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jily & blackinnon — headcanons. ravenclaw.

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El’s Masterlist (old)

(check my navigation for my new and updated masterlist)

Marauders Era

Remus Lupin

Yes, I’m in Love (fluff)

in a mirror (smut)

threesome w another girl (smut)

soft sex headcannons (smut and fluff)

play fighting with him (nsfw but not exactly smut)

please mom, i’m tired (angst)

a taste (smut)

Sirius Black 

Karma (angst)

him with a breeding kink (smut)

him punishing you (smut)

him w a praise kink (smut)

talking about your future together (fluff to angst?)

using your safeword (fluff)

him instructing you as you masturbate (smut)

him throat fucking you (smut)

dating sirius hc’s (fluff, but light smut at the end)

slipping through my fingers (angst)

your very own star (angsty fluff)

i know you’ll leave, but just hold me for now (angst)

James Potter

him doing your hair (fluff)

him overstimulating you (smut)

him helping you with your disordered eating (fluff)

he doesn’t love you back (angst)

random headcannons (mostly fluff)

him with a mommy kink (smut)

him being needy as he eats you out (smut)

professor!james (smut)

Marauders

being shy during a threesome w james and sirius (smut) 

remus and sirius fucking you in a bunny costume (smut)

them comforting you when you’re on your period (fluff)

remus and sirius w a breeding kink (smut)

remus and sirius fucking you in a maid costume (smut)

james overstimulating you while sirius watches (smut)

poly relationship with sirius and remus (smut and fluff)

nicknames they call you headcannons (slightly nsfw?)

them comforting you when you’re burnt out (fluff)

sirius helping you give remus a blowjob (smut)

Peter’s Betrayal (angst)

sirius walking in on you and remus (smut)

sirius and remus mocking you as you dry hump a pillow (smut)

Wolfstar

the stars have lost their moon (angst)

Marlene Mckinnon

soft cuddly sex with her (smut)

Lily Evans

deserve nothing (smut)

Regulus Black

this is me trying (angst)

Harry Potter Era

Draco Malfoy

him waking up to you (fluff)

cheering him up (fluff)

late night adventures

him getting jealous of harry (fluff)

how he shows affection headcannons (fluff, slightly nsfw)

him teaching you how to masturbate (smut)

George Weasley

you sucking him off (smut)

him fucking you in front of a window (smut)

him overstimulating you (smut)

Fred Weasley

him eating you out until he gets lock jaw (smut)

angry sex w him against his rooms wall (smut)

him dominating you (smut)

Fred and George Weasley

threesome with them degrading you (smut)

Bill Weasley

sucking on his fingers while he mocks you (smut)

Harry Potter

post quidditch sex w him (smut)

dry humping him (smut)

riding his face (smut)

slipping through my fingers (angst)

Hermione Granger 

eating her out to relieve some stress (smut)

Cedric Diggory

sex in the prefects bathroom (smut)

Blaise Zabini

fucking him before a party (smut)

spending a quiet afternoon w him (fluff)

Oliver Wood

him calling you bunny (fluff)

him fucking you in his jersey (smut)

Dudley Dursley

daddy dursley (smut)

[arcaneslut]

smut marked with *

draco malfoy

a different state of mind by @yoooespinosa

entire masterlist by @dracoscene

control by @yellowsuitcase *

this will be our future by @mellifluousart

better by @ronsmommy *

needy by @slut4drvc0 *

harry potter

complete masterlist by @ronsbadidea

belong by @salazarslytherin *

clouded vision by @fredshufflepuff *

glasses by @messrsmoonee

bj in the common room by @elevatorsdoor *

lovely like you by @railmeharrypotter *

ron weasley

don't stop by @acosmis-t *

such a tease by @/yellowsuitcase *

wrong by @/ronsmommy *

devoted by @miiamour *

ten minutes by @weasleymuse *

sure by @ameliora-j *

george weasley

credit by @/st0nesnglitter

as long as you’re happy by @arcaneslut (me)

sucking him off by @/thotbutpurple *

baby boy by @pansyslut *

george with an innocence kink by @theleftovertaco *

love songs by @sunrisefairy

fred weasley

compromising position by @pinkandblueblurbs *

got it by @fredshufflepuff *

dominate me by @/thotbutpurple *

right where you are, that’s where I am by @myloveforluna

we were both young when I first saw you by @anywherebuthere

you're bleeding by @/shadesofvelma

hermione granger

morning skies by @eloquenceflores *

honeybees by @pansydaisy

keep going by @chokemepansy *

purple by @siriuslyblackblog *

mother may I by @/pansyslut *

escapism by @lariimars *

sirius black

best friends dad part 2* by @thotbutpurple

the boss by @st0nesnglitter *

the only thing we share by @saintlike78 *

question number nine by @shadesofvelma *

them jerking off to you (ft.James&Remus) by @/shadesofvelma

rough day by @eunoniaa *

remus lupin

yes, sir by @quindolyn *

teachers pet part 1 | part 2 | part 3 by @pinkandblueblurbs *

birthday present by @romqnticizer *

them jerking off to you (ft.James&Sirius) by @/shadesofvelma *

delightful nuisance by @holden-caulfield

tit fucking by @/pinkandblueblurbs *

james potter

them jerking off to you (ft.Remus&Sirius) by @/shadesofvelma *

present by @selenesheart *

cuddly by @marauders-lupin

you in here ? by @/quindolyn *

strawberry accolades by @zzzfour *

winner, loser by @/salazarslytherin *

lucius malfoy

legilimens by @imaslutforremuslupin *

punishments by @/arcaneslut (me) *

mirror blowjob by @/pinkandblueblurbs *

soft by @/ronsmommy *

mirror by @snuciussimp *

lucius good girl by @/fredshufflepuff *

regulus black

the only thing we share (ft.Sirius) by @/saintlike78 *

forever by @maybanksslut

period sex by @/ronsmommy *

overstimulation by @slvt4fakerealities *

what happened to all our promises by @whoreforregulus

on camera by @cupidsriot *

[siriusmydeer]

SHAWTYS WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK. no dude i am in shock i feel so illiterate rn IM SPEECHLESS. i cant believe y’all like me that much and u like my writing bc i genuinely felt like a 12 year old pls 😭 literally the biggest thank u to all u besties of mine pls i love u so so much i have no words.

thank u to my besties nina and ric for supporting me in my work of FANFICTION a month and a bit ago and yk thinking well ‘she has a tumblr obsession already, she should write too.’ from my past years of…. writing.

so HERE ARE JY FAVE FICS, if ur fic is on here I READ IT AT LEAST ONCE A DAMN DAY. and i just wanted to share my favourite authors and stories so PLEASE check their masterlists <3

thank u everyone so incredibly much i feel beyond honoured.

* indicates nsfw content!

harry potter

family matters by @vanillann

always you by @bl597

secret by @bl597

it’s okay to cry by @stupxfy

smut alphabet * by @acosmis-t

broom cupboard * by @fandom-puff

if i could tell her by @weasleyclaw

speechless by @harrysweasleys

dating sirius blacks’s daughter hcs by @hp-imagines-07

christmas gift * (+ron) by @toripotterr

ron weasley

fluffy ron by @ronsbadidea

comparing hand sizes by @vanillann

pda much? by @vanillann

ron having a crush on you by @bonniebird

only for you by @iliveiloveiwrite

sitting on his lap by @rowema-ravenclaw

allow me * by @acosmis-t

perfect by @acosmis-t

rons daddy kink * by @roonilwazlibimagines

as a kite * by @wandsandwheezes

hermione granger

my dove by @cursestothemoon

umbridge by @moonlight-imagines

stares by @chokemepansy

daisy chain * by @babyjordy

sleepover * by @slytherweasley

eight christmases by @pregnant-piggy

spilled ink by @leahstypewriter

face your fears by @leahstypewriter

what i like about you by @asthmax

detentions and hand holding by @ronsbadidea

ginny weasley

soft kisses and heartfelt whispers by @wh0reyp0tter

daisy chain * by @babyjordy

bubble pop electric by @hunnypot-imagines

can i help * by @toripotterr

dom ginny * by @mitsukui

you mean it? by @coffee–writes

george weasley

essays and begging * by @dracofknmalfoy

right here by @lunalovecroft

under the moonlight by @sweetnspicysimp

comparing hand sizes by @whizboingies

holding hands during sex * by @frecklesandfirecrackers

knit for me by @parseltongueswriting

defender by @weelittleweasley

dating george weasley hcs by @fireboltweasley

pet names * by @omg-imatotalmess

fred weasley

steal her breath * by @toxicmodernity

fred with a size kink * by @roonilwazlibimagines

opposites attract by @parseltongueswriting

silver lining by @parseltongueswriting

half an hour by @heloisedaphnebrightmore

let them hear * by @sreidswhore

dirty secret * by @efyra

anywhere else is hollow by @vogueweasley

tired eyes are the death of me by @vogueweasley

soft boy by @omg-imatotalmess

pansy parkinson

hexed by @moonlight-imagines

dating pansy hcs by @chokemepansy

forever mine by @chokemepansy

daisy chain * by @babyjordy

messed up by @writseo

james potter

james during your period by @darthwheezely

wanna hear you * by @quindolyn

dating james hcs * by @quindolyn

our shirt by @fathermarty

love language by @writingbubblegum

smut alphabet * by @daffodilmoons

patience is a virtue * by @gleamglows

goodnight cuddles by @prfctethereal

golden snitches and old wounds by @shadowsinger11

imitation by @randomoutsiders

sirius black

pretty boy by @buckyswildflower

cuddling with sirius hcs by @moonys-chocolate-bar

i love you by @moonys-chocolate-bar

liar by @spideyyeet

playing with his hair by @stopbeingcurious

sirius comforting you during your period by @randomoutsiders

harmless joke by @accio-fandom-writings

nsfw hcs * by @shadowsinger11

you and i are both very much in love, thank you by @hello-everyfandom

smut alphabet * by @persuasivus

remus lupin

yes, i’m in love by @thotbutpurple

sleep by @skelliie

veritaserum by @bl597

near the full moon * by @wonderwomanfantasy

friendly favour by @wonderwomanfantasy

remus fancies her by @marxuderz

i love you, but i’m scared by @unfortunatelysirius

remus lupin x reader by @deathlyhogwarts

summer moon by @theboywhocriedlupin

nsfw alphabet * by @randomoutsiders

regulus black

regulus falling in love with you hcs by @harrypotter-imaginess

dating regulus hcs * by @neurobeing

amortentia by @theseuscmander

smile by @lenalxvegood

young love by @happy-littleblog

jealously doesn’t look good on you by @thescarrletwitch

my rose by @harold-pothead

more than anything by @fives-cup-of-coffee

just once * by @regulusslut

i cant stop by @drowsy-writer

[jilyarchive]

jily with a bit of drama queen sirius black on the side?

I swear there are so many of these but I am blanking atm. I must say that Turning Tables truly takes the cake for dramatic!Sirius. Hopefully some of these are what you are looking for:

Title: Turning Tables Author: scared of clouds Rating: T Genre(s): Romance, Drama Chapters: 37 Word Count: 205,589 Summary: Lily Evans and James Potter has always been a complicated story; its just never been quite this complicated before. But everything happens in its own time, and the eventual outcome of things was always more obvious to anyone who wasn’t Lily Evans or James Potter. They might not know each other well, but they’re about to know each other a lot better. 

Title: Not a Morning Person Author: hmionegrangr Rating: T Genre(s): Romance, Humour Chapters: 1 Word Count: 2,982 Summary: According to one Miss Lily Evans, there's nothing quite like unrequited love, a cup of tea and a healthy dose of public humiliation to start your day right.

Title: How Do You Call Your Lover Boy Author: CokeBottleK Rating: T Genre(s): Romance, Humour Chapters: 1 Word Count: 3,145 Summary: “Nuh-uh, Evans. No way would Prongs skip out on Quidditch with me just to shag you.“: Lily and Sirius make a bet for James’s attention. 

Title: Buried Treasure and Transmogrify Author: Rienna Hawkes Rating: M Genre(s): Romance, Drama Chapters: 20 Word Count: 169,505 Summary: Lily Evans has spent years despising James Potter. He has spent just as long worshiping her. When seventh year pairs them Head Boy and Girl, each comes to realize that their judgment isn’t quite what they thought it was. 

Title: Don't Look Back Author: MagicGirlinAMuggleWorld Rating: T Genre(s): Romance, Humour, Angst Chapters: 6 Word Count: 23,540 Summary: Lily Evans needs a date to her high school reunion to help her avoid a creepy ex-friend, and James Potter is only too happy to be her perfect fake boyfriend for the night.

Title: say goodbye to my heart tonight Author: TheBookDinosaur Rating: M Genre(s): Romance, Humour Chapters: 1 Word Count: 7,037 Summary: Lily Evans has a rule: don’t fuck the same person twice. James Potter has a rebuttal: shoddy disguises don’t count as the same people, do they?

[hermiome]

Sirius was guilty, or responsible, at least. He deserved to be where he was. Because of him and his supposedly brilliant ideas, his best friend, his brother, the best man he'd ever known—and Lily. Merlin, Lily; so kind and full of life. And little Harry, his innocent godson, all alone in the world. If only Marlene— No. He could not think about her. Would not. He deserved to be there. But Marlene didn't, and he would not evoke her in the darkness. He would not allow the Dementors to suck the happiness she'd brought into his life.

[marauders--polaroids]

[fightingsomany]

JILY AND MARAUDERS' ERA FICS

[averylilyevans]

fightingsomany:

This will be updated quite frequently here (text post) and here (page on my blog).

                          Multi-chaptered

Completed

Summer Magic 

I’ll Take It Shaken, Not Stirred 

Love and Other Tragedies

Crossroads

Kiss And Tell

Penmanship Smitten

You Want To Make A Memory?

Priori Incantatem

Resolution

Prelude to Destiny (x)

The Story Of Four Friends (MWPP)

Runaway Love (AU)

The Marauders: A Harry Potter Prequel

The Devils Wears Quidditch Gear

Auburn Pride and a Chaser’s Persuasion

Bragging Rights

Turning Tables

A Different View On Love (AU)

An Unhealthy Fixation With Aurors

Scribblings Of A Red Head And A Quidditch Captain

The Beautiful Game

Lead On To Fortune (Royal AU)

If Wishes Were Fishes

Death to James Potter

My Notebook Will Explain

I’ll Fight For You

Once Again

My Reflection (AU)

Waste My Time

A Month Of Sundays

White Flags

Lust…or love?

Never Going Back Again (Post-Hogwarts AU)

Goodnight Stars

The Boys You Grow Into, & The Boys You Grow Out Of

If I Fell

Hot For Teacher (Professor!Potter AU)

The White Album

10 Things I Wanna Do in Life

Living Life

Boyfriend / Fiancée / Pregnant

Kissing The Enemy

Letters

It’s My Party

Light

The Curtain Call (AU)

Like Sunny Days

One Of Them

She Said What?

Philologus

Eyes As Green As A Fresh Pickle Toad

Fairytale Gone Wrong

A Marauder’s Girl

Light

Defiance

Raindrops

While You Tell Me Stories

Lily’s List

Seven Valentines

Honestly

Stars Apart

Mazes

Stay

For Him

Until The Very End

Not A Date

The Marauders’ Companion

The One That Got Away (Modern era AU)

Loving You

Don’t Let Your Guard Down

Written In The Stars

Fighting Fate

Little Moments

Hogwarts Confessional

Haggis from Algernon

Good Tidings

Rumor Has It

Hogwarts Next Top Model

Raindrops

Broom Cupboard

Stray (Sirius/OC)

Pretty Girl (Sirus/OC)

Sweet

Revenge

Amortentia

Hostage

Unforgettable

It All Starts In Cokeworth (Post-Hogwarts AU)

In progress

The life and times* (Deleted scenes, Snaps) 

Every other midnight* (Professor!Potter AU)

Fighting Fate* (Pirate AU)

Before The Fawn 

Wind And Waves* / As The Wind Blows (Pirate AU)

Petal in the Rain (Aristocratic/WW AU)

Fly Me To The Moon

Through A Glass Darkly

The Girl in the Looking Glass (Aristocratic AU)

A Walk In Your Shoes 

Starstruck (Modern era AU)

All Right, Evans? / Dangerous Crouds

Red Amongst The Blue (Pirate AU)

Tyranny’s Disease (Pirate AU)

Tears on the balcony / Kisses on the balcony / Goodbyes on the balcony

Quiet Summer

A Ray Of Light (Aristocratic AU)

What Could Have Been

A Lady’s Imagination

Commentarius (x) 

The Menial Games (THG AU)

All Over Again (First Steps, That Night, The End)

Buried Treasure And Transmogrify

Other Lives and Dimensions and Finally a Love Story

In Fields of Poppies

A Different Kind of Magic

Snowflakes

My Constant

The Lions of Gryffindor

Say When (Modern Era AU)

Bloody ShangriLa (AU)

Tell Her She’ll Go to Sea and Fight Pirates (Pirate AU)

The Age of Inertia

My Deliverance

Glass Of Water

Perfume

The Marauders And The Rogues

The Fourth Crimson Sky

The Chronicles Of Captain Craptastic (Superhero AU)

Serendipity

The Marauders’ Papers

Of Raindrops, Flowers And Wishing Wells

Stolen Promises

Love Is Lily

Give Me A Purpose

Tempting Fate

The World, Biscuits And Sirius Black According To Nellie O'Neil (Sirius/OC)

Once Defied / Twice Defied

Canis Major (Sirius/OC)

Wicked (Sirius/OC)

Abandoned

Nothing On Earth (AU)

Charcoal and Paint

Absolute Shocker!

Silly Love Songs

Deconstruct

The Trut Of The Heart

A Stag in the Headlights

Not So Proper (Pirate AU)

Deep Breath (Pirate AU)

Swept Away: The Life and Times of Girl Pirate (Pirate AU)

Diametrically Opposed

Full House

Love of Two Generations: First Love

Lost at Sea (Pirate AU)

Princess Lily (Medieval AU)

A Right Royal Mixup / A Right Royal Mixup - Uncut (Royal AU)

Lady Lily (AU)

The Prince’s Marriage (Royal AU)

Obsessive Lily Disorder / You Give Me Heart Palpitations

       One-shots

Snaps* (The life and times)

The Anatomy of a Bromance* (J/S)

And The Wolves All Cry (AU)

Just Stay Here Tonight (AU)

41 Random Facts About James Potter (J)

October Thirty-First

For the First Time

That Elusive Aha Moment

Always

Halloween 1976

Two July’s and One October

19½ First Dates

The Right Number (AU)

The Juggernaut Factor

The Twelve Hours James Did Not Ask Out Lily

Slip Of The Tongue

Head Boy (MWPP)

Textbooks, Time Scarves and Tea (AU)

Question Time (AU)

Sheep Riding And Freefalling (AU)

James’ Death

The Way I Loved You

All Those Things

This Is The Last Song

101 Pick Up Lines

Here By Me

Rodger

Lily’s Falling

Radioactive

Intricacies

A Wizard Walks Into A Bar

Perilune (Remus)

Progression (S/L)

Jealousy (S/L)

The Tales of a Best Man (S)

The Best Man’s Speech (S)

The Scarring of Sirius Black (S)

Beyond the Veil (S)

A Midnight Chat (S/L)

Something to Share (S/L)

Need a hug? (S/L)

Five Times Lily Doesn’t Kiss Sirius (S/L)

Recognition (S/L)

A piece of sun (S/L)

Family (S/L)

Walk Away (S/L)

Just Checking (S/L)

Learned Lessons at Hogwarts by the Marauders (MWPP)

Ten Secrets You Didn’t Know About the Marauders (MWPP)

Of sadness, rage and wistfulness (MWPP)

Strings (R)

It Happened in a Broom Cupboard

Guilty Pleasure

It Happened in a Broom Cupboard

Tiny

A Hundred Million Freckles

Neverland (Petar Pan AU)

The Hallway with Large Windows

A Nocturne Blue

The Mornings After

Alarming and Beautiful

Him

Half In Love

Only

Heartbeat

After Hours

Wrong place Wrong time

Cigar

Sunshowers

A Moment

Coercion and Competition

Beautiful

Ravishment

Heroin

A Collection of Lily and James

The Fragility of Tears

The Boy Who Cried Wolf

Wild Eyes

Hatred: A Prelude of Lust

Positively Criminal 

Reunion

Changing Times (30+ drabbles)

Masterposts/Recommendations/Fics blogs

Fightingsomany (mine)

Fuckyeahjily

Sybilltrelawneys

Potterishotter

Thearcherballet (+)

Mia-multifandoms

Jamespotterz

Handlessreadingcorner

BCdaily

Suzies-q

Bigquidditchhero

Snapslikethis

Jamespottersd

October31st1981

Lilyevansjamespotter (+)

Findajilyfic

Jilyblog

Prrims

Jamesloveslilyandlilylovesjames

Jamesandlillies

Jily One-Shot Alphabet

Jily Pirate Fest masterlist

Smut Jily (ff.net)

Jily Week blog

Marauder Era Writing blog

The Official Jily Library blog

Jily Secret Santa blog

Find a Jily Fic blog

             Writers

Author’s masterpost

Heart-Ablaze

Lilyevansjamespotter / Storyweaver24 (ff.net)

Apalapucian

Bigquidditchhero / Glisseo (ff.net)

Suzies-q (Jily au week)

Jamespotterstolemyknickers / Twilightstargazer (ff.net)

Scared-of-clouds / Scared of clouds (ff.net)

Snapslikethis

Fetchalgernon / CGner (ff.net)

Myjilyromance

October31st1981 / October31st1981 (ff.net)

Padfootdidit / Spaghettisticks (ff.net)

Benjyfenwick (x) / Saywhenfic / Jamespotterthefirst (ff.net)

GhostOfBambi (ff.net)

Itreallyatemyhand / Jewels5 (ff.net)

BCdaily’s masterlist (+) / BCdaily (ff.net)

Sarahplainandsmall / Lizardcookie (ff.net)

Queen Nightingale (ff.net)

Gmariam (ff.mugglenet)

Jamespotters (ff.net)

Greencoverses (ff.net)

Molly Raesly (ff.net)

Takeharryandgo

Comealongraggedypond / Jess the Enthusiast (ff.net)

[averylilyevans]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 3/? Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Hermione Granger/Draco Malfoy Characters: Hermione Granger, Draco Malfoy, Theodore Nott, Blaise Zabini, Pansy Parkinson, Ginny Weasley, Luna Lovegood Summary:

She’s hitting her leg, hand balled up in a fist. Over and over. Over and over. It won’t bruise, but she almost wishes it would. The last time she felt anything, she was bruised. Always so bruised.

 Eighth year Dramione. I do not own these characters. In progress. Rated M for future chapters. Themes of anxiety, depression, & PTSD may be discussed or depicted.

Chapter 3 is up!

[averylilyevans]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

I decided to start writing a dramione fic after months of doing nothing but reading them! I would love some feedback on what you would like to see, so please read the first two chapters and maybe drop a comment! I would appreciate it. 

[blvnk-art]

harry potter and his cool children

[blvnk-art]

when the truth hits Lily: she wants James Potter and should do something about it before he could move on.

[blvnk-art]

no one interrupted them

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Christmas date. It’s like she couldn’t worry about anything when they were together.

[averylilyevans]

sirius & lily though guys…

- sirius finding lily one night in third year by the fire with a half burnt letter containing the words freak and please don’t even come home and sincerely petunia 

- sirius telling lily about his family and regulus and the death eaters and how great prongs has been to him

- lily being the one to show sirius motorcycles and giving him a leather jacket for his fifteenth birthday 

- sirius having to apologize to lily more than even remus during the incident in fifth year because he knew better and she knows he knew better and she’s so so disappointed

- lily freaking out and flooing to james’ the second she discovers sirius has run away from home, bringing him cookies and firewhiskey she pawned off marlene 

- the three of them staying up until 3am just drinking and being and living, and lily realizing maybe potter isn’t so bad after all

- lily taking sirius - erm, padfoot - to a dog park near her muggle neighborhood 

- sirius finding lily sobbing in the astronomy tower one night because they’re dead they’re dead and they were her parents and she can’t stop crying 

- sirius realizing lily is in love with james before lily even does 

- sirius convincing james to ask lily out again one last time their final year at hogwarts 

- lily crying in the middle of a muggle grocery store when sirius suggests that maybe he could walk her down the aisle before taking his place as prongs’ best man

- sirius having just as many, if not more, lily stories to tell at their wedding than james stories 

- lily suggesting padfoot be harry’s godfather before james can even get the words out of his mouth

- sirius always having lily’s back when they’re out on order missions without james, because he promised his best friend lily would be safe no matter what 

- sirius thinking about that promise as he flies his bike to their home on october 31 saying please don’t be dead please please please 

- lily thinking about how sirius will take the fall for this before the green light reaches her body 

[averylilyevans]

it’s your life

i found this old post of mine recently and decided to give it a little update! i was so young when i wrote it, so i had some new ideas to freshen it up. naturally i did this instead of doing my organic post-lab. here it is! 

first year is full of frustration and unfamiliarity and a twinge of homesickness. it’s being sorted into a different house than sev, being top of your year, being the one person potter seems to seek out most. it’s befriending marlene and dorcas and mary, staying up late at night while they tell you about all the wizarding world has to offer. it’s discovering quidditch (which you hate) and celestina warbeck (whom you love). it’s trying every candy that marlene’s older brother brings back from honeydukes and accidentally walking through the bloody baron.

second year is sending a tickling charm potter’s way after he calls sev “snevillus.” it’s your first detention directly after, too, and definitely worth it. it’s figuring out remus’ secret and not telling a soul - not even him for the longest - but you don’t care (how could you?) because it’s Remus we’re talking about. it’s helping mary with charms and dorcas with girls and marlene with waking up in the morning. it’s learning (and being awful at) wizards’ chess and turning your beetle into a button first try. it’s sev staring at you from the slytherin’s table and still being in awe of the great hall’s twinkling sky and always taking two helpings of treacle tart.

third year is hogsmeade and arithmancy and divination and potter asking you out for the first time (you not-so-politely decline). it’s spending the majority of october with your legs dangling in the great lake, your friends giggling next to you. it’s studying with sev in the library and trying not to notice the guilty look in his eye. it’s petunia writing to you even less than before because of some normal whale of a man named vernon. it’s sharing a butterbeer with sirius black in hogsmeade because you’ve lost your friends and really, they’ll be right back, but he insists and is actually quite funny and you think you’ve rather misjudged him. it’s going to the kitchens one night with remus, because it’s been a long day and the house elves always have hot chocolate.

fourth year is slug club parties and sneaking off with benji fawcett because parties aren’t your thing and sirius couldn’t make this one. it’s waking up the next morning to marlene telling you she’d run into potter and he was looking rather dejected (you ignore the guilt in your stomach; it’s only there a moment). it’s sitting with dorcas and mary at quidditch matches, watching potter soar through the air like a bird. it’s finally having the nerve to quit divination because crystal balls and prophecies are complete rubbish anyway. it’s thinking sev has been hanging out too much with mulciber and avery and malfoy but getting excuse after excuse in response. it’s trying your first sip of alcohol with dorcas and marlene at christmas, the burn in your throat masking your worry for sev.

fifth year is when all hell really breaks loose. it’s sev asking too many questions about remus and potter being more arrogant than ever before (that sodding snitch) and being so stressed because o.w.l.s are coming up and you have to show your worth. it’s threatening potter for threatening sev by the lake and that word - the one that haunts your brain and creeps into your nightmares. it’s knowing potter didn’t deserve what you said, because your sev is too far gone and in his place is a boy who doesn’t understand what he’s doing (you hope, you pray; the alternative is too much to bear). it’s not taking points away from the marauders even though you’re a prefect, and maybe you’re abusing your power but you can’t bring yourself to care. it’s drinking firewhiskey with marlene in empty classrooms and passing your exams with flying colors. it’s more “i hate you, potter”s and “back at you, evans”s than ever before, but the bite just isn’t there. it’s partnering with peter in potions because he’s absolutely dreadful and you get the sense he feels a little less than compared to his talented friends. it’s your dad getting sick and your world falling apart and sirius and that prank and why why why?

sixth year is regaining control and desperately trying to cling onto normalcy. it’s spending more time with mary and dorcas and marlene. it’s ignoring sev every time he comes around the corner trying to get your attention because you just can’t make excuses for him anymore. it’s going to potter’s house over break after sirius says he’s run away, and the three of you drinking and laughing until the sun comes up. it’s deciding maybe there’s worse things in life than arrogant boys with good intentions. it’s hours and hours of homework and studying because you’re taking more n.e.w.t.-level subjects than anyone knew existed. it’s knowing petunia won’t write you back but sending chocolates on her birthday just in case. it’s discovering the marauders’ secret - why they’re moony, wormtail, padfoot, and prongs - and laughing uncontrollably because they’re just so bloody brilliant. it’s brewing potions for fun and enjoying life instead of just existing. it’s eating breakfast with your friends and the marauders and ignoring the feeling in your stomach when james passes you the juice you like without asking. it’s learning to apparate and mary splinching herself and spending the rest of the evening with marlene and dorcas in the hospital wing. it’s a war brewing outside the castle walls; and when mcgonagall asks if you know what you’d like to do after hogwarts, she sees the fire in your emerald eyes and knows.

seventh year is being head girl and wishing severus hadn’t gone down that road and getting upset when your friends ask you if you like james (why does he have to look so bloody perfect all the time). it’s parties that last until midnight and tutoring scared first years and sneaking into honeydukes with james to get remus chocolates after a full moon. it’s singing at the top of your lungs with marlene and swimming in the great lake with mary. it’s thinking your chance with james is gone because he’s moved on and sirius giving you a look that says are you a bloody idiot? it’s dorcas holding you as you cry because another muggle family has been killed and you don’t know how much more you can take. it’s running out onto the pitch after gryffindor wins the cup and kissing james full on the mouth in front of the whole school because his lips look soft and he’s beautiful and courageous and kind and he feels like home and why have you fought this for so long? it’s ignoring the hurt look in severus’ eye as you make your way back to the castle, james’ strong arm wrapped around your shoulders. it’s flinching when petunia says she’d never make a freak like you her bridesmaid but bringing james to the wedding just to drive her mad. it’s being scared to leave hogwarts because after all these years it’s home, and you can’t imagine a day when your nights won’t end with your friends’ laughter by the fire.

graduating isn’t like coming up for fresh air. it isn’t a week before dumbledore is owling, asking if you lot would like to join the order of the phoenix. you train for only two weeks, learning curses you shouldn’t need to know even exist. now life is missions and green light whizzing by your head. it’s the three days when sirius went missing and james couldn’t sleep or eat and you finally found him inside an abandoned building chained to the wall. it’s dorcas being murdered by voldemort himself and remus going to live with the werewolves and marlene’s entire family being gone before you have time to mourn the others and everyone around you is dying. it’s seeing severus on the battlefield for the first time and not hesitating for a moment before sending a curse his way. it’s james looking over at you as he shields you both from a bright red light and says “marry me, evans.” it’s responding “are you mad? of course i will” like you aren’t literally in the middle of a bloody war. it’s going home and kissing him like your life depends on it, and you think to yourself that maybe it does. it’s the empty spots beside mary where dorcas and marlene should be and sirius’ best man speech moving you to tears. it’s coming face to face with voldemort twice and surviving. it’s finding out you’re pregnant and telling sirius first because you’re not even twenty yet and james is out on a mission and what are we supposed to do now? it’s remus and sirius never leaving your perfect little house in godric’s hallow, insisting on being together as much as possible. it’s secretly wondering what’s going on with peter, because he hasn’t come ‘round much and you’re worried but the boys dismiss your fears. it’s wanting to make a difference - for yourself and your husband and your friends - because this world isn’t one worth living in.

going into hiding is like giving up on everything you’ve fought for. it’s harry being born and wishing your mum was there, but james has never been so proud and the look on sirius’ face when you ask him to be the godfather makes everything worth it. it’s sitting on the couch, stroking the cat that wandered into your backyard. it’s listening to james talk to harry, telling him about all the mischief the marauders got into at school. it’s wishing you could go back to those days for a while. it’s feeling like the walls are caving in on you and wondering how this happened and sobbing into james’ chest. it’s him eyeing his cloak, and you knowing he wants to take it out more than anything. it’s wishing you had kept taking divination, because it’s not rubbish - it’s ruining your family. it’s switching your secret keeper to peter at the last minute, because sirius is too obvious and he means too much and if he got hurt for you, you don’t really know what you’d do (and you know james would never forgive himself). it’s regretting not listening to your gut when the front door bursts open. it’s knowing exactly what is going to happen when james yells at you to take harry and run. it’s not having enough time to tell him how much you love him, but you look into his hazel eyes and he knows, he knows; he’s always known. it’s hearing the love of your life hit the floor and trying to protect the baby that looks so much like him behind you. it’s standing tall and strong like you always have as you place harry in his crib, the footsteps closing in. it’s being confused as to why he’s asking you to stand aside but refusing anyway. it’s thinking of sirius and remus and mary and peter as the green light reaches you.

[incorrectmarauderquotes]

“I don’t have a resting bitch face. My bitch face is always on duty, ever vigilant. My bitch face will rest when its work is done.”

—

Lily Evans

[hermiome]

But apart from my transformations, I was happier than I had ever been in my life. For the first time ever, I had friends, three great friends. Sirius Black… Peter Pettigrew… and, of course, your father, Harry — James Potter.