take me away victory

24. vent blog about being gay, stupid, and crippled. also im obese and post belly pics so if you’re into that, stick around. terfs get blocked on the spot.

[avictorybattle]

side blog is @quetristin

nsft: minors dni

[what-even-is-thiss]

“Cats don’t actually love you”

A cat is a small creature in the middle of the food chain that is fully aware that you are a very large thing that could stomp its head in at any moment and yet it chooses to rest its tiny little head on your leg for a nap and spreads out on the floor near you exposing its belly and its most sensitive organs. It brings dead mice and bugs to you to share food.

Don’t you get it? This tiny thing trusts you. It wants to help you too. It licks your leg thinking that it’s helping. It kneads on you to find comfort. It shares its body warmth with you in the cold and gives you your space in the heat. It hisses at other mammals it sees outside including other cats in an effort to protect its family.

Cats love you so so much. But they will keep trying to eat plastic.

[theconcealedweapon]

[avictorybattle]

i think I’ll actually apply for a job now

“so glad you’re better!”

yeah im on a handful of medications, like its a full grocery list but yeah

“thats awesome, as long as they’re working!”

i mean kinda? if by working you mean they dull the pain and give me some fraction of the day without excessive sleepiness, sure…

“see? glad you’re better. so glad they’re working”

yeah but here’s the thing, im not better and they’re not “working,” i keep saying i want to apply for jobs on monday, but by thursday or friday im so beaten its like i have the flu, its like i havent taken anything at all, or i miss some and its twice as bad. i lose entire days every week after sedentary days awake, still bogged down by pain and depression and sleepiness.

“but you go out, you have fun, whats the problem?”

were you not listening?

me and everyone else @ me

[crippled-peeper]

everyone saying “you have my vote” on that post where I suggest paying teachers $300,000 a year base salary doesn’t realize, even tho it’s a joke, I can never run for political office, because disabled people aren’t allowed to do fucking anything in this country. Also because I would win in a landslide and they would have to assassinate me for wanting an educated proletariat

[isuggestdemonsummoning-deactiva]

Wait why cant you run for office?

[crippled-peeper]

It’s a little more nuanced than just simply being banned from it - this article actually explains the issue perfectly if you want to read further

But to summarize: By campaigning for a political office - even a low-paid or part-time position - I would be at risk of being determined “eligible to work” and kicked off of all of my benefits. Most acutely, I would lose my health insurance, which would prove to be deadly. This is the mechanism which keeps most disabled people out of local politics.

[isaacsapphire]

Ok, so by, “disabled people aren’t allowed” you mean that people who are receiving Social Security disability benefits because they’re too disabled to work would lose their benefits because running for office or serving is evidence that they are actually capable of working.

If you’re capable of serving as a politician, aren’t you capable of working though? Aren’t there workers who are disabled?

[recess-is-in]

I mean, that stands to reason does it not? you are getting subsidized because you CANNOT work, but if you are working you no longer meet the criteria for that subsidation, said criteria being you cannot do what you in fact would be doing in that situation.

I'm disabled I don't qualify for disability because I can in fact hold down a job, I can in fact work. the office said I may qualify for subsidy security income, meaning I would get less money but since I'm able to work no they cannot subsidize my whole income. I'm far from the only person that needs aid from those coffers they have to be prudent with how they disperse it. but if I were to hold down a full time job that's the one thing that disqualifies me from receiving SSI because if I can do that, I'm not so disabled that I need someone to subsidize me.

so it's not that you're "not allowed" to work, it's that if you are working, you didn't qualify for the cheque earmarked for the person who CAN'T work.

that's kind of a night follows day type thing.

[crippled-peeper]

the fact you tagged this “disc horse” is so fucking unserious and shows how removed you are from the dreadful reality that legally disabled people deal with

I’m not wasting my time trying to educate a cruel, detached, self-obsessed, ableist, ugly ass brick wall on the intricacies of disability law, ethics, and fascism

both of you entitled nosy uneducated fuckers can eat watery shit and die. I literally don’t care about changing your minds. you’re utterly fucking obsessed with yourselves

[recess-is-in]

ihowi tag it has nothing to do with how serious I take it. I tag it that way because I don't want to be flooded so the tags less likely to be seen. tags are for internal use anyway, but it doesn't matter. I don't owe you an explanation for my tags.

I also don't owe you an explanation that I've been going through the disability courts FOR FIVE FUCKING YEARS and have barely gotten anywhere with it. I know the law because I've had lawyers and have done the research myself.

no, if you are working you do not get to pull from the "cannot work" fund. that is FRAUD. if you are working full time you cannot pull from the "has limitations" fund. that is FRAUD.

again, YOU are NOT by any means the ONLY person that needs those funds. they are finite and it's important to be PRUDENT about how it is dispersed.

that is not fascism, that is common fucking sense.

mind you, not that it's any of YOUR goddamn business, I recently lost my government SNAP benefits when I got a job because, lo and behold, i now have money to buy food! so now it can be distributed to someone who doesn't.

[crippled-peeper]

I’m not “working”, this is a tumblr post and you made that claim up to scream at another disabled person (and vaguely threaten their livelihood???) because you are ableist

I also had to fight for over 5 years to get on disability and was denied 3x. I went in front of a judge twice. I was homeless 3x

I’m sorry that you’re such a pathetic stupid little entitled bag of shit that all you’re good at doing is screaming at other disabled people online

I’m playing you, the most disabled and impoverished person alive, the world’s smallest violin, from all the way over here. Don’t report me to the social security agency over it - I’m literally paralyzed and it’s a figure of speech

[recess-is-in]

are you just gonna flip the script now? did you or did you not say "disabled people aren't allowed to work"? I believe you did. and the fact is that is not true. you are absolutely allowed to work. what you are not allowed to do is continue to pull from the disability coffers while you are working. nobody here said anything about your current state or situation, it's quite obvious the conversation is about the statement "disabled people aren't allowed to work" which is a false statement, so don't flip the script and claim the conversation is about something else.

[avictorybattle]

peeper is a fucking moron, no point arguing with him. he will always flip the script

[cripinpain]

i got a fucking hate ask last night but i really can’t take it seriously because i can’t stop laughing at it

hold on i’m gonna screenshot it

[cripinpain]

(id in alt text)

this person makes fat people sound like some cartoon villain 😭 also saying “they” as if i’m not fucking fat too LMAO

like i’m sorry but i cannot take this shit seriously, is this you?

(id in alt text)

[technofeudalism]

“no crew, no help, just pure hustle” cut to this poor woman bawling her eyes out. what the fuck is wrong with people? why is this being framed as a good or impressive feat? this person makes below poverty wages already. Burger King meanwhile takes in $27 billion in global revenue every single year. everyone involved in making this woman endure this should be tortured and force fed chicken fries until their heart gives out. fuck this country.

[avictorybattle]

She better see restitution

[creekfiend]

when I was a teenager and a young adult I really didn't understand a lot of things about racism particularly anti-black racism. so I read books written by black people about it. I recommend this method to anyone who is tempted to make their lack of understanding the responsibility of the group that they do not understand

[avictorybattle]

alternatively I can just not understand something and still know it’s probably right if i know its in good faith and aligns with basic human rights and decency and its probably true.

i am speaking as a energy limited dum dum so that might be part of this. also listening to black people/watching their vids on these topics.

[avictorybattle]

dave franco gave me depression now im looking at porn at the office

[avictorybattle]

since i lack any confidants i shall share here. cw im venting about suicide.

i talk to my dad for the first time in 15 years and he tells me once he’s met me again hes planning on killing himself because apparently, antifreeze doesnt do it anymore. dont play blue icee drinking games tho, especially not on my word.

his mom and dad failed on their first times too.

anyway i was delusional to think bringing him back into my life would be like a new beginning.

[luvrsagony]

like im fine when someone trained gives me shots. but me? shaky hands mcgee??? no

[transfemme-shelterdog]

It's a lot easier than you think. I won't deny the first few times I was scared shitless that I'd hit an artery or something lmao. At least T is only subcutaneous. E is intermuscular, so the needle is like twice as big.

Glad you got topical stuff though!

[yaoi-orc-pussy]

i think testosterone can be intramuscular too

[luvrsagony]

the type i would have gotten would be the tiny really fragile needles and not only am i afraid of doing my own shots but i don't have a sharps bin

[avictorybattle]

my T was prescribed IM but it was irritating and possibly causing weekly cycles so i switched to SC.

[pudgyraven-deactivated20250822]

Reblog if you want to get pregnant, embarrassingly so, to the point where nothing fits easily, you’re always hungry and turned on and you need belly rubs.

Or if you like pizza, I guess…

[mpregheavybellies]

👋🏽

[soul-slappy]

🍞 No buns today, just a loaf of sourdough! 🐰

[animentality]

[avictorybattle]

I’ve grown to resent the person I got to know here. They don’t live here anymore and have the life I wasn’t supposed to want. Ironically because they have it. Okay, I’m envious of about everything they have. And I feel like this friendship isn’t equal anyway. They'll always have the power over me. Pathetic.

[thememedaddy]

[berylian]

[smallestbubs]

like whack a mole

[rat-council-official]

official they can't win against us all post

[arborealgargoyle]

notice how they pause instead of all-out running? rat want grab-toss. they are playing a game! and pausing to make sure human has time to grab them and gently toss like the football!

[aquilacalvitium]

If I was a rat I would enjoy this too

[vaspider]

I love how they take turns.