I know I haven't been around much lately...
Back in March, I realized I needed a break. As much of a break as I could take while still functioning. I had a mental/physical breakdown and my health really took a swan dive. I haven't talked about it much, but the past year has been really rough. My dad got diagnosed with cancer, my grandma passed away, and my cat got really sick and passed away. I tried really hard to pretend I was fine and everything could go on as normal, but something flipped in my brain in March and I just completely shut down. I started avoiding everything. Some days, I just couldn't even go to work and used up sick time as soon as I earned it. I've had the worst fucking brain fog and I feel like I'm just surviving most days. I'm doing my best not to push myself, though. I don't want to burn out as soon as I find some sort of spark again. But right now, everything is just difficult. Some days are better than others, but there's always a lingering sadness that just won't go away. But I'm okay. I'm doing my best and eventually (I hope) it will get better. I don't know how much longer it'll take me to get back to a place where I'm more active here again. But I do miss y'all and I'm grateful for everyone who has reached out and sent kind messages. I hope you're all doing well. And I hope to check back in again soon. 💖💖💖
