Suffering through this alone
While my partner gets high
In the room next to me
Feels like a lession. The pain and tolerance. A lession. Temporary. Feels the loss. The life lessons he has yet learned.
When nick died from an overdose, it was a joke. But when the life long friend he had died accidently,
I met him with compassion
A hug
Advide
Commitment
nothing
When my grandfather
Father
Married in aunt that was like a sister
And finally
My aunt who is like a mother to me was diagnosed with cancer
And yet I have to be positive.
Idk how busy your night was. I get to cry about this and if I have to cry alone. So. Be. It.
You're a lession. Temporary. Idk if I'm almost 30 I'm the best you'll ever have, but I just want MORE. And I won't settle. Go get high while I live life. 27. I have the credit of a 50 y/o and the life experience. I'll be that engineer I've always wanted to be. I'll see Chicago. I'll travel to Japan. All. without. You.
I gave you a hug because you asked for one. Because you needed one. I didn't ask. I wanted you to stay but you grabbed your pipe and left like a coward.
I maybe weak but I still feel more than you ever could.
