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hi disclaimer like essentially all of this blog is typically mostly things that arent very nice to talk or think about for most people

a vast majority of it is very triggering topics and incredibly personal thoughts too so please if you're just here for any funnies i may have turn back now this is not a funny blog

do not follow my account please

#these things may include: self harm. suicide ideation. self hatred.#general depressing thoughts. mentions of bpd and everything that comes with it #among other things. if you're okay with these keep scrolling #its a whole lot of venting #i'm also crazy so keep that in mind

nursing hate and anger in my heart

i want cheesecake

normal day. today.

#i want it to be over i want it to be over i want it to be over

shoelace4-48

i mentally killed myself a hundred times

#*thousand

mynorthernattitude

til my self sabotage do us apart

oh! am i finally actually starting to go insane for real

#about time #maybe this time i'll get good #or stop caring #or throw myself into the hungry teeth of a woodchipper in a sudden fit of mania #kgfffhh #i'm just surprised it'd have taken this long to be honest #my door has been open to it for a long time #i thought it might have felt a little bit better then this though. oh well

twistedangelboness

imagine hating me and im just in my room straight up sobbing

#thinks about her #thinks about her x2 #thinks about her x3 #...okay gross i'm done now

i'm dying and literally actually nothing is killing me

#i got a little too upset one time and now i'm sick (non-physically) forever #and i'll never be able to fix it #and now there's this feeling in my chest. like i'm not getting enough oxygen or something (not asthmatic) and it makes me think of drowning #i hope being a ghost is easier then this

nikoisme

i imagine being medicated would feel good as fuck. unfortunately i have to rawdog whatever's wrong with me

#and it sucks real bad all the time

i was never shown or taught how to be alive so now my life is just something to make pmvs in my mind about

#nothing is real #not to me

mypronounsarehehehaha

#and it never goes away. btw

okay i was being dramatic yesterday

#back to professionally not giving a fuck #embarrassing of me

ryebreadgf

avenallway

#actually mentally ill #mental illness #tw mental illness #tw mentally ill #mentally fucked #tw depression #tw depressing thoughts #depression problems #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd

say sorry. say sorry right now

#say sorry and i don't have to internalize this forever #say it and i can put this past us #say it so i can trust you won't show a callous disregard for me and my feelings #so i don't have to lose my faith in everything and everyone. so i don't have to hate it all #please i want this one thing to work #after i had already scorned everything and burned it all down i wanted to hold onto you at least #i just want one apology

oh. i really can't talk to you about anything/everything after all can i.

#i trusted you #i put my faith and my stock into #god i don't even know #this is just another doomed relationship isn't it #i can see the seeds that will inevitably burst and tear this whole thing apart #but i bet it'll be in a year from now when i'm already enveloped in something to keep me alive.#just so i can keep going 8 ragged more years.#fuck #fuck i hate everything #you're not even going to apologize are you

why did i have to be born so incompetent

#i can't do anything #THIS is the baseline i have to work off for the rest of my life #oh my god #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgh

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