[babybeani]

i feel like a shit person but at the same time i don't for not being here that is. i feel excluded from people, and it's no one but my fault. i have pushed close and even not so close friends away, and i am sorry. i am going through a really rough break up right now. 3 and a half years with someone you love so deeply and now it's over. he was a big part of my life, i keep forgetting he is gone. i look at little things and think “oh he’d love that” but remember he’s not apart of my life anymore, and it hurts. i am sorry, i am ranting but i don’t have many people to talk to, and i just need to write something to slightly explain my out of the blue absence, and i i need to write to get things off my mind.  i am sorry i haven’t been here and i hoping i can start my new character today, get some muse into him/her and pour my emotions out through my character. i hope everyone is doing okay. /:

[jfcjimmy]

"no, no you’re fine." He said after she finished talking. "I have a tendency to ramble as well. Not a problem."

[babybeani]

"Do you want the shirt, you might actually make it look cute." She grinned.

[babybeani]

jfcjimmy:

"C’mon Beanie, everyone knows honesty is the best policy. If you aren’t, then he’ll buy you more shirts like that.” 

"Oh God.. not more shirts. I wish someone in my family knew my taste in fashion. I mean yeah I was raised basically in a church where I wasn't allowed to wear anything but skirts and shirts that made me look like a turtle.. but I still knew what real fashion was." She laughed a little. "I talk too much, sorry."

[chloexrainxfisher-deactivated20]

"Yea Cozumel has some awesome shops" She told her.

[babybeani]

"What's Cozumel?"

[stealthylikea-kat-deactivated20]

"It’s scary, yes. Don’t worry that goes away mostly. Not completely, but that’s part of the fun." She explained, taking out her sizers from her purse to cut the tag off. She did it quickly, making sure no one would see. "Alright so you have two options. Either buy something like really cheep and ask for a bag or make a run for it." 

[babybeani]

"I-I don't have any money to buy anything, and if I use my card my parents will be mad.." Bean didn't want to make a run for it, but if she wanted those shoes she had no choice. "Run." Her heart was still racing, and she was depending on a complete stranger to get not get her arrested. It was scary, but doing something she wasn't supposed to made her excited.

[chloexrainxfisher-deactivated20]

"Well tell your dad you love it, then in Mexico we can ho shopping for a cuter one" Rayne suggested with a smile.

[babybeani]

"I like that idea a lot." Bean grinned and nodded.

[bellamontague-blog]

"Yeah… just— be thankful he’s thinking of you, I think is the way to go. I mean, I know how to craft shirts like that into a mini skirt, if you’d want to wear it like that instead."

[babybeani]

"I don't know about a mini skirt.. maybe a little bandanna would be cute." She smiled and nodded. "I'd probably end up ruining all of it though if I even tried."

[ariaxmikaelson]

"It wouldn’t hurt to tell a little white to your dad and say it’s nice"

[babybeani]

"You're the one to talk about little white lies. You couldn't even buy me one drink." 

[winniexthexpoohx-blog]

"Well, tell him you like it. And then use it for when you clean. Like only wear it when you clean. So no one has to see you wear it"

[babybeani]

"Hmm.. actually that's a good idea! As long as I'm not seen in it." She laughed.

[chloexrainxfisher-deactivated20]

"How about both? Is that an option?"

[babybeani]

"I think it has to be an option, if I look at this shirt again I might actually puke.." She laughed and threw the shirt aside. 

[babybeani]

alfie-c:

"You should thank him and send him a picture of you in it."

"That's a good idea, then I'll pack it away or give it away..something."

[avaxmarie-deactivated20150420]

You should probably burn that shirt and disown him as your father, because he obviously hates you.”

[babybeani]

"I wouldn't go as far as disowning him.. I think I'll just take a quick picture in it and send it to him then pack it away." 

[ohnotalec]

Matty chuckled, “I don’t think they wear those anymore, I think a segway would be more convincing.” Looking st the shirt the boy shook his head, “I’m good, thank you though.”

[babybeani]

"My mother would never let me ride a segway. I basically had to crawl to my knees and beg her to be here... actually I think I had to do that." She laughed and threw the shirt over somewhere. "Didn't think so, I wouldn't be caught dead in that thing."

[ohnotalec]

"It’s not all that bad, he probably wanted you to  fit in with all the other tourist." 

[babybeani]

"But I'm not a tourist. And if I wanted to look like a tourist I'd by myself a sun visor." She laughed a little. "But if you like it be my guest, take it."

[parkuhpls-blog]

Is it a nice shirt?

[babybeani]

"It's an over-sized Hawaiian t-shirt..it's hideous."

[babybeani]

"My father sent me this shirt today.. I don't know if I should puke or be thankful he's thinking of me."

[tbhryland-blog]

"You’re a smart girl, you’ll do okay," he nodded. "Your parents don’t control you, unless they’re the ones paying for your tuition. Do school for you, not for anyone else.”

[babybeani]

"They pay for my tuition.. I have no other way to pay for it. I'm thankful, but I wish she wouldn't be so mothering towards me.. I'm 19 not 9." Bean nodded and smiled up at Ryland. "Thanks, Ry."