I’m Axel, I write, albeit terribly but you’re here reading it so… :)
Stray kids are my lifesavers and although I will never be able to tell them personally, I hope they know Stay love them.
I will be uploading whenever I am able to.
I’ll be @\ing people I use banners or layouts from here, they deserve so much credit! Check them out :D ~~~@cafekitsune @saradika-graphics
Anywho, here’s my master list! Enjoy!
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Angst:😈 Fluff:🥰 Funny:🐓 Hurt/comfort:🥹
Masterlist
Currently in progress:
Jeongin angst part 2
Lee know series Oneshot
Felix comfort oneshot
Bang Chan:
Your behaviour is so… ughh pt 2- Love untold 😈
I’m riding on my pain and tears pt 2- Though I reach out my hand, there’s nobody to hold it.😈
Chan with a sleepy reader 🥰
Gone 🥹
Tears 🥹
Lee Minho:
You’re not funny - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 🥹
He helps you after a traumatic episode. 🥹
Seo Changbin:
Surpriise 🥰
Hwang Hyunjin:
I dream we will meet again pt 2- I dream we will meet again 😈
Han Jisung:
Going ahead doesn’t mean you’re going to get there first 🥰
Lee Felix:
Like a chef 🥹
Waiting 🥰
Kim Seungmin:
SUENGMIN IN THE BUILDING! 🥰🐓
Yang Jeongin:
My perspective is broadening 😈
OT8:
When you’re late to meeting them 🐓
Mini-story🐓
Home after 😈
A tour I won’t forget 😈
Cold hands- Hyung line
The slow burn in my head
Disclaimer: for the work labelled as funny, it’s funny to me… if it isn’t to you… shush.
My work is fan fiction. It is not a real representation on who the people are. They are stories for the purpose of entertainment only. If you do not like it, do not read it! Any pictures on my page without links are most likely not mine. Credit to respective owners.
The words left his mouth too easily. Too quickly. Too carelessly.
"I don’t feel that way about you."
There wasn’t a hesitation, not even a pause to consider the weight of what he was saying.
It was final.
A death sentence to the hope that had been blooming inside of you for years.
You knew you shouldn't have confessed. You knew, but knowing didn't stop the ache spreading through your chest like a wildfire you couldn't put out.
It took you a moment before you could swallow. Hard. "Oh."
Just that. Oh.
What else could you say?
You thought you'd cry, thought the ground would crack open and swallow you whole, but all you could do was stare at him.
At the face you had loved for so long.
The eyes that held galaxies but not you.
The lips that had spoken so softly to you, teasing you, laughing with you, making you believe- making you think - that maybe, just maybe, you had a chance.
Chan shifted on his feet, rubbing the back of his neck. "I-I'm sorry. I didn’t mean to-"
"You did," you cut in. Your voice was steady surprisingly, even though your world was crumbling. "You meant it. And that's okay. I just...I just needed to hear it."
Chan frowned, looking like he wanted to say something, but what was left to say?
What could he possibly offer you now?
Nothing much, if anything at all.
"We're okay?"
You nodded.
Chan couldn't think of anything so he blurted the first thing that came to his mind.
"Cross your heart?"
"And hope to die." You mumbled quietly, biting back the tears at the truth in those childish words.
You wanted to be swallowed whole. You felt humiliated.
But Chan couldn't do anything about that.
And you knew that.
So you did the only thing you could do.
You smiled. Forced. Hollow.
"It’s getting late. I should go."
He didn’t stop you. Didn’t reach for your hand or ask you to stay.
And that was how you knew.
There had never been anything to hold onto in the first place.
You didn’t cry until you were alone in your apartment, in the suffocating silence of a place that suddenly felt too big and too empty.
You had spent years orbiting around him, letting him be the gravity that pulled you in, and now- now there was nothing.
Just a vast, aching void where something warm used to be.
Your fingers trembled as you reached for your phone, for the thread of messages filled with inside jokes, late-night ramblings, voice notes of him humming random melodies he was working on. You stared at his contact name, thumb hovering over the chat before you pressed down.
You’re still my best friend, right?
You deleted it before you could send it.
Because you already knew the answer he was going to give.
And a part of you realized that the answer he would have given, would just mess up your equation.
Chan...didn’t think much of it at first.
The confession, the way you left-
It was awkward, sure, but he figured things would go back to normal.
You were strong. Resilient.
You had always been able to brush things off, so he convinced himself you’d bounce back and your friendship would be back to normal.
But then you didn’t.
The next day, you didn’t reply to his texts.
The next week, you were suddenly "too busy" to hang out.
The next month, you started pulling away, and Chan- idiot that he was- thought it was just temporary.
That you just needed space.
Then came the excuses. The half-hearted responses. The messages left on read.
And for the first time, he started to feel something close to regret.
It hit him during one of the late nights at the studio, the kind of night where exhaustion blurred the edges of his thoughts, making everything feel heavier.
He had just finished mixing a track when he caught himself opening his phone, out of habit, scrolling to your contact.
He paused. The last message was weeks ago.
Hope you're doing okay. We should hang out soon. Miss you.
Unread.
Chan sighed, rubbing his hands down his face. He didn’t understand it. This wasn’t how it was supposed to go. You two were supposed to laugh it off, move past it.
You two were supposed to still be us.
But you weren’t.
And he was starting to realize maybe that was his fault.
Maybe if I had tried explaining instead of just leaving Y/N to handle my rejection on their own...
He let himself fall back into his chair, staring at the ceiling.
A sick feeling settled in his stomach, twisting, tightening, but he shoved it down. He wasn’t sure why this was bothering him so much. You were his best friend. You had always been there, always been his safe place. He didn’t need you to love him like that. Why would you want someone like him to love you like that?
And why did the thought of you not loving him at all suddenly make it hard to breathe?
You forced yourself to move on. Or at least, you tried to.
It wasn’t easy. Not when everything reminded you of him. The coffee shop where you two used to sit for hours, him hunched over his laptop while you doodled on napkins.
The convenience store where he’d grab extra snacks just because he knew you’d steal half of his. The stupid, little things you hadn’t realized were stitched so deeply into your life until they were gone.
Until he was gone.
But what choice did you have? Staying in his orbit was only going to break you further, so you cut yourself free. It was the hardest thing you had ever done.
But it was also the only way you could survive.
Months passed.
Chan told himself he was fine. That you were fine.
But then, one night, he saw you.
Not through a screen. Not in passing. But there, across the room at a mutual friend’s gathering, looking different and yet exactly the same. Except this time- this time you weren't looking for him.
You weren't making a beeline to his side like you used to.
Instead, you were laughing at something someone else had said, eyes bright, lips curved into a smile that he used to think belonged to him.
And suddenly, he wasn’t fine.
He wasn't fine at all.
Because he realized, too late, that he had been wrong.
He did feel that way about you.
He had just been too blind to see it.
And now? Now you were gone.
Chan sucked in a sharp breath, his fingers tightening around his drink as he watched you from across the room. He thought about going over, thought about what he could possibly say.
"Hey, remember when I said I didn’t love you? I think I lied."
He laughed bitterly to himself. Too late.
Too late for that.
He had told you he didn’t love you.
Cross his heart, he thought he didn’t.
But if that were true, then why did it feel like he was the one suffocating now?
can I request a hyunjin x fem!reader (highschool au) where it’s finals season and reader is stressing tf out, and hyunjin tries to help her out + comfort her and stuff?
A/N: YESS! I have such a great idea for this now. I hope you like it :))) I’m not particularly great at advice about studying because I was fully a delinquent who did not give 2 shits about my grades BUT I HOPE I DID THIS JUSTICE!
Your chest always felt a little tight when you were stressing about something. Breaths were a little harder to take but you didn’t notice because you were too preoccupied. Worrying as the minutes counted down to the exams that decided huge parts of your future.
The hours of hunching over your desk gave you pain that felt like nothing in comparison to the ache in your shoulder from a bag full of books so heavy you looked at it twice sometimes because it was shocking you could carry it at all, let alone 8 hours a day.
Safe to say, you were exhausted.
Everyday felt like it went by in a blur of papers flying everywhere around you. Though it sucked, a little light in your life was your beautiful loving boyfriend. His sass, his smile, his ability to fall asleep absolutely anywhere made you so happy. He made you laugh and he helped you work through so many emotions.
To see him for even an hour everyday gave you more comfort than anyone else could.
And that’s exactly what you needed today. Your brain was at peak stress. It was coming to a point where you would reread the same paragraph 5 times and still not understand what was on the page. It was almost lunch and as you walked to the meeting spot, he wasn’t there.
He should be here. His class was close to this place.
You stood there confused for about 10 minutes before you decided to call him.
He picked up, ‘Hey, I’m so sorry I’m running late. I had to help tutor this girl in my class.’
‘Okay but hurry, I’m hungry,’ you replied and after he apologised again, he hung up.
The headache you had was only getting worse and considering you hadn’t been eating properly, you were kind of weak now.
As he got to you, he saw how tired you looked. How you were leaning on the fall entirely for balance and how heavy your bag looked. He came over and took your bag from you gently before seating you at a nearby bench.
‘Are you okay? You look sick,’ Hyunjin looked so worried.
You shook your head a little, ‘just busy studying. I’m a little tired.’
He took out a juice box, your favourite flavour and gave it to you in hopes it would help with your lack of energy.
‘Please stop overdoing your studying. You’re so smart and you score so well every single time.’
‘I just don’t want to fail. Or barely pass even. It’s so hard to get into good universities after,’ you rested your head on his shoulder. His worry made you a little sad but also, you felt so loved.
‘You know what? I’m going to help you more from now on. I will be calling you, 3 times a day to eat with me on calls and once we’re done, we can study together.’
You looked at him with confusion, ‘but you don’t even need high grades and stuff. You’re an idol trainee.’
‘I’ll manage my time to help you. Even if it’s just a little bit. I can’t have my favourite person in the world struggling out here, all alone,’ he sighed dramatically.
It brought a smile to your face when he said that. He was always dramatic to cover the nice things he did for you. But you loved him more than you could put into words.
From then on, he helped you with your studies. He would find out what you were struggling with and while you revised something else, he would learn whatever was hard for you and then later teach it to you. It felt like such an efficient system.
You would eat together, study together then nap for a bit to be fully rested.
I'll just start a new thread because the other one was too long, thank you for the tag @g1ven-taken
i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child
Thank you for the tag and your attempt at cheering me up @bvidzsoo 😭🩷
i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child
Tagging: @ennysbookstore @everyonewooeverywhere @yunniverse @seongwars @solaris-amethyst and anyone who wants to participate
i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child
i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child
i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child
Tagging: @staylovesmiley @staybabblingbaby @hyunjinvoid (and anyone who wants to!)
i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child
i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child
No pressure tags!!: @succubus-hansol @kkulg0m1 @pnutbutter-n-j-elyy
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
