jvnahss:
❛ | TRAITOR ]
❛ ┆ —— ‘ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ғᴜᴄᴋ ɪs ᴡʀᴏɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʏᴏᴜ? ’ every word she said was strung together in a way that made no sense, but he couldn’t take anymore excuses. ‘ i LOVED you, and you did this to me. and you didn’t even have the fucking balls to stick around and help me through it. do you know what it felt like waking up like this and having absolutely no one? you know what helped me, beatrice? google. ’ he hadn’t known myka in the first few weeks of his turning and all he could trust was the lore he’d pieced together online which still wasn’t perfectly accurate. scouring the internet for answers had been maddening and his enhanced senses drove him that much more crazy. ‘ if you didn’t know what you were doing, you shouldn’t have done it in the first place. ’
this time she listened; to every word he said and let it sink in. something didn’t add up. it took her a moment, in which she looked down at the very real sidewalk under her feet then back to the man before her as she took a deep inhale and caught his scent. the sudden realization caused her eyes to go wide and made her take a step back. “you’re really here, aren’t you?” she swallowed hard, slowly shook her head, and started to reach out for jonah before thinking better of it. emotions rushed through her faster than she could process them. for every bit of gladness and relief she felt there was enough guilt and self hatred to bury it. “i didn’t just leave you, i thought you were dead.” her voice got higher and she spoke quicker as she tried to explain herself, “you have to believe me. i would never leave you, jonah. you were bleeding so much... by the time i thought to call for help your heart had stopped. i thought you were dead!”














