12/ 11 / 2020
Dear Diary, Today I did my own fortune of my Past, Present, and Future with Arcana Tarot cards. I asked myself am I happy? I asked myself again if I'm doing fine whatever it's wrong or right. I'm sharing my life from whatever happens. I have no intention of what others' thoughts, opinions, nor they caught my attention, but I will keep their words in back of my mind. This is just a reminder before I grow old with many possiblities and impossibilities.
I'm always scared from these outcomes. This isn't my first time.
From my first, I was a buddhisim child with these fortune. I saw the cards that I thought it was poker games. It's not. They are Tarot cards. I never knew what they are till that dream I had with the Devil himself. I remember I was in a dry desert without any beings roam around. Till the Devil locked in my sight. I took self defense with my rainbow aura soul. The Devil wants me to call him Satan. I cannot say any further because I promise him to not talk about our converstation. So, I can only say what he puts me a curse which he considers a gift before I wake up from my dream.
Anyway, I came down to Arcana Tarot Cards because I get the feeling I can regain my energy on my sights.
I again doing my fortune because those idiots came back whatever the hell they're doing. Because they have to "Stay home" which is my place from the mesage of Covid-19.
I have to use my energy to connect with the Arcanas. I cannot turn any cards around. There are upright and reverse. Very important what I'm assign to. So, I was pretty worn out. I'm also surprise from these. The Emperor and Empress??!!!! They were reaching to me.
PAST: Emperor
The Emperor rules over his world with an iron fist, allowing nothing to escape his grasp.
Be careful not to hold too tightly to your empire. Plants only grow when given room to flourish.
Okay. this was my money problem. Glad, I'm done with that. I get the feeling I put my trust to my fellow associates how they can things done at work. For family, I bet I know who they are. I will never given for their pity.
Present: Emperess
The Empress embraces her inner beauty and kind nature, allowing it to flourish in the world around her.
Now is the time to nurture your relationships, carefully cultivating your connection to others.
Well, I'm still not going to hang out with those bitches in my house. I'm still ignoring them till they die. Yes, I'm heartless cold person which from somebody didn't owe me back my $200 after 3 years. I'm not greedy. That's their responsiblity with a promise.
At work, I will continue helpping others to communicate with others. And also keeping in mind if they ever backstab me. They're messing with the wrong chick.
Past: Queen of Pentacles
The Queen of Pentacles is the backbone of the household, steady and reliable in all things.
Keep being the rock, even in turbulent times. The world needs more nurturing spirits within it.
This is my reasoning why I need to stay being stubborn all the time. I will not be taken advantage of. I don't give a damn they are my family. I will symphasize with everyone if I'm ever being invovled in that any situations.















