. ]

[ Aigis truly felt that she was helping people in this place. But she did not feel like she was connecting with many people on a deep personal level. Of course, things like that took time. Still, Aigis felt uneasy being here without the promise of friendship to anchor her in happiness. She was beginning to worry she would never find it. ]

[ So, when she saw the familiar silhouette huddled in an alley, she almost believed she was seeing things. ]

"...Yukari-san...?"

[ Aigis hurried into the alley and stooped to peer into the girl's face. Worst case scenario, it wasn't Yukari, and Aigis would simply have to comfort a stranger. Something she didn't mind. ]

[ But it was Yukari, and the realization that she had found her dear friend was trumped only by the sting of nervousness that accompanied Yukari's wracking sobs. Aigis placed a hand on Yukari's back, rubbed her shoulder in what she hoped was a comforting manner. ]

"Yukari-san, I'm here! It's me, Aigis! It has been many years since you and I -- Well, actually..."

[ She trailed off, feeling embarrassed. She realized this Yukari was much younger than the Yukari from her own timeline, the one who had politely declined Mitsuru-san's invitation to join them in their further exploits. Aigis herself did not look a day older, of course, but she feared she would just confuse Yukari if she added any extra details. ]

"I'm here now, Yukari-san," said Aigis, her brows knitting together in concern. "There's no need to be afraid! Whatever's troubling you...I'm sure the two of us can work it out together!" | -- XX

#takebaby #here yoooou gooooooo #also personas are sad all the time always

temporeiry

And what if there were many versions of her, all in the same universe, Rei thought. What then? That’s how it was. Still, this girl’s words shocked her, and her eyes widened as she peered almost (though, not quite) eagerly at Aigis. No one is replaceable… that was a hopeful thing to say.

However, untrue.

When Rei died, a new Rei would take her place. The decisions that this Rei made would make no difference once she was dead. The other Rei… she had made friends, right? That was why Ikari-kun missed her so much. But it was all the same. When she died, there was a new Rei, waiting. Once the other Rei had served her purpose, it was time-to-go. And so it would be for this Rei, too. And for every Rei, presumably, that was used thereafter.

"I am here to follow orders," she said, quite deadpan. Then, more sure of herself, now, having thought it over, she continued, "I will die eventually, whether I make decisions or not."

No one cared about her beyond that. Follow the orders, get the job done: act as the pawn, the pawn whose role could be filled by another pawn at any moment. What did it matter?

athenasaeon

XX -- | [ Listening to the girl's words, Aigis was filled with a distinct sting of sadness. In days past, she would marvel at the fact that she was now able to feel any semblance of sadness at all, when she had been created as a machine for destroying Shadows, a cyborg with neither the ability to think fully on her own nor a real "soul." Thanks to Persona, and the support of her friends, she grew to understand humans, to feel true emotions. There was some beauty in that... ]

[ And yet, it was difficult for Aigis to focus on the beauty of human emotion when the girl before her seemed so strangely devoid of it. ]

"Forgive me for asking this, Rei-san," said Aigis, tentatively, "but...you speak in a manner in which I myself once spoke. I know you are not a weapon; you have already intimated as such. Still, though, I can't help feeling you are not so different from one who was manufactured, guaranteed to be followed by a newer model should your body give out. I have much experience in this field myself," she added, sadly, "as I believed this to be true for many years."

"Yes, it is true that you will die. We all must die." Hesitation; Aigis was still unsure whether or not this was true of herself. "Still, that is not the thing to think about! It is the life we live that is important. It is your life that will differentiate you from others like you."

"So, even if it is true that you were created to follow orders, you need not follow them anymore! As horrible as this city may be, it is also a fresh start for people like you and me. It is a chance to become the person you were born to be, free of obligation to any higher power. I think that's...beautiful," she said, with a self-conscious giggle. "And I think you can attain true happiness here, if only with a bit of effort."

[ Aigis smiled and extended a hand in the girl's direction, hoping she would take it. ]

"If you'd like, perhaps you and I can search for happiness together!" | -- XX

#temporeiry #this tread hurts my soul #these two are just too cute and too sad

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"Oh, my. You look terribly uncomfortable in that...outfit..."

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"What an...eclectic person."

sexynerdy-bolin

Introducing the Mun

athenasaeon

Name or nickname: Cat Tumblr URL: usamitsukino Sex/Gender: female Sexual Orientation: one time I put a banana slug on my nose for a full minute Fandom: Probably mostly Evangelion Muse(s): In Citta: Aigis, Edea, Eridan, Dave & Souda OC(s): OMG I have a ton but I'm too shy to RP them u///u OC friendly?: Of course! Multi-fandom friendly?: Uh Will you ship your muse with any sex?: Well Aigis is a robot so I doubt she cares Are you open to SFW rp?: Uh isn't that like every RP without sex or gore Are you open to NSFW rp?: Indeed! Can people come up and start a conversation with you?: Yeah pls just ignore the fact that I am a wiener Can they be your friend?: HELLA

#meme sunday #doing another one of these because they are fun and i am bored

lytrotis-blog

She had anything else she needed to reach improvement.

Of course, he was looking forward to that as he was aware that Aigis made a vow to herself that in their next meeting, she will be a better version of herself but what she couldn’t understand is that, Minato appreciates her very being and although change is not a setting that can be turned off, he still sees her at her best. Even without gazing at her expression, it’s so obvious in her voice how she desperately wanted to ease his pain and his wounds. Nevertheless, the Fool allowed silence to sink in as if it was his own description of the feeling inside him.

A thin sheet of paper which is blank — empty, and he couldn’t even think of a better explanation to defeat it nor elaborate.

Indeed, she is his friend. That’s something he will never forget. Their emotions are mysteriously meandering as if it’s battling against each other and trying to prove which is more intense but Minato gives up for he can no longer stand the sight of Aigis mirroring his ache.

If anything, he loves her as well.

"It’s fine," says he to cover up the wound once more while feeling her metallic fingers brush against his slender ones. "I’m so used to not getting what I want in the first place." His only wish was to live past his death and live with his friends. The latter came true but what about the former? He can only see pieces — fragments that don’t look like they’ll be fixed anytime soon.

athenasaeon

XX — [ His words reverberated in the chambers of Aigis's mind, so clearly and loudly that she wondered if they would ever fade to silence. "I'm so used to not getting what I want in the first place." That was true, too true. And too tragic. Hadn't Minato sacrificed everything for the good of your world? Their friends? Aigis herself? Hadn't he consistently been robbed of the happiness he deserved? ]

[ Minato deserved happiness. Just like the rest of them. Vainly, hopelessly, Aigis had wished to become that happiness herself, to stitch his wounds together with some encouraging words and a helpful smile, to be the one he loved more than anyone else. She realized now that she was not enough. She would never be enough. She had been greedy to assume her presence would fix things for the boy she loved. ]

[ Greedy...Aigis nearly laughed. What a terribly human quality to possess. ]

But you're not human, a voice in the back of her head reminded her. You are not human, no matter how much you'd like to be. No matter how neatly you dress yourself in sheep's clothing. You are a wolf. You always will be.

[ She could not help him. Of course she couldn't. How could she have assumed as much, when she had failed to help him before? She retracted her cold, metallic fingers; Minato needed flesh, warm, yielding flesh. Someone whose heartbeat could sync with his. She needed to find another of their friends to make him feel better. ]

"Wait here!" she told the boy, feeling flustered and hot and more than a little ashamed. Feeling heartbroken. "I will find Ryoji or Yukari-san, and bring them to you! You need the familiar touch of the people you love. It is my duty to provide you with that which will make you smile again." ] -- XX

#lytrotis #why is everything we write just like #rife with misery

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"He appears to be a sweet, decent young man"

[ Knockin 'em out of the park today, Ai-chan. ]

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"A very pretty girl with an exceptionally kind face!"

[ Oh, Aigis. You sweet, naive cyborg. ]

temporeiry

It must have been nice, at least, to know why she did what she did. In this aspect, Rei knew little. Her mission was to act as Ikari Gendo told her to act. Retrieve Ikari Shinji. Back up Unit 11 as it retrieved the Spears. Come to this destination, at this time. They were abrupt orders, and there was nothing else between them but silence.

She perked up a bit to hear that it sounded as if she had been used as a weapon. Was that what she was? She knew that she was a cog in a machine, a mere piece that could be replaced within NERV… a weapon? Perhaps that was correct. Still, if the weapon was very good, then it became permanent and indispensable, correct? Ikari Shinji was invaluable. Ayanami Rei was…

"Not a weapon," she said, slowly, testing these words on her tongue. She had never been confronted about her place before. It was simply something that she knew, and was expected to know. No one had shown her actual curiosity about it. Mostly, she was rejected, because she was not the right one. The piece before her had been better, and now she was a lackluster replacement. "But I am used." She paused, blinking once as she looked at Aigis’s face. "And I am replaceable."

athenasaeon

XX —"Replaceable...?"

[ The girl's words pricked something in the back of Aigis's mind, a lost, painful memory that gave her a dull ache in the center of her stomach. Hadn't Aigis thought that herself, when she was first activated? Hadn't her outlook been so similar in so many ways? ]

[ In truth, Rei did remind Aigis more and more of her past self with every word that passed between them. More than that, though, Aigis was beginning to feel strangely protective of the girl. It wasn't just because of her demeanor, or her quiet, cold curiosity. It was, truthfully, because Rei's blue hair and bright red eyes were so reminiscent of Labrys. ]

"But...Rei-san!" Aigis exclaimed, her crystalline eyes widening in surprise. "That's not true! It is not true at all! No one is replaceable. Not you, or me, or anyone else in this world. Even if we are made of spare parts, we are all assembled in a unique fashion. Even if there are many different versions of ourselves in many different universes, our choices will always make us unique!"

[ She paused, feeling disturbed. ]

"Surely someone has told you this before? Someone who cares about you?" ] — XX

#temporeiry #boy aigis are you in for the relationship of your life

escalaregalia

Send me a ■ and the muse will say aloud the first thing they think internally about your character.

#meme sunday

cittamemes

Truth or Dare!

Accepting (Just cross out what you don’t want):

Truth:

SFW

NSFW

Dare:

SFW

NSFW

#meme sunday

askthewindyboyandthecoolkid-dea

about the mun!

athenasaeon

Name: Cat Personal account: usamitsukino Age: 22 Birthday: March 12th Nickname(s): Well, Cat is a nickname for Catherine, but I’ve also got Caddy, CC, Bugs, and Roxy, among others. Reason for nickname(s): Caddy is a name my friend Chanel gave me, I think in homage to Mean Girls, though I was never sure…CC is because of my first name starting with C (and also because Code Geass), Bugs is an old nickname my parents gave me that just stuck, and Roxy is because lmao I’m actually Roxy Lalonde so a lot of my friends call me that. Roleplay character(s): Well, in Citta, I’ve got Edea, Aigis, Souda, Eridan, and Dave, but I’ve also RP’d Fuuka, Mitsuru, Minako, Chiaki, Togami, Euphie, Gino, Cornelia, Meulin, Roxy, and a whole bunch of others I can’t think of right now… Roleplaying History: About five years now? I started doing it when I was a senior in high school. Advice to RP with me: First of all, don’t try to out-sass Dave. It will never work in your favor.

Second of all, I am extremely defensive of my muses, and if there’s a thread in which any of them feels threatened, undermined, or bullied, it’s likely I will find a place to end the conversation and just end it. If this happens, please don’t take it personally; it means you’re just doing your job as a mun with an unkind muse.

Thirdly, I’d love to thread with everyone, but the fact of the matter is that I often run out of steam for certain interactions. It’s really difficult for me to even find a suitable end for those threads, so it takes a very long time for me to respond. If you think I’m taking too long, message me and we can either work out a new thread, or drop the old one and try again another day.

And LASTLY: please don’t baby my characters. Unless you’re good friends with them, don’t try to tell them how to live. It will just annoy them (with the exception of Aigis and Souda). So, if your first interaction with Dave, Eridan, or Edea is your muse’s attempt to lecture them, it’s likely to be their last interaction with them as well.

#meme sunday

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