To the one I had to let go,
I debated with myself whether I should write this or not. Words always seem to be inadequate for what I feel for you.
I just need you to know, above everything else, that what I felt for you was, and is, the most genuine thing I have ever known. My intentions were never complex; they were simple and they were pure. I only wanted to be the person who stood by you, who grew with you, and who built a life that felt as safe as your arms. When I said I wanted to spend my whole life with you, I meant it with every fiber of my being. Every single one of them.
But I also have to carry the weight of where I failed you. I am deeply, truly sorry for not being the person who made you feel safe and comfortable at all times. I tried to be your sanctuary, yet I know there were moments when I became the storm instead.
I apologize for the times I unintentionally made you doubt my feelings, and for the moments I made you feel manipulated. Please believe me when I say that was never my heart’s intent. I was loving you the only way I knew how, with an intensity I didn't realize was causing you pain or discomfort. I see now that my way of loving you wasn't always what you needed, and for that, I am truly sorry.
I want you to know how much I appreciated every effort you put into us. I saw the love and care you gave (not only to me but also to Brynn), and I will always cherish it. Even now, with all this distance and silence between us, I still see you so clearly. To me, you are still the most beautiful, wonderful, and worthy person I have ever met.
My prayer now is that you find the space to heal and be truly happy. I hope you learn to be a little kinder to yourself, be as gentle with your own heart as you have always been with everyone else's. You deserve to love yourself and, more importantly, to forgive yourself for the ways you feel you lack or fallen short. You are so deserving of peace. You really do.
You changed the frequency of my life. Before you, there was a certain kind of noise— voices of doubt, of restlessness. But you silenced them. You made my heart happy in a way that wasn't just about excitement, but a profound peace. You made me feel special and loved in ways I didn't think were available to me. I experienced a version of happiness with you that I hadn't felt before.
If I’m being honest, there is a part of me that still wishes we had chosen differently, that we had looked at the cracks and decided to mend them together instead of walking away. But I have reached a point where I have to respect your decision, and in doing so, I have to respect myself, too. I can’t force a "forever" that we aren't both truly ready for.
You will always have a place in my thoughts and in my prayers. I will always wish for your joy, your safety, and a happiness that reaches every corner of your soul. Thank you for showing me what it feels like to be truly loved.
I loved you well, even if I didn't always love you perfectly. And I will always be rooting for you from afar.
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