[ayyowtfbruh]

Anyway I’m almost 33 and own a home with 2 dogs and a cat and trying to get pregnant so that’s my very quick update for any followers that are invested

[ayyowtfbruh]

To further prove my point of distinguishing between romantic love and everything in between

I had a open, unspoken, sexual relationship with one of my oldest childhood friends and I was deeply attracted to her but never in love with her romantically - loved her deeply but it was very different

Idk overall growing up queer and a lowkey ugly coward is weird and will make you push the people you’re in love with into the arms of others - and I was definitely in love with other people in between these loves - but it ultimately works out because I love my partner and our life

[ayyowtfbruh]

Also as long as I’m being honest I was so in love with one of my male best friends in my early 20s it haunted me for years and I still fondly think of him and hope he’s well - I want to reach out time to time but fear it would be weird

Like my love for him haunted me to the point I doubted my love for my husband because we were so in synch but it would probably never have worked out because I hate nyc and he hated traveling

[ayyowtfbruh]

It’s so strange re-living one of your teenage loves when your in your 30s and married because of stranger things

I initially acknowledged this love in my early 20s luckily because I was self aware but it was still hushed

I was in love with one of my best friends from middle school to college and I knew this because I was fairly sexually liberated but it felt so different when I was around her and I always went out of my way to spend time with her… and any criticism from her felt so deep and really hurt

I would walk hours to be with her, when I got my license she was one of the first people I saw, reserved a time to see her, would spend any amount of money to spend time together and I still think about it

There is so much I can’t articulate but I wanted to shout this into the void

[crdmemories]

e03 “allies”

[weltenwellen]

Ilya Kaminsky, from "While the Child Sleeps, Sonya Undresses", Deaf Republic

[sorbet-sharks]

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[nostalgia1998]

[mollybeenoel]

Source: poeticalphotos

[depsidase]

[nordfjording]

^what he said

[nordfjording]

[schwazombie]

"One doesn't need to make things unnecessarily complicated at the outset. He who raises his right arm at a slant forcefully and repeatedly while standing on a political stage at a political speech in front of a partially extreme right public is performing the Hitler salute. There is no need for 'allegedly' or 'similar' or 'debated'. The gesture speak for itself, it is documented on video. Whoever then wants to reinterpret it, whoever doesn't want to see (i.e., refuses to recognize) the Hitler salute, does so on their own behalf."

(sorry I am really bad at translating but this is roughly what it says, for my non-German speaking mutuals)

[depsidase]

[deadbeatmaker]

mental illness is so embarassing i’ll literally be like I’m fully aware I’m mentally ill but it’s not mental illness this time. and then it was mental illness

[ayyowtfbruh]

After all of these years I can still feel, and smell, and taste the memories. I wish I told you how I felt. I wish I was honest in the moment rather than being coy and cool. I was so in love with you it made my head spin but I couldn’t bring myself to say it with my chest. I could only hide and cower in the dark and whisper how I felt.

I don’t regret how things turned out. I think everything would have ended the same. I don’t think we were ever meant. I just wish I told you. You deserved to feel the love for what it was. I think it would have made you happy. I deserved to be free. Now it’s been almost 10 years and I’m still having dreams about finally telling you. As far as regrets go, it’s very bittersweet. As far as regrets go, it is by far not my biggest. But my god it as far as regrets go it’s the only one I cannot shake off after I wake up.

[carnemancy]

who up hamhamming their heartbreak

[ayyowtfbruh]

How do I gently tell teenagers I know that their partner is not a good match for them because so far my track record is not great

[sleepy-bebby]