where i write my dreams

[ballroomprincess]

11 nov 2020

Today was a very good day, I laughed a lot with my friends. 

[ballroomprincess]

i don’t understand time at all. how does the present even feel like? i feel like i’m always with the past and the future. it’s so confusing to understand where and when do i exist.

[ballroomprincess]

i feel so much i don’t feel anything anymore.

[ballroomprincess]

i just miss who i am 

(and how optimistic i used to be)

is this what growing up is supposed to be?

[ballroomprincess]

old music you haven’t heard in a while is just like a little magic time machine

[perrfectly]

“That is the simple secret of happiness. Whatever you are doing, don’t let past move your mind; don’t let future disturb you. Because the past is no more, and the future is not yet. To live in the memories, to live in the imagination, is to live in the non-existential. And when you are living in the non-existential, you are missing that which is existential. Naturally you will be miserable, because you will miss your whole life”

— Osho (via perrfectly)

[ballroomprincess]

it’s simple, but can someone drop a step by step guide to not let past move your mind or let the future distub you?

[ballroomprincess]

I get obsessed, I don’t want to be sad, I don’t want to think about my problems. So I scroll, and I scroll and I scroll, even when I don’t want to.

[ballroomprincess]

productive tips during quarantine 2020

⭐️if you put your bed-sheets in the wash then you’re forced to be productive on your desk for a couple of hours. (Who wants to chill on a bare mattress anyways? And obviously don’t put in new sheets, just wait till the ones you put in the wash are dry)

⭐️you’d be surprised how much more awake you can feel when you just get up and walk around the house for a bit 

⭐️a sip of cold water never fails to make me feel more awake

⭐️if you feel super unproductive and guilty but can’t bring yourself to do work and study then start by cleaning ! You can see the difference almost immediately, it doesn’t take long, and once you accomplish something (and you can immediately visually see the difference) you will be more inclined to keep going! 

⭐️handwriting your list - it’s very satisfying to use a pencil to cross out tasks one by one

⭐️minimising your need to do work on your laptop or phone (printing sheets if you have a printer, using a textbook instead of online notes or videos if you can) will get you on track.

⭐️change little things in your routine, for example, start/stop listening to music when you work, change your study area (move your desk to another corner), 

⭐️wear fancy-ish clothes like your uniform or going out clothes, anything you want really! just get out of pyjamas, even if they’re fresh, clean ones.

⭐️studying with a friend on skype may help, talk through problems together or if you don’t take the same classes just having someone watch you do work and call you out once they see u be unproductive can help. you can always mute the call and still be productive.

⭐️try not to do work while lying down or on your bed

⭐️be mindful of how long you’re spending on tasks - use apps and stopwatches and google chrome extensions

⭐️keep your homes clean! and put stuff away and do stuff immediately - don’t think too much, just do it.

⭐️if you’re stuck in a rut and have control over when you do work, like you don’t have synchronous online classes, do your work at a time that’s v. productive for you - for me it’s at night because the city is extremely quiet, and just chill and sleep during times of the day you know you’re unproductive.

[ballroomprincess]

I realised that I’m usually interested in a boy when life isn’t going the way I want it to.

[ballroomprincess]

i just wanted someone nice who would talk with me (so i wouldn’t feel as awkward and stick out) and he just wanted someone to fuck (and maybe love him too.)

[ballroomprincess]

movies to motivate you to study

these help me a lot, hope it helps you!

💗legally blonde

💗hidden figures

💗biri gyaru (japanese)

[ballroomprincess]

thinking abt u rn and u have no idea 

(still not a crush tho, i swear)

[ballroomprincess]

actually so me

[xzeniax]

credit: http://pislices.ca/post/155946264317/galaxy-170116

[ballroomprincess]

ugh i want to celebrate 2020 LIKE IN A REALLY REALLY BIG WAY but idk if I can even stay out that late because I’m gonna be 17 and ugh parents

[timbllr]

via weheartit

[ballroomprincess]

me in MCM

[islamic-art-and-quotes]

A few years back JAKIM ( Department of Islamic Development Malaysia) circulated a Hadith that said Muslims are obliged to kill homosexuals. Thoughts?

That hadith comes through Amr b. Maysara who is considered unauthentic by Imam Malik and others. So the hadith is not strong enough to be used in Islamic law.

I believe in the modern world, Islamic countries should have two kinds of law, constitutional law that applies to all citizens, and Islamic law that applies to Muslims. Islamic punishments should only apply to those who freely choose to live under the Islamic legal system, and leaving Islam should be a right. I don’t believe in killing for any sexual crime, you can read more about that here on my site.