because it's wrong

deah's btvs sideblog for gifs + fic main @ shesnake / pseud @ blooddebt

[becauseitswrong]

BTVS fics by Blooddebt (me), available on AO3, Elysian Fields, & Sunnydale After Dark:

So far I've only written canon-compliant Spuffy fic, and some Fuffy as well. Currently working on 'Make It Wrong' a series of missing scenes set during season 6.

BUFFY X SPIKE:

And you know why she does?

When they finally get together in 'Smashed', Spike tells Buffy about his past encounter with Faith. Explicit | One-shot (2.8K words) | AO3 | EF | SDAD

Crawling out of my grave

After the events of 'Wrecked', Buffy goes back to visit the place she was buried to contemplate whether she really did come back wrong. Spike finds her there, of course. Explicit | One-shot (2.6K words) | AO3 | EF | SDAD

The only thing that's different

Set between 'Wrecked' and 'Gone'. She's craving him like he craves blood. Or maybe it's just the depression. Explicit | Complete 3/3 chapters (6.6K words) | AO3 | EF | SDAD

Do something before you go and break yourself

Set during 'Gone'. Invisible Buffy visits Spike at his crypt. Explicit | One-shot (2.8K words) | AO3 | EF | SDAD

All the other animals are laughing

After their invisible hook-up in 'Gone', Buffy and Spike have been avoiding each other. She waits until Saturday to seek him out. Explicit | One-shot (2.8K words) | AO3 | EF | SDAD

Consequences

Handcuffs, balcony trysts, manslaughter. Three missing scenes set during 'Dead Things'. Explicit | Ongoing 1/3 Chapters (2.5K words) | AO3 | EF | SDAD

BUFFY X FAITH:

Because it's wrong.

Faith POV set during 'Who Are You?'. Faith explores Buffy's body when she first takes control of it in the bathroom. Explicit | One-shot (1.6K words) | Buffy x Faith | AO3

Taunt (Bonus scene)

Faith runs into Spike at the Bronze while she's in Buffy's body. Mature | One-shot (1.3K words) | AO3 | EF | SDAD

Get out of here alive

Faith wanders through her dreams looking for Buffy, coming across other Slayers instead. Mature | One-shot (1.6K words) | AO3

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this take is so hot...

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season 3 pre-lobotomy Anya we still think about you

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JM did this thing I love that a lot of american actors do when they're playing english on american shows where they don't realise they're actually talking like australians

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yes there's overlapping slang but I try to write spike as australian as I think I can get away with

[n1-adora-fan]

i posted my first spuffy fic and I need everyone to know it took me an extremely long time to think of a title besides ‘straight sprogging it.’ Pissed me the hell off because there isn’t even a pregnancy in it

[rabbitmotifs]

my spuffy playlist just reached 100 saves i am so pleased about that . YAY

[slayerbuffy]

I am tired of defensiveness and weird, mixed signals. Let's just get to the truth here, okay?

Buffy and Spike in Buffy the Vampire Slayer (1997 - 2003).

[sallowinahotway]

Buffy Summers lived past her intended expiration date and didn't get to die a clean and perfect pure hero, she's not the same innocent and sunny girl she once was, she falters and is afraid and feels ugly feelings and has desires that she feels dirty for having and everyone around her (even when they love her) disappoint her and she disappoints them for not being perfect so when she has these ppl in her life that reflect and mirror these hidden anxieties and desires she is repulsed and terrified, ESPECIALLY when she sees the good in them bc it forces her to see the parts of herself that she hates and if she can love someone despite that, then that means she could potentially accept and integrate those same aspects of herself which is a terrifying prospect when most of your adolescence has been spent trying to hide that part of yourself from others who need and demand that you hold yourself to impossible standards at all times bc the fate of the world is literally on your shoulders.

She kills with kindness (gently kissing a comatose Faith, acknowledging Spike's humanity by calling him William when she breaks up with him) at the same time that she begs to not be forgiven. She cries when she realizes Spike got his soul for her and asks him in horror WHY he would do such a thing because it is literally agonizing for her to confront with such honesty that someone could change so fundamentally for her, make such a sacrifice for HER. She feels unworthy and Wrong and it is precisely through her ability to see the good in others and forgive them (something she's often condemned for by others!) that she proves her own Goodness and is able to begin to reach a place where she can forgive herself and break free of the vicious narrative that she and the Slayers before her have been shackled too. She believes in Spike, she works together with Faith again and acknowledges their shared right to the scythe, and she ends the series no longer alone. The same season where she breaks the cycle is the same where she learns the origin of the first Slayer, the same season where she tells Spike that she doesn't hate like she used to. Buffy's own darkness is an essential part of herself inextricably linked to her love and her greatest strengths as a hero, and she isn't free until she can acknowledge and accept that enough to be a hero of her own making, forging a better path for the girls who come after her and finding peace for those before her

[there-was-love]

Call me Spike the way Dru is the love of my life

Reblogs appreciated + comms open

[shaydh]

"why did you write that"

my fetish

my friend's fetish

not my fetish but it fits in the story so i threw it in there as a treat. you're welcome.

[ckret2]

4. the character's fetish and i'm committed to portraying them with absolute accuracy

[shesnake]

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faith should have been in every episode of season 3 after her intro and angel shouldn't have come back until midway through the season AT LEAST like give us a chance to miss the cunt...

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also Mr. Trick should NOT have been killed off so quick like he should've gotten recurring ethan rayne-level mileage

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faith should have been in every episode of season 3 after her intro and angel shouldn't have come back until midway through the season AT LEAST like give us a chance to miss the cunt...

[shesnake]

Buffy the Vampire Slayer season 5 episode 20 "Spiral" (2001) dir. James A. Contner

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I want all of Buffy's boyfriends to kill themselves that's why my favourite is the one who actually does <3

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buffy fics with (main)villain!Riley are kind of funny to me like that guy was nothing. of course we hate him but giving his character agency to be more calculating and manipulative and deliberate to add more fuel is just ridiculous when most of his real insidiousness lay in his passivity and thoughtlessness. fucking sheep absolute void of a man

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the pink opaque is fuffy by the way. if you even care