Creature Of a Strange Nature

He/It Non-Human Embrace the strange and unusual

[muzzleoleum]

♪☆Welcome to my Enclosure ☆♪

Hello! This is my blog Muzzleoleum and you can call me Bones, Carrion, or really anything! I am 20 and i've been in online non-human and alter-human spaces for around 11 years now (yes that would've made me 9 when I started looking at alter-human forums, a lot has changed on the internet)

This is a non-human blog, where I will post about being non-human, how I experience being non-human, and shitposting and art as well.

I am not a therian and I would personally consider myself a Zoanthrope and Lycanthrope (either are fine) and my experience with non-humanity has always been physical and psychological. If you do not understand what physical non-humanity is, feel free to ask respectful questions.

I am also physically disabled and have autism, I will talk about being disabled as it is a huge part of my life. (I have a feeding tube and if any of yall have recommendations for shops that sell animal/goth related tube products please please send them if you can!)

Uhh a few other things about me, I'm in a relationship (with my lovely partner of 5 years <3), I really love playing guitar and music, I love DIY shows, I love wildlife conservation and learning about animal anatomy and wildlife veterinary care (not what I'm going to college for though), I also love aviation and drawing and I make diagrams of planes sometimes that I might post.

If you don't like politics, just a heads up don't follow this account because I will post about politics. This account is also just my old account pretty much, same username and everything but my old account got deleted so new account it is!

Also No DNI because I can just block people on my end, if I block you, it's most likely not personal, so please don't take it to heart unless I have said something directly. Thank you!

[muzzleoleum]

two drawings/sketches i've made based on some of my experiences with non-humanity, disability, and also just my personal life and experiences :)

(very abstract but i thought i would share :3)

[muzzleoleum]

I love the song "Coyote, My Little Brother" and it is a very touching song to me and singing it makes me feel very euphoric and emotional at the same time, but I recently found out that Mitski has a cover of the song and listening to it brought this nostalgia but also a new kind of solace to the song for me, especially singing it because it feels like i'm reliving the song all over again, and while there's not direct howling in the song the way you sing it is very reminiscent and hearing the subtle differences in each version and how i sing each version sometimes feels like listening to how every howl is different (especially depending on the animal, not even just within species but across species) and picking out the nuances in tone and pitch. And while I am a wolf and not a coyote it is still one of my all time favorite songs and i really really recommend giving it a listen :>

[muzzleoleum]

I think there's a huge push in non-human spaces to make very very very clear that you don't have a psychotic disorder like having one makes you exempt from being non-human or physically non-human and i think a lot of you need to asses why you feel the need to completely distance yourself from people with psychotic disorders or other mental health issues for the sake of being taken seriously by people who already do not like individuals who identify as non-human.

I'm not ashamed of having mental health issues or being physically non-human, and i feel no need to explain myself unnecessarily in hopes of having 2 or 3 more people believe me. Distancing yourself unnecessarily from people who you personally do not understand and throwing others under the bus for the sake of a bit more validation does nothing to prove your non-humanity or alter-humanity, it only serves to prove that you fundamentally do not understand what it means to be in community with people who are already outcasted by the general public.

everyone's experiences with non-humanity are completely different and trying to create a dichotomy of who is inherently "more valid" based off of different variables serves nothing and does nothing and only shows that you value social status in the community as one of the "good ones" more than actually engaging with your non-humanity and engaging with community.

(I know there are already so many posts like this and talking about this but since remaking my new account I have seen way too many accounts and posts like what i mentioned and im very sad that this is STILL a problem)

[muzzleoleum]

i find it very interesting learning about wolf biology and the nuances of how a wolf's body works in the wild vs in captivity, i think in some way it is really nice to research because of being physically disabled, In a strange way the fact that dogs and other animals get feeding tubes and other similar medical devices to what i have makes me feel a lot less alone and disgruntled with myself, especially researching different conditions in dogs and wolves and seeing and realizing how similar they are to mine (albeit not the same) i've made a lot of art surrounding my feelings around being both non-human and disabled and researching into animal biology as well as veterinary care as well gives me really different and creative outlets for expressing myself and also just makes me feel a lot more at home with myself

anyways, just a bit of rambling but thought that it might be slightly interesting to talk about for others as well :)

[stinkyf4ggot]

I'm so tired of pop culture depictions of werewolves/lycanthropes being watered down to big wolves. Twilight and teen wolf have ruined werewolf media horribly.

I want more ugly, bald, creepy werewolves!! I want them to be uncanny and uncomfortable monster creatures !!! Not hairy men or regular dogs!

Bring back ugly werewolves!

[muzzleoleum]

how i look after not processing a single word my friends have said to me

[folkfiber]

[muzzleoleum]

the heart grows fonder while in company of those we love <3

[muzzleoleum]

I went to an alter-human, non-human, furry, and adjacent meetup recently and it was honestly super fun! I went in with no expectations, especially since I thought me and my friends would be older than most of the people there but surprisingly everyone there was around my age or older which was super nice!! everyone I met was also super kind and friendly as well and while i'm not great at talking to people and especially new folks I felt really welcomed and a lot of the folks there loved my muzzle which I was super happy about :)

I often get really sucked into very pessimistic thinking about myself, and how isolated I feel and how it feels like no one really understands me, and while I will admit I don't think that everyone there would've understood me, it was still really refreshing and filled me with a lot of hope to be surrounded by others who felt at the very least similar to me, especially with not having much of a community.

I think there's an idea online that you won't meet people who understand you at all, and while to an extent I think it's hard to find others who will understand everything, that is life and meeting people who are similar but still so different is such an amazing and beautiful experience and to meet others like me in some way was such an incredible experience <3

[deepdwellingsteamboat]

FROZEN PLANET II 2022・1x05 Frozen Lands

[stargoyle]

Big announcement:

Fucking petting hims

[muzzleoleum]

the moon from a few days ago :) happy full moon everyone!

[muzzleoleum]

Mind if we ask what it’s like to have a feeding tube ?? Do you feel it constantly ?? Can you feel the food pass thru your snout into your stomach ?? Is it uncomfortable ?? And are you able to eat regular food too or no ?? Sorry if any of this comes off as intrusive, you don’t have to answer any of these and if it makes you uncomfortable please ignore !!

all good!! and i will always appreciate questions, so i have a gj feeding tube currently, but my care might be changing to both a gj feeding tube and TPN and Fluids soon (TPN stands for total parentental nutrition, which is given through a central line) as for feeling it constantly, because I have a GJ tube i typically don't feel anything at all because i get feeds directly, unless my line gets caught on anything and then i can feel the tube getting tugged. But when I had a nasal tube (I personally had an NJ tube) I could feel my formula if it was very cold (same with flushes) but it was never uncomfortable unless I was getting a tube change or I had thrown up my feeding tube. However there is way more sensation in your face and specifically the nose and all of those muscles so i absolutely felt the nasal tube significantly more even if it wasn't super uncomfortable! I am currently not able to eat solid food or most liquids, but I have been disabled my whole life and have had severe GI issues my whole life so getting a feeding tube was the best possible treatment for me! Thank you very much for the question and I hope this answers it, but feel free to ask any clarifying questions as well!

[marzcody]

"what behaviors do you correlate with ur alterhumani-"

all of them.

[doggemann]

I’m gonna be honest I hate seeing non-psychotics say anything along the lines of “people must think I’m soooo crazy because I talk to myself/laugh to myself/etc.” when like. That’s just another day with me and my boys

[muzzldmongrel]