by himself

just michael who you don't know michael mell

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pearlsandhermes‌

Even though graduation was something Veronica knew that she would be faced with she wasn’t sure how she was going to react when the moment finally came. But this definitely wasn’t what she imagined. She was at a party being thrown by one of the kids at school and instead of enjoying herself like she probably should have been she was moping by herself. Her legs hung over the side of the pool and feet kicked lazily at the water. She had been in a daze until she heard someone approaching and looked up toward them. “Do you want some?” She held up her half empty red plastic cup to them as an offering. “You can finish off the rest and I’ll even let you drink from my flask if you sit down and be miserable with me.”

Michael was certainly a glutton for punishment. Another party and another chance to see Jeremy in a way that wasn’t annoyance directed at him. Unfortunately, Michael knew he couldn’t stay away from the other if he kept watching the other and forced himself outside to put some distance between the two. He hadn’t expected to be spoken to until the drink was offered, sitting down next to the other. Of course a girl would talk to him now of all times. “Yes please. I will gladly be miserable with you and get drunk because honestly fuck everything.”

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JEREMY STOP POURING THAT OUT IT COSTED TEN DOLLARS

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garcdenflower‌

“ Well, I mean…sort of. “ Eden confessed, feeling a bit embarrassed. “ It didn’t mean to start that way but it kinda ended that way…clearly. See, I work with a bunch of preschoolers and we did this art project and well… this was the result.  “ she motioned down to her now paint stained outfit. However he was right, she really did have fun!

Michael let out a chuckle, the thought of an army of little preschoolers with paint running through his mind amusing him. “Giving anyone under seven access to paint is probably one of the worst decisions,” he concluded. But, the other didn’t seem too mad about it, so it couldn’t have been that bad. “You’re brave, though. The thought of looking over one kid is enough to freak me out, let alone a bunch of them.”

[oldschoolnickelodeon]

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bloodboundfates‌

john let out a heavy sigh as he fiddled with a pen in his hands. he had a request from his mother and he was to see it through or see her get disappointed again – and he hated to see his mom like that. but, he didn’t know what was worse at the moment: seeing his mother’s disappointed look or asking someone if they wanted to hang out. he’d been given the typical lecture – go out, have fun, be a regular teen and make mistakes. but he he couldn’t let himself make mistakes. “hey, did you want to hang out or something? it’s a saturday night and i didn’t have anything planned, so,” he trailed off with a shrug. this was beyond embarrassing.

Michael had been sitting by himself as he usually did now, hood up with a pair headphones in. He was sulking when the other approached and he was half tempted to pretend he didn’t notice the other. But, he still pulled out one bud to listen. He wasn’t sure he’d heard correctly, a confused look coming across his face. “Hang out? With me?” He felt like it was a joke, eyes looking around to see if there was someone else in on this. But, there was no one. “Are you sure? I mean, why me of all people? Is it because I look like a pitiful loser?” He asked, laughing it off as if it was a joke.

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apricotjvice‌

Jeremy would have probably normally thought this whole event was the coolest thing ever, but that was his last thought presently. He had only decided to attend due to the fact the popular kids at school were there as well. He was scrolling through Instagram on his phone when he suddenly heard a voice beside him that made him roll his eyes. The moment Michael patted his shoulder, he shrugged away the touch and shot him a glare. “Why the fuck do you think it’s okay to talk to me?” His words were dripping with venom. “If I haven’t made it clear enough to you yet, Michael, we’re not friends anymore. If you ever want to work your way up to my level, we can talk again. But until then? You don’t exist to me.” 

Michael jumped back slightly when Jeremy spoke up, mouth falling open as he was both shocked and at a loss. He knew that Jeremy was starting to pull away from him, but he didn’t think Jeremy would ever directly push him away like this. “Wh-what?” He dumbly asked. “Do you even hear yourself right now? Who the fuck even talks like that? You’re not some villain in a high school sim. But, you know what, Jeremy? Fuck you. If you don’t want me to exist, then I don’t exist. But, the SQUIP didn’t make you cool it just turned you into an asshole. So, if that makes you happy, alright,” he said, voice growing low and shaky with anger. there were tears starting to line his eyes but he didn’t let them fall. Jeremy wasn’t worth them anymore. After everything, their friendship and other things included, his ‘best friend’ didn’t give a shit about him. He was just a stepping stone and it was finally hitting home for Michael. He’d given Jeremy too many chances.

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Michael was feeling brave at this point. With the acknowledgement he received from Jeremy last time, he was beginning to think that the SQUIP was starting to wear off or at least allow Michael back into the other’s field of vision. Just in case, however, he’d dressed up as cool as he thought he could be with his greaser get up. Slicked back hair, jeans, a white tee, and a leather jacket he found at a secondhand store. He was definitely feeling confident. “Hey, Jer -- you actually made it to this instead of ditching it for some party,” he said rather excitedly as playfully patted the boy’s shoulder. He was tricking himself into thinking they were friends again, tricking himself into thinking he even had a chance.

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apricotjvice‌

Jeremy nearly found himself choking on the liquid in his mouth in spite of the other’s response, surprised by the candidness of it. Despite the squip’s other effects, he still hadn’t grown accustomed to the fact that people actually showed interest in him now. He wasn’t just another loser to push around in the halls. Though unlike the old Jeremy, he quickly recovered from blunders and was able to find the words he wanted to say without having to face an onslaught of brain fog and awkward fumbling over words. He craned his head to the side before pushing the sunglasses that completed his costume up, “Admire all you want.” Direct eye-contact was one of the methods of intimidation he had adapted over a short span of time. “But, I’ve heard that just looking at things isn’t as satisfying as touching. It’s like when you see one of those ‘do not touch’ signs but all you want to do is reach out and break the rules.” 

To put it simply, Michael was blown away by both Jeremy’s recovery and confidence. He’d only ever dreamed of having hat level of confidence and he knew that it was all the squip’s doing. At this point, he didn’t know how to feel about it. He hated it considering Jeremy and him never hung out and Michael wasn’t eve registered in Jeremy’s plane of vision. However, right now, it wasn’t blocking him out for some unknown reason. It was allowing him to actually flirt with Jeremy, even inviting him to touch. He mustered up whatever fake confidence he had, hand reaching out to gently pull Jeremy closer by the nape of his neck. On the inside, he was beyond freaking out. But, on the outside, he was hopefully keeping it cool. “You could be one of those interactive art pieces. How much do I have to touch before you start responding?” He was beyond proud of that line. He thought he was so smooth.

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this is fine!

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apricotjvice‌

( @bathroomshutin | closed starter. )

Now that Jeremy was part of the ‘in’ crowd, he was expected to attend events he normally would have never been allowed to set foot in. Squip definitely had its benefits and cons. Today’s con? Attending Chloe’s anti-Valentines day party. Apparently giving a big middle finger to the popular holiday was more trendy than actually celebrating it. He was informed that it was a costume party and the whole event was basically passed off as pre-gaming for Halloween that was months away from now. So there he was, dressed up as Tom Cruise’s infamous character from Risky Business. Did he second guess himself and almost show up as Marty McFly? Definitely. But that was an old Jeremy move and the thought was quickly swept out of his head. So there he was, sipping stale tasting beer out of a red Solo cup by himself. That’s when he noticed someone not far from him look in his direction, a nervous feeling settling in the pit of his stomach. Fuck, was he walking toward him? “What’s up?” He tilted his chin ever so slightly in a greeting.

Of course Michael had heard of Chloe’s party, and of course, to no one’s surprise, he wasn’t exclusively invited. But, that wasn’t important. Just because he wasn’t given an invite didn’t mean he couldn’t come. Anyone could come, really. Plus, he decided to try for a more tone downed costume. It wasn’t Halloween just yet, so he couldn’t go for a werewolf or anything. But, because he was so lonely and obviously would never find love because he was just too damn insignificant, he decided to go as the phantom sin cape. The cape would look lame at the party. He knew Jeremy would be there and it was his lowkey way of watching the boy in his new element. However, the mask made him feel a bit braver once he saw him, feet stepping forward towards the other male. Did Jeremy seriously acknowledge him? “Nothing. Just admiring your choice of costume. And you. I mean. No, actually. I did mean that,” he fumbled. It was obvious Jeremy didn’t know who he was considering.

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garcdenflower‌

Eden was sure she looked like a complete mess as she walked down the street, her overalls covered completely in different colored paint stains. Even some pieces of her blonde hair were now coated with pink, blue and green paint. She had done a project with the preschoolers which had gotten a little out of hand to say the least. It didn’t take the blonde long to notice the person staring at her, ( not that she could blame them of course ) letting out a slightly embarrassed giggle in the process. “ I know you’re probably thinking I look crazy right now but at least you can’t say that I didn’t have fun. “ 

Michael thought that the colors in the other’s hair was something done on purpose. “What? No, not at all. It looks cool. Wait, is that actual paint?” He asked, taking a closer look at the girl’s hair before realizing that it was. “Oh my god it is. Did you have some sort of paint fight?” He finally took in the other’s entire appearance into consideration. “You did have a lot of fun,” he said with a small laugh. He didn’t have much experience with paint, but he was sure that painters would always have paint somewhere on their person.

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Michael: Did you know that most laughs you hear on TV shows today were recorded in the 1950s. That means technically you’re most likely hearing dead people laughing. Rich: this may be an interesting fact for most people but i always hear dead people laughing Michael: what the fuck Michael: what does that mean

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garcdenflower‌

“ I can’t believe how much junk my parent’s have in our basement. “ Coraline complained as she tossed a handful of random trinkets into the cardboard box that she had gathered up. Her parents had lazily put her in charge of cleaning out the basement, since they claimed to not have anytime to do so. Not only was it her family’s old things that she had to sort through but also the previous owners of the house. While it was certainly a chore the girl had been hoping to find some cool things she could keep among the junk. Maybe even sell some of it. After all was said and done she had hauled out the large box behind her ready to toss out whatever was deemed useless or just plain old trash. When she caught someone looking at the box she gave them a smirk. “ See something you like? You can keep whatever you want. I was just planning on tossing most of it anyway. “ 

michael noticed the box as he walked, naturally curious. there could have been some rare goodies in that box that others thought was junk. “i mean, there’s no harm in just looking,” he said, biting down on his lip as he squatted down. he doubted he would find anything actually cool in the box. “i’m holding out hope for never before opened star wars action figures, but i won’t hold my breath,” he joked, laughing slightly. though, he was quick to pout when there really wasn’t anything that caught his eye. “aw, are you serious? this really is all junk. this is just as disappointing as my life,” he said dramatically. “where did this all come from? an old lady from the seventies?”

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tornminds‌

ayano pouted sadly as she sat on a bench, snow slowly drifting around her and collecting in her hair. unfortunately, the boy she’d been obsessed over was gone for the season, leaving with practically nothing to focus on. it was quite obvious how upset she was with anyone who passed. “how can he just leave on some stupid vacation? what if he meets a pretty girl and tries to have some sort of stupid romance with her?” she grumpily said out loud to herself, arms crossing over her chest. “you just can’t trust anyone, can you?”

Michael was going to ignore the girl talking to herself. Chances were she would have ignored him as well if their places were switched. But the mention of untrustworthy boys caught his attention and he couldn’t help but chime in. “Oh, he probably is and he won’t tell you about it. Boys are dumb and there’s nothing anyone can do to make sure they actually stay loyal to you,” he huffed, his anger over his best friend leaving him for the cooler kids still very much present. 

[simonsqier]

Michael mell:

[thedgeofsleep]

my last three brain cells.

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Michael knew this was one of his only chances to get close to Jeremy while he was like he was. He still desperately longed to be best friends, and even more. But, he couldn’t take the rejection that came with trying to get close to the other. His heart broke every time he saw Jeremy. Though now he had a reckless idea that came with the free alcohol and the sight of the other. He knew it was Jeremy, he’d seen the other way too much to not recognize him. But, he knew the boy wouldn’t recognize him back so maybe this was a chance to finally spend some sort of time with the other. He confidently walked up to Jeremy, trying to act just like those he hung out with nowadays. “Hey. You look way too good to be here,” he said with a smile. “How about we get out of here, I got some good shit I can share with you.”

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