LET THE DARKNESS COME FOR ME

Let it try to steal my soul — 𝗔𝗦 𝗜𝗙 𝗜 𝗛𝗔𝗗 𝗔 𝗦𝗢𝗨𝗟 𝗧𝗢 𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗔𝗟

[azureblitzed]

𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐌𝐄 — 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘐'𝘮 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥

indie and selective takumi sumino of the hundred line: last defense academy.

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[oyasumino]

why he so moe

[wouldhope]

"Yeahhh, I totally forgot to eat breakfast today, too. Goin' all the way down to the cafeteria is just such a hassle!" Darumi shrugs, although she thinks she knows the reason neither of them have been too eager to go eat - being around everyone else just felt awkward now. There was always this underlying tension in the air, and even if most of the animosity was directed towards Takumi, she didn't feel comfortable with it either. She knew none of them really wanted her around - that they would much rather have sacrificed her for the rest of the students at Second to Last Defense Academy. She was used to being an outcast, unwanted - she encouraged it, even. It hurt less that way. But now there was someone else suffering with her, and as much as she wished he could be happy, that the others would accept him back... It was nice to not be so alone anymore. They only have each other, at least for now. It's more than Darumi ever could've hoped for in terms of friendship.

"Yesss, let's get a whole snack hoard together! Binge on junk food while binging horror! It'll be perfect!" She gleefully agrees, excited smile spreading across her face, although it softens to something more sincere when he asks her not to pick on him. "Aww, don't worry about that. Getting freaked out is part of the fun! It'd be kinda boring if you WEREN'T getting a little scared~" She assures him - as much as she might tease, she's just happy Takumi is willing to watch her favorite movies in the first place. She's never been able to share this with anyone else, so however he ends up reacting, it's special to her.

They go their separate ways for a short time to gather their snacks - when they meet up again, Darumi's carrying an entire stockade of sweet snacks for them to share. Gummy worms, chocolates, soda, sour candies - she's got just every variety one could imagine, almost too many to carry, a precariously balanced mountain cradled in both arms. "Check it out! I've been saving these babies for juuuust the right occasion! Now let's get our grubbing and goring on!"

[azureblitzed]

He  can't  help  but  smile  when  Darumi  seems  so  excited.  She  had  gotten  him  to  watch  movies  with  her  in  the  previous  timeline,  but...  This  was  different.  He  was  almost  excited  to  watch  it.  No  matter  what  messed  up  stuff  is  on  the  screen,  it  will  never  be  as  horrific  as  his  reality.  As  seeing  the  person  he  loved  most  die  in  the  last  timeline.  Making  a  call  that  killed  4  people.  Of  her  hating  him.  Maybe  he  never  understood  the  appeal  because  his  life  was  so...  Boring.  He  had  been  so  lucky.  Looks  like  his  luck  ran  out  when  he  got  selected  for  the  unit,  huh?

"Heh...  Thanks.  I'll  try  to  be  brave  about  it  and  not  like...  Grab  onto  you  or  anything."  Well,  that  would  be  embarrassing.  He  didn't  think  he  would  get  that  freaked  out  but  he  remembered  Karua  grabbing  him  once  when  they  watched  a  scary  movie  together.  It  had  been...  Really  cute.  Too  bad  she  totally  hates  his  guts  now.  He  deserves  it.

The  dark  thoughts  return  the  moment  he's  alone.  They  swirl  in  his  skull  as  he  gathers  up  his  snacks.  Chips,  some  candies,  lukewarm  soda,  the  various  things  he'd  been  sustaining  himself  on  since  his  exile  from  the  group.  His  haul  was  tiny  compared  to  hers.  In  fact,  without  thinking  he  hurries  to  take  some  of  the  items  she  was  carrying  before  she  drops  them.

"You  have  a  lot.  I  feel  a  little  bad.  For  not  contributing  much."  He  masks  his  genuine  guilt  with  a  small  forced  laugh.  All  he  wanted  to  do  was  turn  his  brain  off  and  watch  whatever.  With  his...  His  only  real  friend.  And  not  think  about  how  much  he  hates  himself.

"I...  never  mentioned  this  but  I  really  like  movies.  Even  if  I  haven't  really  seen  a  lot  of  scary  ones  on  the  level  you  probably  enjoy.  But  either  way,  I'm  excited."

[archetypeofnature]

Going against her former assignment didn’t sit too well with Sirei. When Takumi left the sign, the nosy robot immediately came in to investigate its content. “Heh…” Curiosity was shown on her face for far too long, allowing him to notice the change in emotions. “Wanna know? It says you are Sumino’s lap dog. Keeping you all to himself. How do you feel about that?” Eva blinked. Sirei chuckled, “Good. You shouldn’t care. But I do want you to do me a favor.” Nigou chimed in, watching the doorway as instructed, but loud enough for them both to hear. “Don’t be too cruel to Ms. Eva!” Sirei tapped the gate and whispered softly to Eva. All she did was nod in response.

Her day went along without any major incidents. The twins asked her to eat a strange concoction, Nozomi asked to help clean the infirmary, and Kiyoshika wanted a sparring partner; all was exactly as it needed to be. Every so often, she felt a warm, calming presence watching over her. When her tasks were egregious, that weight lifted from her shoulders, making them easier to finish. 

All of her activities made the day go by quickly. Night blanketed the skies. She looked up at the stars in longing. “What… am I searching for?” What she longed for felt farther and farther away. 

When she entered the room, her eyes glanced at every corner, wondering what needed to be cleaned or assisted with in any manner. “You’re welcome, Mr. Sumino.” Eva stood in the middle of the room. “Is that an order?” She was referring to the snacks. Though her mind was blank, her stomach stated otherwise. “As you wish.” She comfortably sat down on the couch and leaned forward to eat them. “I do not understand your order. Can you tell me what you need, Mr. Sumino? I will do anything to help kill the invaders or to advance our mission."

[azureblitzed]

"N-no...  It's  not  an  order."  He  smiled  nervously,  his  voice  coming  out  too  quiet  to  actually  comfort  her.  Maybe  he  shouldn't.  After  all,  Eva...  was  only  supposed  to  follow  orders.  He  moved  to  sit  beside  her,  at  a  distance  so  they  weren't  too  close.

The  guilt  crept  in  again.  He  had  been  the  one  that  did  this  to  her.  Even  if  Sirei  had  done  it  first,  Takumi  had  helped  him.  He  could  still  see  her  strapped  to  that  machine.  Screaming.  Crying.  Her  mind  changing.  It  made  him  feel  sick.  He  wrapped  his  arms  around  his  stomach.  It  felt...  It  felt  awful.  He  wondered  if...  It  would  have  been  more  merciful  to  kill  her.  Even  more  so  if  one  of  his  comrades  had...  Had...

"Oh...  Uh..."  He  hadn't  actually  thought  of  an  order.  He  still  felt  sick.  Guilty...  But  all  he  could  do  now  was  try  to  protect  Eva.  After  all,  even  if  it  wasn't  her  choice,  she  was  a  member  of  the  special  defense  unit  too.  That  meant  she  was  his  responsibility.  Even  more  so  after  what  he  did  to  her.  Just  because  Sirei  and  some  of  the  others  saw  her  as  an  object  didn't  mean  he  had  to.  He  didn't  want  to  become  the  type  of  person  that  was  okay  with  that  sort  of  thing.  He  already  knew  he  had  done  unforgivable  things.

"I'm  just...  It's  a  heavy  burden  being  the  leader.  It  would  be  really  helpful  if  we  just  chatted  about  stuff.  Is  that  okay?  And  uhh...  If  you  slept  here?"

[moonlitverdict]

How  disgusting.  He  feels  a  tendril  that  he  assumed  was  Takumi's  thumb  tracing  his  cheek.  It  felt  slimy,  and  dirty.  He  makes  a  little  face  showing  his  disgust  that  only  gets  worse  when  Takumi  removed  his  glasses.  Eito  tries  to  reach  up  in  protest,  but  he  was  too  slow.  Now  his  glasses  are  going  to  feel  gross  on  his  face  until  he  gives  them  a  proper  cleaning.

Confusion  soon  takes  over  at  Takumi's  words.  Why  was  he  acting  as  if  he  didn't  know  that  he  was  blind  before?  As  if  he  wasn't  there  when  Eito  had  showed  everyone  that  he'd  removed  his  eyes-  as  if  he  wasn't  there  when  he  crushed  them  beneath  his  foot.

"...What?"

He  couldn't  get  another  word  in  as  Takumi  kept  talking.  Despite  his  voice  being  like  nails  on  a  chalkboard,  Eito  listened  carefully  and  was  immediately  overwhelmed.  It  felt  like  a  dream.  Surely,  he  had  just  died  and-  no.  If  he  had  died,  he  would  be  given  no  such  peace  in  the  afterlife.  It  wasn't  in  the  cards  for  someone  like  him.  So  then,  why?  The  simple  reasoning  that  he  deserved  to  be  happy  wasn't  enough.

"I'm  sorry.  I  don't  think  I  can  walk,  as  much  as  I  want  to.  Having  your  hands  on  me  is  already  awful  enough...  now  I  have  to  deal  with  you  carrying  me,  too."

Despite  this,  Eito  had  a  wobbly  smile  on  his  face.  Somewhere  deep  down,  underneath  all  of  his  shame  and  self  hatred,  he  wanted  this  and  was  happy  for  it.

[azureblitzed]

It  has  been  a  long  time  since  the  overlord  was  rendered  speechless.  He  stared,  mouth  opened,  at  Eito.  How  long  had  it  been  since  Eito  regarded  him  with  disgust?  Most  people  with  hemoanima  caved  instantly  in  his  presence  now.  But...  Why?  How?  Why  was  Eito  so  utterly  disgusted?

"You  don't  like  me  touching  you...?"  He  asks  quietly.  He  can  barely  remember  the  time  before  people  craved  his  touch  like  it  was  water  and  they  were  dying  of  thirst.  Even  Eito  had...  In  fact,  Eito  had  been  the  most  adamant  about  him  staying  on  course.  Because  he  no  longer  saw  him  as  a  disgusting  monster.  But  this  Eito...  This  one.

"Aotsuki..."  He  was  always  empty.  Made  to  be  filled  with  the  love  of  others.  The  desires  of  his  followers.  Their  love  and  devotion.  To  be  worshipped  even  if  it  hurt  him.  Even  if  he  didn't  feel  like  it.  Even  if  it  made  him  feel  rotten  inside.  But  he  didn't  feel  empty  right  now.

Eito  wasn't  under  his  spell.  Which  meant...  He  wouldn't  touch  him.  He  wouldn't  fuck  him.  He  wouldn't  put  any  parts  of  his  body  inside  of  him.  He  wouldn't  have  to  suppress  the  disgust  and  the  tears.  He  wouldn't  have  to  be  empty.

No.  No  no  no  no.  He  was  happy!  He  was  content!  He  was....!  He  was...  He  had  to  be.

He  shifts  to  pick  up  Eito  similar  to  how  he  did  in  his  first  timeline.  He  was  larger  than  him,  and  the  closeness  was  revolting.  It  felt  like  needles  danced  over  his  skin.  And  it  was  comforting  to  know  Eito  was  equally  disgusted.  Something  squirmed  in  his  stomach.  Something  unfamiliar.  Buried.  Excitement.  If  Eito  couldn't  be  his  priest,  he  would  be  his  pet.

"I'll  explain.  I'm  from  a  different  timeline.  And  I'm  taking  you  there.  And  I  promise,  I'll  make  you  happy  and  love  you."  He  starts  to  move  slowly,  trying  not  to  irritate  Eito's  wounds.

[100lives]

╰┈➤ 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐄𝐒 // no longer accepting!

@azureblitzed said : "What? You still care about me? Fuck you."

𝐎𝐇,  𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓  𝐀  𝐅𝐈𝐄𝐑𝐘  𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊  𝐈𝐍  𝐇𝐈𝐒  𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒!  Periwinkle  blues  shine  with  a  gleam  that  borders  happiness,  elation  even  —  the  anger  that  radiates  in  those  beautiful  cerulean  hues  never  fails  to  amuse  Eito.  Takumi  Sumino,  what  a  truly  complex  individual!  Once  a  repulsive  human  who  has  evolved  into  a  being  of  purity  like  that  of  a  butterfly,  it  seems  that  the  box  of  blessing's  power  didn't  quite  cure  him  of  his  temperament.  Then  again,  it  would  be  both  a  waste  and  disappointment  if  the  redhead  lost  those  integral  parts  that  make  up  his  charm.  From  the  moment  Takumi  spared  him  after  the  first  act  of  ❛  𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐀𝐋  ❜,  Eito  had  been  fixated  to  an  almost  obsessive  degree;  it  was  both  an  act  of  kindness  that  doubled  as  a  wrench  in  his  plans  to  annihilate  humanity,  and  he  wasn't  simply  going  to  roll  over  in  defeat.  No,  there  was  a  truth  to  pursue  that  required  him  to  escape  the  courtyard  cages,  and  a  revenge  to  be  enacted.

And  now?  Now  the  roles  were  reversed  and  pretty  little  Takumi  was  locked  behind  the  bars  with  Eito  peering  in,  staring  at  him  as  if  he  was  a  moth  pinned  for  inspection.

❝  Of  course  I  still  care  about  you,  Takumi-kun!  Keeping  you  in  here  is  the  only  way  I  can  ensure  that  you  stay  safe  after  all.  With  the  current  state  of  the  world  as  it  is,  I  can't  have  you  running  around  and  getting  killed  by  a  roaming  enemy  or  one  of  those  ugly  monsters  you  call  a  friend.  ❞

That's  right  —  outside  of  this  specific  area,  there  were  too  many  ways  that  he  could  lose  his  𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓  𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃  and  that  simply  won't  do!  Not  at  all!

Not  only  would  it  be  a  waste  of  the  wish  he  made  with  the  box  of  blessing,  but  then  he'd  be  all  alone  again.

❝  "This  is  for  your  own  good,  I  promise.  You  can  trust  me  now.  ❞

[azureblitzed]

The  last  moments  of  Takumi's  life  were  regret  and  pain.  He  slipped  into  darkness  knowing  he  had  failed  and  lost  everything.  Eito's  blade  dug  deep  into  him  and  he  knew  the  instant  he  felt  the  bite  of  it,  he  was  going  to  die.

And  honestly?  It's  what  he  deserved.  It  would  have  been  find  if  only  he  had  died.  He  knew  Eito's  wish  would  likely  involve  destroying  humanity.  His  entire  family  gone,  the  person  he  loved  most  dead,  and  all  of  his  friends  too...  All  their  blood  was  on  his  hands.  But  he  can't  redo  again.  And  he  slowly  slips  into  darkness  full  of  bitter  regret.

Only  to  wake  up  again.  Eito's  demeanor  involving  him  had  changed,  and  he  realized  that  he  must  have  used  his  wish  on  him.  Why?  He  couldn't  know.  He  wanted  to  kill  Eito  but...  He  wouldn't  be  able  to  like  this.  The  cage  rendered  his  powers  useless,  even  if  he  could  transform.

Eito  wanted  him  to  live  for  some  reason.  He  tried  not  to  listen  to  him.  Implying  his  'friends'  were  still  out  there  was  a  cruel  trick  he  wouldn't  engage  with.  They  were  all  dead.  He  knew  that.

"Fuck  you."  He  repeats,  his  voice  trembling  from  the  sheer  amount  of  emotion  attacking  him.  He...  he  couldn't  do  this.  He  couldn't  stop  him.  He  didn't  want  to  be  alive  after  how  badly  he  had  ruined  everything.  He  didn't  even  have  a  weapon.  His  tongue  slides  over  his  teeth.

His  wrists.  If  he  could  cut  them...  He  had  only  one  thing...  Every  single  instinct  programed  into  his  body  tried  to  make  him  stop  as  he  dug  his  teeth  deep  into  his  right  wrist,  blood  flooded  his  mouth.  Again  and  again  and  again.  It  hurt  so  much  and  yet...  His  desire  to  die  was  stronger  than  his  aversion  to  pain.  It  was  bleeding  so  much....  He  must  be  doing  a  good  job.

Deep  red  crimson  painted  his  clothes,  his  face,  it  dripped  down  his  neck.  He  spit  out  the  blood  in  his  mouth  before  digging  his  teeth  into  his  left  wrist.  Black  spots  danced  across  his  vision  and  he  shivered.  It  hurt  so  much!  But...  but  he  had  to....!

[mournfulroses]

Catherynne M. Valente, from her book titled "Deathless," originally published in March 2011

[azureblitzed]

// hey, my mental health is in a really bad place atm. I try not to make posts like this very often. Thanks for all your patience. I've been really thinking about some things lately. I've decided for now, I'm going to step back from irl discussions or anything of that nature with anyone that isn't a TRUSTED friend.

I'm going to be slower answering dms here and on discord. I'm not going to talk about things that aren't related to rp / fandom with most people. I try really hard to make the rpc more welcoming and I try to be kind. But I don't think I'm mentally in a place to be reaching out ooc as much. I'll still send memes and prompts and post stuff. I just feel really bad about existing atm after a few back-to-back situations.

I don't want to be openly negative on here about people and things because that's not the type of space I try to have. But I'm feeling very negative every time I get online atm.

On another note, I'll be on hiatus from the 31st to the 3rd. Then again for the 14th-17th.

[cannibalings]

have you reopened the wound? will you reopen the wound? when will you reopen the wound?

[kosmogrl]

[limbel]

NEVER HEAL indulge in self sabotage romaniticize self isolation ALWAYS QUIT reject your potential never break the cycle let the curse win

[yellow-cat]

(voice of a person spiralling) its embarrassing but i still havent figured out if its ok for me to be alive

[azureblitzed]

// gonna try to queue some replies tomorrow. wish me luck!

[iwas-handpicked]

no babe i find your strange and creepy and perverted vibe to be very cute actually

[frenchyfoxy]

Too hot to even go out. It's unbearable 💔

[divinerpresources]

Send 👑 if you like my writing! Bonus points if you tell me why!

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[wormtrice]

Darutaku mogged everyone in this collab. I’m so sick they’re putting me down like a sick horse