“god is dog backwards” - a brief introduction.
last updated: 18/04/2026 (dd/mm/year)
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★ . I'm Bea. I use she/it pronouns and I'm a dog in many ways.
★ . I am a golden retriever literally, biologically and physically. I am also a weredog and I consider myself a zoanthrope and a shifter.
★ . Call me anything related to dogs (dog, dawg, canine, bitch, pup, feral etc). Dog vivterms too.
★ . This dog follows from @cotta-dog.
I am part of @trihydra alongside a bird and a dragon.
★ . Pup reblogged useful posts and links for her transition as "#📦 — doghood". Here you can find her transition post.
Cynanthropy posts are tagged with "#🦴 — weredog". Pup does not tag her posts with "dereality" or "unreality". Do not reality check.
★ . I love drawing and will probably post some stuff about it here.
★ . I don't regularly post discourse. The only stance I will be partaking on (this blog) ↓↓
★ . My transformations are very personal to me and I have no intent to "teach others how to do this".
I believe that forcing the way you experience reality onto others is inherently harmful and can be really distressing for all parties involved.
I do not support "shifting cults". I do not support those who intend to cause harm by manipulating people. I do not support "reality checkers" and their ways of harming others.
If you don't believe in my experiences and/or is uncomfortable with p-shifters, you are free to leave. The block button is right there.
Lycanthrope as in you meet a kind but twitchy person lost in the woods, much like yourself. As the moon rises in the distance you hear a howl and the man's hand slaps over his mouth, to which he pretends it was shock. He says he must run now, you assume he is afraid of the woods, and he is.
dont tell them i sent you to the best up and coming places for physical shifters, zoanthropes, and physical nonhumans. i made this place back in 2025 due to the rampid anti-physical nature of the overall community at the time and i still feel that places like this serve as a reminder that we do not have to put up with other's active stealing of our terminology and grouping.
while small, im hoping my following here can help increase the activity AND make it a bit of a cleaner place to communicate in. i know people prefer Discord but i am infamously known for fleeing that social sphere lol. plus, alongside my Deviae community on here, im hoping to do more beasthood related stuff in the future. its my job after all.
the lot of you have ruined the natural atmosphere of being physically nonhuman with posts of yearning that gives us proof that you only think of physical nonhumanity as some story instead of a reality. it reveals to us who really is a beast and who is just another masked up non-beast without the experience. can i be physically nonhuman if im non-physical? no, stop appropriating the terms beasts like us made because people like you laughed at us for believing in ourselves. the entire culture we had changed now that everyone wants a loophole to fit into the newest trend instead of just becoming a beast.
had a transformation yesterday @ night. It was technically midnight, around 12:30am, but honestly I feel better calling it "yesterday".
Very weird transformation. I was about to sleep and my hand started transforming but it wasn't appearing on the outside. I found it quite strange and went to sleep.
While I was in bed, my transformation quickly started: fur growing, feet and hands turning into paws. The weird part was when I was able to feel my arms literally prolongating. They hurted a lot and it was a very uncomfortable shift but I felt kinda better when they stopped.
I swear I was also able to feel my organs transforming, something that has never happened before, but oh well.
sometimes it's tiring to be present in alterhuman spaces.
I don't visit the most famous part of the community, usually found at tiktok or youtube. I always see comments of them trying to defend intolerant perspectives regarding everyone's identities.
I also can't stand another "no I don't actually believe I'm an animal!! These are lycanthropes and they need help because they're insane!!! Not me!!!" in every video's comment section. I atleast don't see a lot of those in here, but sometimes I still do.
With that, I get a little more isolated from the entire community.
Then there's the tumblr community.
I blocked the therian tag because me and my headmates are tired of seeing "universal experiences" that only apply to certain people + drama of other social medias being brought to tumblr. I usually lurk around mutuals' blogs and non-alterhuman posts because it feels both more accepting and more relatable to me.
Most of the times I go to #physical alterhuman, #holothere or #transspecies I meet various ableist posts, specially those excluding CLCZs or shifters. It feels like your identity is only valid when you experience capital R Reality as everyone else does and if you dare to speak about how you experience reality you're either a a) cultist, b) bad person, c) delusional (and must tag your "unreality" accordingly) or d) all of the above.
Then, the only safe places become very small individual communities hidden across multiple platforms.
Discussing about my experiences is very hard when most people perceive them the same way an adult perceives a kid telling them they're a vampire or fairy. Infantilized, that's how I feel. I am also really distressed by those who try to actively give a "reality check" to everyone who don't share their views or opinions on a lot of different topic.
And this is without even mentioning those who hate creatures like me because they are "jealous" of our experiences. The "if we can't go through the same things, I'll atleast make you feel bad over it" belief is so common around here it's honestly hard to believe that this is actually supported as a way to exclude even more us, the "less-acceptable-than-normal physical nonhumans".
It's also devastating to find comfort in only a few singular blogs that share your experience and then to find out they're slowly fading away from the community: excluded blogs, abandoned blogs; those who simply vanish away. Those who are tired from being persecuted, lynched for who they are. Those whose health have worsened because of the way they are treated in one of the only spaces they can truly share their thoughts and experiences... or atleast some of them.
I am very tired of people not acknowledging others' identities, trying to gatekeep terms and trying to divide the community. We're a bunch of weird creatures that don't always fit the human label very well. To the eyes of most non-alterhumans we are all the same anyways.
Why try to make of some identities a "us versus them" situation when they're simply just trying to represent something you don't understand and doesn't experience ? Why exclude and fakeclaim certain members to appease nobody but yourself ?
Are those who do these kinds of things really "helping the community" by increasing the hatred of the already hated ? Or are they simply perpretating the exclusion of those who are considered "worse than others" in this community ?
Who are they helping by making our communities "look cleaner" ? Who are they making this for ?
I love my older alter human friends and moots, but sometimes yall get on my last fucking nerve.
This happens with most adults, but it’s PARTICULARLY annoying with otherkins.
There is this sense that somebody is completely unaware of, and blind to their identity until they are 18. Once you’re a legal adult, you are granted the ultimate knowledge of your identity and alterhumanity. But until your 18th birthday, you couldn’t possibly know what you’re talking about.
I cannot count the amount of times I’ve been told “your too young to be a zooanthrope” or that my delusions (which have been recorded by my healthcare professionals as psychotic symptoms) are simply an over active imagination.
Perfect strangers on the internet who took one look at my blog and decided to write me off because I’m 17.
Hell, I’ve even gotten this from other older zooanthropes saying that I’m “too young to know” or that “my delusions wouldn’t start that young” and I must be faking it all for internet clout.
Idk this is kinda just an angry rant because this pisses me tf off.
An illuminated manuscript, as if penned by Osric. Would love to make something like this traditionally in the future when I have the time for it! Details below!
I haven't been able to sleep for 3 days because of my insomnia. Sometimes it comes back strongly and the last time this happened I wasn't able to sleep for almost two entire weeks.
The curious thing about this one is that I had a transformation today (very early morning, around 4 am, when I was trying to sleep). I did not feel any urge to transform and I did not know I was going to transform today. I couldn't help but notice that it made me reeeeally tired, as if it's "purpose" was to tire me.
not tired enough so I could sleep (rhinitis & strong allergy attack did not let me rest), but still the transformation was probably a response from my own body to spend energy so I could get tired fast (I tend to sleep shortly after my transformations begin) and sleep.
I thought this was really cool. I haven't transformed a lot yet so it's still new to me the things my transformations can assist me with (They aren't pleasureful but I still like having them, even if they hurt a little). It's also being cool to answer some questions about them from friends of mine, but transformations are, still, very personal to me and I won't open up too much about them.
As a wolf, female is just what I am. There’s no thought or performance attached to it.
Growing up, I knew I was female, but I was what many would call a tomboy. Not because I rejected femininity, but because performing gender was never an instinct I had.
Being a wolf clarified this for me. She-wolves don’t perform being female, they just are. That’s always been the case for me, too, and having the language for it makes me feel more comfortable in what has already been true.
Femininity as a human social construct is a completely separate thing that I can engage with or not on my own terms, when I want, because I want to.
I don't think you should have to provide physical evidence of your physical shifts to be taken seriously. but i swear, when you say stuff like that people always go "well how am I supposed to believe you can do it if you won't give evidence?"
I don't have to prove myself to anyone. I know what I experience. I am not asking for anyone to believe me. I am asking though for others to be respectful and understand that some stuff is really just none of your business.
"the physics of shifting makes no sense! there's no way that actually happens!!" cool. i still physically shift.
"if you won't show pictures or videos of you shifting, you are just making stuff up." cool. i still physically shift.
"you are just delusional. there is no way that actually happens, you should get help." cool. i still physically shift.
"extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence, otherwise there's no way that happened." cool. i still physically shift.
I never said I needed anyones approval to know what i experience. I do not have to prove anything. anyone is free to believe me or not. I share my experiences here in hopes that others will feel less alone in what they also go through.
if you don't believe someone can physically shift, cool. feel free to move on and block me, if it bothers you so much.
no one owes you anything, especially for something so personal to someone. physically shifting is an incredibly vulnerable state to be in, deserving of privacy and safety.
no physical shifter owes you evidence of them shifting.
There has been a fair amount of talk lately about a zoanthrope exodus, which is particularly ironic timing given Passover starts next week. I do not think there is actually a zoanthrope exodus, not because zoanthropes are not getting fed up with how we are treated and people deciding to not call themselves therian anymore or post in therian spaces, but because this is not new, this is not sudden, and it is not all at once.
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TW: sanism
I have written a fair few times now about how the therian community has treated myself and others. I for years did not feel comfortable to call myself therian. I existed in therian spaces but I was an interloper. I stayed in therian spaces because I felt really I had no where else and because some places did tolerate me in time. However there was always a price for being tolerated, that being "the dance" - in which I would have to make clear my delusions, make clear that I was seeing a doctor, and minimise the validity of my own experiences and often reassure -real- therians their experiences were different from mine and real.
I have not met terribly many other zoanthropes through the past decade or so. I have met a few here and there but our interactions were always fleeting. Few would stick around in therian communities because of how we are treated. The endless demands to explain your delusion or censor yourself, people would always come and go. I have met a couple zoanthropes that just would not talk about their experiences so they could hide among therians and have the limited community they were allowed. I have also met zoanthropes that existed in P-shifter communities rather than therian communities because they simply were not allowed to exist in therian communities.
The therian community has long tried to "protect" itself and root out P-shifters to a point of zealotry. To be honest I do not care to reclaim the term P-shifter, but I can understand why many would want to. P-shifter or accusations of being a P-shifter have been used against zoanthropes for as long as I have been in the community. It becomes a demand to kowtow and reality check yourself and deny any of your experiences as real or genuine and that they are delusion. And then from there it would be decided if you were allowed to stay in the community or be removed anyway. Accusations of P-shifter have been used for a long time to downplay or deny the experiences of zoanthropes and remove us from spaces that we are ostensibly supposed to belong to. To very many therians, your experience being from "delusion" makes the experience much less valid, despite that under certain circumstances their own identity could easily be declared delusion.
People say and tell me that P-shifters are dangerous and are a cult and how P-shifters hurt and abuse others. I have to wonder though if that is "inherently all P-shifters" or just a perception because of who and what people talk about. There have been many times in many discourses that the opposing side becomes flanderised into this horrible abusive monster or are considered deeply problematic or inherently harmful - shipping discourse, syscourse, radqueers, MLs vs anarchists, etc. I have no doubt that there are P-shifters that have deeply hurt and damaged other people, but this is something that many I have talked to acknowledge and understand. Some people say that the term never was applicable to delusional people, but then I have heard the same thing about 'therian' from many therians, a statement I know does not represent -all- therians. And I should ask as well, what about those zoanthropes who would not or could not double bookkeep? How many of them may have found themselves in P-shifter communities and associated themselves with that? Of the dozen or so zoanthropes I know, it is two or three.
At least for myself, my relationship with therians has been more abusive and done more damage to me than my interaction with P-shifters. It does really become an abusive relationship where I am reinforced over and over how those people over there are dangerous, how they would hurt and abuse me and how here is the only place that I can be tolerated so long as I know that I am lesser than they are and not a -real- therian. I never interacted with those communities until around a year ago because of what I was told, and those that I have interacted with, do in many ways remind me of my own experiences, and many of them have been far more accepting than therians.
People often say that we should find a different word and that it is really about the word and nothing else. But it isn't; it was never about the word and it was never about the problematic individuals. Whenever the topic of P-shifters come up there is almost always this same question of "why are [CLCZs] accepted in the community but P-shifters are not?" The answer always comes down to that we (CLCZs) acknowledge our experience as delusion, while P-shifters do not or that we do not make claims about "Capital-R reality". If it was truly the problem being that it was the word P-shifter, the response would not be relating to or predicated on our ability to double bookkeep. It would be something like "that word has a lot of baggage, [X] have similar experiences but are not associated with that community".
The core of us being tolerable among therians was -always- the minimisation of our experiences. It has -always- been sanism. What happens to those who cannot double bookkeep? They are labled P-shifter, demonised and expelled. Even if we can double bookkeep we might still be expelled. I have had it happen to me, and it would not surprise me if many other zoanthropes have had similar experiences.
I personally do not wish to reclaim the term P-shifter for myself. For how I have been treated by others I do not feel attachment or desire towards the term and it still gives me a bit of discomfort in the way some other reclaimed slurs do. However, I can understand why some people would want to reclaim the term. For some it might be reclaiming a slur, for others being allowed to exist in both communities at once or allowing others like them to be acceptable in the community, for others it might be that making P-shifter acceptable means that they can express their experiences wholley without the demand for double bookkeeping. If you want to accept the full range of therian experiences, you cannot exclude a group of people simply because they cannot double-bookkeep or cannot realiy check themselves.
There is a particular irony over this whole discussion, in that people supporting the inclusion and destigmatisation of the term P-shifter and by and large CLCZs, Endels, and holotheres - groups either directly claiming their identity is associated with delusion or who others often associate with it. Many of the people opposing it almost always include how P-shifters harm delusional people and claim it an effort to protect others. Delusional people are not incapable to protect ourselves, we are not incapable to reason or make decisions for ourselves, and we are not incapable of seeing how others around us or what they think of us, nor are we incapable to see the harm others do to us under the promise of help, protection, and good intentions. So often in these discussions mad people are spoken over, silenced, or dismissed by "sane" people. The level of sanism that pervades every aspect of therianthropy is honestly extremely disheartening, and ironic for a group of "wierd animal people" that plenty of outside society thinks are lunatics.
In the past couple years there have been points when CLCZs were becoming more acceptable and more tolerable, there were even points a couple years ago I did feel finally I could call myself therian and that I could be genuinely part of the community. Even when I started posting on tumblr again there was really very little available and that was only around a year ago. Since then I have met and interacted with more zoanthropes than I had in the 8 years before. I have also been able to get to know some zoanthropes like Sonar/Dune and Ike particularly well. The feeling of not being alone is wonderful. But with our increased visibility and acceptance came ironically with more harassment and more negative posts about us. So many of the various discourses on therian tumblr wind up surrounding us in some way. I am pretty insulated from things in my bubble of mostly other zoanthropes, so I only really see something if a mutual reblogs it, and still it is so regular I read comments how we are dangerous or should not be included for various reasons. If you go to that therian confessions blog you will see so many comments about those like me. All these discourses do is again remind me of how much we are not wanted and not accepted by the broader community.
Several months ago I took off my theta-delta necklace for the last time, and it has been hanging on my shelf since. I had gotten two, one for myself and one for my companion. They still wear theirs all the time but for me I simply do not feel represented by the symbol or welcome by it (even if I did replace the cord that was irritating my neck). My companion tries to reassure me that I do belong, and I am welcome in therian spaces and that my experiences with transformation -are- therian experiences or even more than normal therians. Others will try to reassure me that I am therian because I fall under their definition (and some even demanding I do), it is however to me not reassuring. Definitions and labels are much more about community than strict definition as there are plenty of labels people could claim me under. Still I have attachment to the therian community, and I want to see it grow to be what its ideals claim it is. It is honestly a lot of why I write these long emotional pieces, that others like me might not feel so alone, and that hopefully I can convince others and help the therian community to become what it promises it is. Although I feel continuously rejected by the therian community and as an outsider and interloper I do really hope someday we can -be- therians and not treated differently to others.
There is not an exodus, as none of this is new - nothing in how we are treated is new - and zoanthropes getting fed up and leaving communities is not new - the only thing that is new is for once we are visible enough you can actually see it.
~Kala
