Lonely Dreamer

My imagination is a fill in the blank novel with blank pages and no title.

[fxck-every-1]

You really fucked me up, you know that? I constantly type messages and go to press send, and then remember you don’t actually care. I constantly looked down your street everytime I drive by in case I see the tiniest bit of you, even though I know you wouldn’t do the same. I constantly look at photos of us and remind myself of memories, and I know that you wouldn’t dare to even think of them. I constantly remember every detail about you from your blue eyes to your horrible laugh, and you don’t even give me a second thought. That’s the difference between me and you, that was always the difference between me and you. I treasured every possible moment I could because I thought it was forever, you didn’t because you thought of me as an object that would pass time.

I’m tired of feeling this way (via fxck-every-1)

[u-s-a]

[beautifulxdreamersx]

@suchan66

[little-random-thoughts]

And what if I’m on his mind as much as he is in mine.

(via little-random-thoughts)

[spilledheart]

I’m not sure what we are, but I like it.

(via spilledheart)

[beautifulxdreamersx]

Before you hurt me, I didn't search for love. I didn't approach guys hoping they would find me cute. I didn't have a bunch of guys on my phone. What did you do to me? Why did you compare me to her and make me feel like I have to do better? Why did you steal my confidence and make me this insecure shell of a person? Why?

Sincerely, I want my old self back.

[thatcurlyredheadd]

they tell me that someday i’ll stop hurting. that one day, your name won’t leave a sour taste in my mouth. eventually, seeing your face won’t send senses of panic and adoration and disgust throughout my body. soon, i’ll be able to settle down with someone new, and not compare everything they do to you. because god damnit i pick apart any person who shows the slightest interest in me, and if they don’t make me feel how i did with you then i want nothing to do with them. trouble is, i will never feel like i did with you again. you were my one. not the one i’ll spend the rest of my life with, but the one who destroys my naiveness, my glass half full outlook on life. you were my extravagant love story. how do you ever stop hurting from your failed Disney happily ever after?

when did liquor bottles and blunts start to be my best friends? (via thatcurlyredheadd)

[bookshelves-and-brightlights-de]

I don’t hate you,” she whispered. “I can’t hate you. I wish I did. I wish I could scream and punch walls and burn everything with you in it because I hate you so much. But I don’t. And that’s the worst part. I love you. God, do I love you, even now, even when you walked away and shattered me like glass. And it’s ripping me apart.

(via lovefreeanddiehard)

[bookshelves-and-brightlights-de]

And if he called me at 3am and asked me to come over, I would come running no matter what the reason, no matter how tired I was. But if I called him at 3am, he wouldn’t even answer the phone. And that’s the saddest part.

(via lovefreeanddiehard)

[fxck-every-1]

It’s just a mess in my head right now because I want to keep talking to him in case I light an old spark and everything falls back into place but then it could backfire and just happen to me and i’ll get hurt trying for something that could never happen.

(via fxck-every-1)

[thatlongdistanceshit]

[reattain]

[jsagun]

[marcaltenmay-deactivated2018081]

things that are not coffee that keep you awake

First of all, take a short break. In it you can:

eat apples (that works, I swear!! it’s scientifically proven)

drink black tea

get up and move around for a bit (stretch!!! or do jumping jacks or push ups or whatever)

open your window! fresh air! (beforehand make sure none of your papers will fly away due to wind!! optional: go for a walk!)

wash your face and forearms with cold water! (if you have time, you could also take a cold or cold-ish shower. you don’t need to freeze but water too warm makes you sleepy.)

drinking something really cold works for me too but I read somewhere that it’s unhealthy so idk but i personally love iced tea . (i just take normal tea and let it cool and put ice cubes in it cuz i’m a cheap person and it’s healthier.)

if you’re too tired, go to sleep or at least take a nap. seriously, if nothing you do can keep you awake, chances are, your work won’t yield great results

remember to start doing things earlier the next time!!! (haha most of us struggle with this, i know)

feel free to add on

[themostpopulargaysofglee]

[zelle-da]

So pick me. Choose me. Love me.

[wordsnquotes]

The human heart beats approximately 4,000 times per hour and each pulse, each throb, each palpitation is a trophy engraved with the words ‘you are still alive.’ You are still alive. Act like it.

Rudy Francisco (via wnq-writers)

[butteryplanet]