Skin Morphine

Just a chubby queer gal here to write reviews, recommendations, advice, and updates on the latest and greatest deals pertain to skincare, beauty, and makeup.

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Some bitch just called me a meth head because of my blisters from my skin disease v.v,

I tried explaining to her I don’t do meth I just have a skin disease but she was sure of her self. What an arrogant bitch! I told her she was one too.

It hurts because I knew people might of thought that ever since some guy offered me drugs . Just because my face has blisters that are painful and huge doesn’t mean I’m on drugs . It makes me want to die when people say that because of the way I look. So I guess I’m going to stay hidden until I’m cured.

My boyfriend tried to comfort me but it still hurts. He doesn’t care if he catches my disease because he loves me no matter what I have or how I look .

The blisters are so painful...

I use a benzoyl peroxide wash to help kill the infection. Also use one tea spoon of bleach with one gallon of water , spray it on my body and let it sit for 5 mins before washing off . Dr told me to do it so I’m sure it’s probably decent for my skin.

For my scars that the blisters leave behind I use :

• vitamin E oil

• grape seed oil

• safflower oil

• Aztec Secret Indian Healing clay mask.

Together they all take away my most deep or darkest of scars . It’s like I never even had them !

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Personally I think chubby girls are way hotter then any other type of girl. I hate when people make blogs of “hot women” and it’s only anorexic bitches.

I know some people can’t help that they can’t gain weight but they should just be glad they look how everyone(almost) wants to look and or the way society tells them they have to look. So in the eyes of urisentric beauty they are the sexiest thing ever, but not to me. I feel bad for the skinny girls who want to be chubby but can’t and I hate the skinny girls who constantly complain about being chubby when they aren’t . I’m like hello if you think your so chubby look at me , you’d kill your self if you had my body type. I don’t like chubby girls because I’m chubby , I’m chubby because I like chubby girls . I used to be 100LB now im 130LB and everyone compliments me more, however guys don’t approach me as much but I’m ok with that lol. Sorry if I offended someone but this is how I feel , it doesn’t make it true it’s just how I feel.

That’s basically my body type but I’m sure she’s taller then me. Most women are hah ^.^ yay short club party of one☝️

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My Marc Jacobs perfume came in!

I’ve been saving a long time for these . My fav is daisy love because it’s more floral but daisy is a more romantic smell. I like to spray it on the areas of my body that tend to be the hottest (ex the back of my knee, inner arm behind the elbow, neck, wrists, inner middle thigh)

I found this painting in an ally . How could someone throw it away it’s gorgeous. #recycleddecor

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Sorry I haven’t been posting lately I’ve been dealing with a skin disease that will scar my face and body for the rest of my life because of the pain full blisters all over my body.

I got this illness from my exboyfriends dirty house. We broke up after he cheated on me then I was diagnosed with this illness the day after ... I don’t know what I did to deserve this but I’m trying to remain hopeful that my body will heal and I can go back to normal. Until then no face pics . He cheated on me with my exfriend I told him I hated because she’s a slut and what did he do, he slept with her . Now I’m stuck living with him until I can afford to move out in febuary . He’s a constant painful reminder of the betrayal... I wish I could afford face laser surgery and be beautiful again. 😔

I’m doing everything I can to prevent scars . Using vitamin e oil, Aztec secret clay mask calcium benotinite, benzoyl peroxide face wash, some perscribed toner, and many more products. I just hope people will still find me beautiful. My mom told me at least I don’t have to worry about people using me for my looks so I guess I’m never going to be as beautiful as I was before . And I only just realized my beauty...

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Vitamins

And why you should be taking them -.-

• Vitamin A : Aids in the formation and over all health of soft tissues, bones, mucous membranes, teeth and skin.

• Vitamin B6 : A.K.A pyridoxine. Lends a hand in forming red blood cells and also maintaining brain function. This vitamin is important in maintaining proteins that are part of many chemical reactions in the body. The more you eat protein, the more pyridoxine your body needs.

Vitamin B12 : Plays a big role in metabolization, while also helping form red blood cells and maintaining the central nervous system.

Vitamin C : A.K.A ascorbic acid, an antioxidant that improves the health of teeth and gums. Aids the body in absorbing iron and maintaining healthy tissue. It is essential for healing wounds.

Vitamin D : Known as the "sun vitamin," because it is created by the body from being in the sun. For most people - You only need 10 to 15 minutes of sunlight 3x a week to produce the right amount of vitamin D. It is hard to get the right amount of vitamin D from food. Vitamin D makes it easier for the body to absorb calcium. Calcium is essential for normal development and maintenance of healthy bones and teeth. Also it helps in maintaining the right amount of blood levels of calcium and phosphorus in the body.

Vitamin E : An antioxidant known as tocopherol that aids the body in forming red blood cells and boosting the effects of vitamin K.

Vitamin K : Helps with bruising . Some studies found it is important for bone health.

Biotin : Assists in metabolizing proteins and carbohydrates/ the production of hormones and cholesterol.

Niacin : A B vitamin. Helps in the up keep of healthy skin and nerves. At high doses it has cholesterol-lowering effects.

Folate : Works with vitamin B12 to aid in the formation of red blood cells. Needed for the production of DNA that manages tissue growth and cell function. Pregnant women should be sure to get enough folate or it can cause birth defects like spina bifida. A lot of food is now fortified with folic acid.

Pantothenic acid : Essential for the metabolism of food. It also plays a role in making hormones and cholesterol.

Riboflavin : Vitamin B2 , teams up with the other B vitamins. Important for growing and regeneration of skin and the making of red blood cells.

Thiamine : Vitamin B1, helps cells change carbohydrates into energy. Having the right amount of carbohydrates is extremely essential while pregnant and breastfeeding, and for heart function and exquisite nerve cells.👌

Choline : Aids in the function of the brain and nervous system. Having a choline deficiency will cause swelling in liver.

Carnitine: helps the body to change fatty acids into energy.

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So true

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My acne has been the worst it’s ever been in my life ! I don’t know why but I need advice on what will clear it the fastest . I’ve tried so many things (been lazy lately) and the zits keep coming ... I’d post a pic but I’m to ashamed . I never leave the house because of it . (v.v )

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Why Men Love Bitches💋

Part 1

Women who aren’t already a badass bitch should reed this...

This isn’t about being mean, distant, or having an aditude all the time; it’s about setting limits and laying down the law that your equal ( if not better) than him.

• If he calls you a bitch he’s not a real man. Real men respect women with known boundariesand doesn’t find it bitchy to speak up, talk back, and set rules.

• Don’t be the girl who gives blindly in hopes that he will knotice your actions, behave the same, and just to make the relationship last long, because he won’t. Instead he will use that to his advantage. Never give him the upperhand.

• When you first meet a man don’t give it up easy or he will never court you the way he should, because he now knows he had and can have you already, so he doesn’t have to try hard.

• Don’t give him the best of you right away. That way when you finally do he will feel that he must be special to you, because your finally ALLOWING him to see the best of you after all the hard work he put in and should continue putting in.

• There has to be a middle point on how hard he has to work for you. If you having him working too hard it will appear you don’t care and if he works too little it will appear he doesn’t care or at least not as much as he did the first day.

Tip: Anything you chase in life typically runs away.

• If he sees right off the bat your willing to bend over backwards to keep the relationship, he will think your desperate and try to see how far your willing to go. You’ll find him doing this by testing the waters on your limits/boundaries and he won’t try as hard to earn your respect, you’ll also be receiving less of his.

• A bitch is a women who knows that who she is, is enough (if not more) for a respectable man to court. Her catch phrase is “love it or leave it.” The “none bitch” overcompensates. She thinks she has to work hard for a man to think she’s beautiful and or to gain his love, respect, and be treated as an equal...... PG 9 to continue

• Don’t cook him meals for no reason. He has to earn it or it’s a special occasion. If you cook for him all the time since day one, it won’t be special to him. If you let him earn it he will think,” Wow I’m so lucky that this beautiful women surprised me with food because I’ve been a good boy.”

Tip: Men can be like dogs. You have to train them (with out them knowing) if you want them to act the way you like.

• “ Sometimes a man deliberately won’t call (or text) just to see how you’ll respond.” If this happens to you do not no matter what chase him by bombarding him with messages of “Where are you?” or “Hey what are you doing right now?”. Don’t text or call him at all. Let him chase you. If you must, text him ONE TIME a “What’s up?” then no more messages! If he never gets back to you then he isn’t worth shit and you need to move on.

• Confidence actually does affect the way anyone perceives you.

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My glam bag arrived! I switched to Boxycharm because IPSY didn’t have good customer service and wouldn’t let me buy stuff . I was like please take my money. But I’m glad I canceled it because this month I’m getting BOXYCHARM! It’s so much nicer and way more helpful! And the questionnaire it way more extensive so they get a better idea of what you want in your box. The only down side is they don’t give you a cute bag each time but it’s basically the better version of IPSY . I will miss those bags though...

Also carful with cheap sheet masks. These Jayjung ones where good but I got a 1$ one from target and it literally ripped off a small piece of my face! I hope it doesn’t scar :/ .

Can’t wait to post about my boxycharm! Theses subscriptions are literally the cheapest way I get makeup and skincare. The skincare lasts me 2 months and each item is so luxurious at only 35$ a month! I end up saving money on all natural skincare while also creating new routines each month . I do rebuy items I love like Cake anti frizz cream, Jayjun masks, Herbivore CBD Oil, skinwarrior anti pollution repair cream, and TonyMoly Moisture Boost Gel Cleanser.

So basically if you get one you’ll save a ton on beauty products and get to try new things as well as save a ton on makeup . I literally have 7 eyeliners . My fav is by Skone. It doesn’t dry out as fast as KVD (I hate her eyeliner) and tarte( pretty decent eyeliner dries out in 1 month though)

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A New Sunscreen You Can’t Live Without

DARLING Addicted To Sun

SPF 15-20 , 30-50

27$-29$

With only all natural ingredients this product tops the charts as the most aesthetic all natural sunscreen of 2020.

Not only does this non-oily acne fighting product protect your skin from UVA and UVB rays, but also provides moisturization, fights pollutants that age skin/ damages the skin barrier, enhances skins natural glow, is an anti-oxidant, improves wrinkles , increases elasticity, and much more!

Simple Yet Cute Sophistication

This pastel simplistic design gives a clean, fresh, and kawaii look. Projecting beauty, gracefulness , and, strangely, a relaxed feel of organization. Making it so post-able; sharing a great product ,that when looked at gives you a sense of happiness is so pleasing. I’ll definitely be adding to to my collection of all natural skincare products.

For best skincare results use daily. Meant for all skin types especially sensitive. It’s best to patch test before using it all over to ensure there are no allergy effects.

Highlighted Ingredients:

• Sunflower Oil

• Jojoba Esters

• Aloe Vera Leaf Juice

• Apricot Oil

• Vitamin E

• Niacinamide

• Kern Oil

• Glycerin

Other All Natural Sunscreens:

• Coola Mineral Sport SPF 50 Tinted Sunscreen Stick

• Organic Pharmacy Cellular Protection Sunscreen SPF 50

• Ren Clean Screen Mineral SPF 30 Mattifying Face Sunscreen

• Biossance Squalane + Mineral SPF 45

• Drunk Elephant Umbra Tinte Physical Daily Defense SPF 30

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Favorite Blush And It Doesn’t Cause Acne!

NARS Blush Shade Angelica

It looks peach in this lighting.

It’s always best to go for powder blush if you get cheek acne, because liquid blush can pool in enlarged pores.

I fell in love with this shade when Sephora gave me a free sample size. It compliments my pale ghost like skin tone so well. Giving me a warm lively look. Another reason is it doesn’t give me acne unlike the Bobbie Brown blush does.

Also pink is like my top fav color so this perfect light pink color really matches all my pink clothes.

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Peach Themed Eyeshadow

Eyeshadow: Too Faced Sweet Peach palette 🍑 . Forgot to do my eyebrows .

Present Day Comment: “ When I first started doing colorful makeup (instead of just black) i definitely didn’t know how to blend. As I’m sure you can tell above lol. Compared to my skills now this is definitely embarrassing.( this post is old it’s been four months since this post + during which I did makeup practice every day. Literally practicing everything one can in 4 months. Mainly blending my crease and blush, as well as doing different wings and using as many different eyeshadow colors as I have. -ive got 7 palettes, 2 are tiny nude palettes the rest are mega colorful) . “

Blush: NARS. Shade Angelika

Highlighter: Daisy + Pearl By Seraphine botanicals. In my experience anything with the word pearl in its name it so glittery. Check out Jouer’s pearl lip glosses.

Foundation: Smashbox Foundation Stick . Topped it off with a Neutrogena mineral powder with salicylic acid to fight acne.

I honestly hate Smashbox’s Foundation Stick. It gives me terrible acne, it feels like dirt on my face, it’s a bit oily, and all around disgusting compared to other brands like Neutrogena, bareMinerals, and Lancôme.

On my lips is a Bobbie Brown gloss. Shade Pink Sorbet 9.

I was a bit cross faded so I hope I don’t look insane lol.

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This post honestly isn’t that old but I definitely am way better at blending then I was . I definitely cut down on how high my eyeshadow was.

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White Peach Eyeshadow 🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑🍑

Eyeshadow:

• Used the Truly Madly Deeply palette by ColorPop

Eyeliner:

• Tarte Sexy Kitten Liquid Eyeliner Duo

[autumnmariegrim]

New Skincare routine

I feel as though my old routine just doesnt work anymore. Its been 2 weeks of acne hell so i thought id change things up a bit.

I bought a few new things to help with my acne, dark spots, and uneven texture. Also my skin barrier is terrible . My skin peels off so easily when I GENTLY pop a zit . So I’m trying to get that fixed. I’m also tryin to lessen my cigarette intake. I went from 10 cigs a day to 5 and hopefully I’ll quit all together when my life gets more stable. Also if anyone wants to recommend products to super strengthen my skin barrier that’d be great!

New Skincare Products:

- Burt’s Bees Facial Cleansing Towelettes with Pink Grapefruit Seed Oil

• Fights acne, aids skin in retaining water, softens, heals, lightens, and protects skin from pollutants.

• Gentle enough to use daily. For normal to oily skin.

- Pixi Rose Oil Blend Nourishing Face Oil

• Improves skins elasticity and glow, leaving skin nourished and soft to the touch.

• Contains geranium oil. One of the top most beneficial oils out there. Strongest oil to protect from pollutants. It also balances sebum production, heals scars, evens skin tone, tightens skin, and kills bacteria that lead to acne and eczema.

- Olay Regenerist Micro Sculpting Cream

• Deeply penetrates skin to regenerate surface skin cells, hydrate, and diminish wrinkles and fine lines.

• I think it also exfoliates or something’s because it has a light burning sensation that resembles the feeling of an AHA and BHA exfoliant.

- Olay Wrinkle Correction Serum B3 + Peptides

• Fights wrinkles, protects from pollutants, smooths and lightens skin, and renews skin cells.

- TonyMoly Moisture Boost Gel To Water Morning Cleanser

• Sooths, protects, and strengthens skin.

• Fights wrinkles and fine lines. Made for even the most sensitive of skin.

- Cetaphil Moisturizing Cream For Very Dry Sensitive Skin

• Protects from pollutants, as well as, Softens and hydrates skin.

• Is non-comedogenic (doesn’t cause acne), nourishes skin, and helps skin retain moisture.

- DIY Tea Tree Oil Spray

• Fights acne, calms redness, reduces swelling and inflammation.

- DIY Lavender And Tea Tree Oil Lotion

• Includes: Hyaluronic Acid, Tea Tree Oil, Lavender Oil, Water, Squalane Oil, Ceramides, Apple Extract, Sunflower Seed Oil, Jojoba Oil, and much more.

• Works to hydrate, protect from pollutants, soften skin, fight acne, diminish wrinkles, restore damaged skin, and repair the skin barrier.

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Sensitive Skin Warning!

Be careful not to use more than one product containing phenoxyethanol in a 6-12 hour time frame!

Phenoxyethanol is a preservative, an anti-bacterial, and a stabilizer found in many products. Its a great alternative to parabens.

Products containing 1% or less are deemed totally safe by nearly all countries, however when using multiple products, each containing 1%, it adds up leading to over exposure of phenoxyethanol. So be cautious not to layer too many products with this ingredient at one time on skin. Over exposure can cause hives, rash, anaphylaxis, and dermatitis on adults, as well as animals and infants { causes nervous system damage in infants ages 3 and younger}.

Here's a quote:

◇"Most of the concern stems from recorded incidents of bad skin reactions (on adults) and nervous system interaction in infants."- Healthline

Phenoxyethanol Free Products:

◇ Caudalie VineActive Vitamin C Anti-Wrinkle Serum

◇Belif True Cream Moisturizing Bomb

◇Olehenriksen Goodnight Glow Retin-ALT Sleeping Creme

◇Herbivore Prism 12% AHA 3% BHA Exfoliating Glow Serum

◇Josie Maran Argan Beta Retinol Pink Algae Serum

My opinion: its totally safe to use ONE product for adults containing phenoxyethanol every 6 hours. That way you wont get over exposure. If you like using more than one product on your face at a time try products that are free of this chemical to avoid harsh side effects. I feel using one or two products with phenoxyethanol wont kill you or even bother your skin ( in my experience) unless you are allergic.

Im totally investing in those products above to avoid over exposure. Lately my skins been very sensitive and red so i want to avoid any and all causes!

[autumnmariegrim]

Went to Malibu for the first time.

I didn’t get to see the pier though because it’s closed.

First time going somewhere since quarantine.

So many people at the beach weren’t wearing masks. What do they not get . There’s a virus out killing the younge and old and to lessen deaths all you have to do is wear a mask. It’s not hard. Also a couple had like a new born out with no mask or any protection. Not trying to judge but if I had a baby I wouldn’t let my new born out during this pandemic. Especially with out protection. I can’t even see my grandparents because of this and I fear they are going to die soon due to age and I don’t even get to spend time with them v.v but it’s for their safety. This just sucks so hard and some people aren’t even trying to protect themselves and others around them.

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The High Maintenance look: Body

Obviously, you should be working out and watching you diet. Have a diet tailored to your needs. Also take into account more than just your weight. Your diet should be tailored to the needs of your skin and hair.. etc.

Waist training is something you should think about. It’s not just for keeping your weight down and suppressing your appetite. It helps with body shaping and posture. If you arent that shapely then, this will benefit you greatly. Corsets are also an option but they are risky if you aren’t careful.

Shapewear is a universal beauty secret. Even if you are skinny or have an hourglass figure, you should be wearing seamless shapewear to events. This will help you with your confidence as you won’t have to worry about getting bloated. and you’ll always be picture ready. Slips are also good to wear under clothes to conceal any undergarments.

On the topic of undergraments, skin tone, seamless underwear is a must have. If you are not beige skinned then look up “brown” cuz they do WOC dirty when it comes to nudes. Thongs are superior.(for formal outings)

All ladies should have pasties on standby in their closet. If you are bigger busted, then I suggest boob tape as well for tops and gowns that show back, or are low cut. Get pasties and tape that are close to your skin tone. If you can’t find a match go with black if you are darker. With traditional bras, they should never show through your clothes. Full coverage bras are superior.

Pantyhose aren’t just for elder ladies. They are a forgotten beauty hack. Skin tone matte sheer, stockings in particular, give an airbrushed affect to your legs. They will help conceal any scars as well as tighten your legs. If the weather is warm, use a thigh high pair of stockings with a garter belt. Your dress should not be any shorter than where they reach. Some pantyhose double as shapewear.

If you want to take your appearance to the next level get a faux tan. Many women you wouldn’t expect routinely get them in Hollywood. They give you a glow and make your skin richer as well as an airbrush effect. It goes without saying, but your body should be moistured I prefer nivea. Avoid scented lotions, focus on the health of your skin and sun protection. Professional tans are superior but you can always get self tanner.

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I need to do number one and two. I’m already working on seven.