Athena's Truth

I'm Athena, many call me Rose. I'm trying to figure myself out and life.I vent, write poetry and just let out everything that comes across my mind. If you're interested in my prose & poetry: myuselessprose.tumblr.com "The girl that everyone wanted. The girl that nobody got. The girl that everyone, everyone forgot." - me

[athenastruth]

I went out today

And I should be happy right? I had fun I laughed a lot But now that I'm home I'm just upset I miss this stupid, crazy, psycho, twisted, hippie, caring idiot. And I shouldn't. Because who would after everything he's done. But he's my idiot. He used to be.

[athenastruth]

I think I'm gonna go backwards

I can't seem to have closure with you. I'm thinking of meeting up. Feeling your warm hug. Possibly a comforting kiss. I want to cuddle.

[athenastruth]

I just want to fall in love again Find someone I can appreciate. But I still love you. But I don't want to be with you. So how do I move forward?

[athenastruth]

You have no power over me but I get weak just thinking about you

[athenastruth]

Some people are simply addicting.

[athenastruth]

I just wanna kiss someone right now...

Hold them Tell them I love them Listen to all of their stories And smile Look at their sincere joy in the moment And just appreciate it. I just want to meet the person I'm meant to be with And shower them with my love. I want them to feel safe Like anything that happens throughout their day doesn't matter Because once they're home they know I'm there to cherish them. I want to love again. Any takers?

[athenastruth]

Can't believe after so long we talked And I don't even feel weird like I thought I would about it I guess no matter what you're always gonna be my first love and I'm always going to care. It's scary that I'm going to be in your town soon though..

[quotemadness]

I have scars on my hands from touching certain people.

J.D. Salinger (via dignitea)

[athenastruth]

I feel numb

Even keeping my promise to myself not to talk to you, you hurt me again. I want to be upset but I'm more in shock. How can you do things like this? And I was just starting to miss you. Thinking about asking to give it another shot maybe. How stupid am I that I don't know by now that all you do is hurt me. I just wish I didn't take it as long as I did to have it affect my future. I'm too scared to meet people who are interested in me. Too weary, too paranoid, too guilty. You've twisted my mind and I need to vow not to forget.

[athenastruth]

I would say I've been through some mental abuse with you. But I miss you anyway. I went to the mall we went to that one time for dinner. My favorite date we had. And I went with an adorable couple to make it worse. It killed me to watch their love and to know that ours is gone. Lately all I've been thinking of is all of the sweet things you'd do for me and how I miss loving someone and buying random things for someone simply to make them smile. I miss you and I miss loving you.

[athenastruth]

Happy birthday. Even though I shouldn't miss you, I do. No matter how many times I tell people I'm over you - tell myself I'm over you, I still love you. It's crazy that someone who created so many mental issues for me could be someone I care about more than almost everyone in this world. It's been...6 months now since we last talked 9 months since we broke up But I do love you. I love you.

[athenastruth]

It's your birthday in a few days and I don't know what to do

[itskevinmalone]

[athenastruth]

Omg

[athenastruth]

Real talk

I think the reason I watch the office so much is because it's the only thing I have left of you. We were best friends for so long (well in my mind at least) and then we just couldn't talk anymore. I understand we grew feelings for each other we shouldn't have but I just miss you sometimes. I don't know, sometimes I feel like we really were like Pam and Jim. We always had the timing wrong. We were always with other people. But never truly happy. Everyone around us associated us as the two who were always by each other's side. Honestly, I really just miss you as a friend at this point. It sucks that it's been about 2 years. You were the only person that's made me feel completely and utterly safe and like everything was going to be ok. I hate that I feel like you used me a little but I don't blame you. I wish more than anything I could talk to you about my current situation. I know you'd know the right thing to say. I miss my friend and studying for hours and taking coffee breaks and clearing our minds and drinking whiskey and staying up hysterical laughing watching the office until we passed out next to each other. I miss you.

[athenastruth]

This time last year I was a mess. Spattered paint trying to find its way back into the coordinated numbers. Going back to you was all I knew. I loved you no matter how many times you painted me blue. I remember the dinner I made you on your birthday which is a few weeks from today. The look of pure gratefulness and love painted with that pale blue in your eyes. This year I'm self aware. I've given up the toxic in my life. I'm not even sure if I should contact you when your birthday is here.

[athenastruth]

I miss interacting with a boy...if you know what I mean

[athenastruth]

Someone talk to me

Hello hi how ya doing