Beck the TransMan.

Nerdy Ginger who has a large anime fandom but main focus is on the transition from female to male

[beckthetransman]

Can someone please make something for me? Its Watermelon Sugar but replace "high" with obi wan Ken obi going "hello,there!" Please? Its been stuck in my heads for ages.

[sedlex]

[teatops]

JDHSKXHSK I’M LOSING IT OVER THIS

[beckthetransman]

Can someone please make something for me? Its Watermelon Sugar but replace "high" with obi wan Ken obi going "hello,there!" Please? Its been stuck in my heads for ages.

[circumcisions-deactivated201401]

talking to person u like alot and u feel like ur annoying them

[positivity-in-pain]

SO enough ❤️

[hitmewithcute]

Just saw this on r/unexpected and had to share

[cheshire-cat-lenalee2]

[unclefather]

can’t risk it

[bentejam]

THIS PIECE OF PICTURE WORKS. 

[fakesurgery]

Gotta take all the chances…..

[fit-beach-tea]

Never risk it

[reshipped]

i had to

[nostalgicgifs]

[thefrozennhorizon-deactivated20]

Icon ❤️

[an-american-whore]

Wanna remind y'all that Bea Arthur actually opened a homeless shelter for LGBT+ youth in NYC

[fffinnagain]

Wow this moment.

When my father came out to me as gay, I was eight, but I understood, roughly, because I had seen THIS ONE EPISODE of The Golden Girls. 

I think I actually said “Oh, like on the Golden Girls.”  Which was not what he was expecting. But this show made it super simple for me to understand that:

Being gay was intrinsic

People were discriminated against for being gay

People shouldn’t be discriminated against for being gay

And that, under the circumstances, was all that I really needed to understand that his coming out was a big deal, important and scary for him, but also something to respect and support, even if it meant changing our family.

So yay for sharing this iconic moment during pride. 

[beckthetransman]

Feelings

I’m caught up in my own head. I don’t know which way is up or down. I’m struggling to figure myself out. Feminine but Masculine. Feminine but not feeling like a woman. What does being a woman feel like? Being a man feels strong, like I can face anything. Being a woman feels vague, like going through the motions to appease people. Being a man is harder. There’s no respect. There’s no acceptance. There’s no room for a Rebecca who doesn’t feel like a woman; a Rebecca that has never felt like a woman. 

Foreign feelings. Lost words. Feminine but masculine. Masculine but not a complete man. Feminine but not a woman. Knowing how I “should” look, “should” sound, “should” act but all feeling like a façade, a circus of bad acting. I want all this pain and anguish to fade into oblivion. I want to feel confident; be able to puff my chest out and say that this is who I am. Kind, compassionate, caring, weird, nerdy, geeky, quirky, funny, and beautiful

[beckthetransman]

About the name change

A profile pic change is coming too. I recently realized that I’m trans and need somewhere to get all my feels out about not being able to transition in front of my family. So angst Posts coming in hot and ready for delivery! I know I’ve been gone a long time and thank you all for staying while I recovered from life. My dog’s death hit me harder than anything had ever hit me before and While i may not fully get over her loss, I know she’s in a better place and I am as well mentally. 

I’ve gradually learned to appreciate the little things such as people’s support and the love of friends that is far and few between. While I am changing gender, some things arent changing, such as the person I am. Kind, caring, and loving. Always feel free to jump in my inbox and say anything that’s on your mind. Your thoughts are always appreciated in my inbox and my blog. 

[pettypunani]

Reblog if you're still in 2013

[pettypunani]

reblog while you still can

[gentlemanbones]

Time to fuck with the future.

[deanandhiscas]

Ehhhhm can you please tell me what's going on? I'm just woke up (because here in Germany it's 6am) and all I see are Jared's mysterious tweets and your post about talking with them... Hell, why do happen those things always when I'm asleep >.<

OKAY SO 

JARED TWEETED THAT WEIRD-ASS SERIES OF LETTERS THAT MADE EVERYONE SCRATCH THEIR HEADS, BUT A COUPLE DAYS AGO I’D GONE TO THIS PLACE CALLED “EXIT” WHERE IT’S A REAL LIFE VIDEO GAME WHERE YOU HAVE TO USE LOGIC AND CLUES TO ESCAPE A ROOM AND THERE WAS A BIT WHERE YOU HAD TO TRANSLATE LETTERS TO NUMBERS ON A KEYPAD

SO IMMEDIATELY I THOUGHT “shit this is a phone number”

AND I ENTERED IT INTO A PHONE AND IT WAS A 778 NUMBER (VANCOUVER AREA CODE) SO I WAS LIKE OH SHIT IT REALLY IS A PHONE NUMBER AND I DIALLED AND MY HEART WAS THUMPING OUT OF MY CHEST AND THEN IT CLICKED AND JARED’S VOICE SAID “Hey, who is this?” anD I FROZE

AND I WAS LIKE “…It’S….UH… IT’S ANIKA. I JUST SAW A THING ON TWITTER AND I THOUGHT MAYBE…UH…IS THIS JARED??”

AND HE DIDN’T RESPOND AND THERE WAS SHUFFLING AND THEN A DEEPER VOICE COMES ON AND SAYS, “Hey, this is Jensen.” AND I ALMOST SCREAMED DIRECTLY INTO THE PHONE

AND I WAS LIKE “HI?????” AND HE’S LIKE “Where are you calling from?” aND I WAS LIKE “Well, Vancouver, actually ahaha”, and he says “What that’s so weird are you like right behind us right now” and i FfucKING SAY “…maybe”

AND HE JUST SNORTS AND THERE’S SOME VOICES IN THE BACKGROUND AND HE’S LIKE “Okay, well we gotta go, but it was nice talking to you. Thanks for calling!” and i was like “THANK”

AND THEN

not 5 SECONDS AFTER WE HANG UP, JARED TWEETS:

Jared Padalecki indirect tweeted me and said I’m smart

I’M ADDING THIS TO MY RESUME. 

[savan-dan-deactivated20171231]

We have the best fandom

[candice-bear]

[cannabiscomrade]

You know if Arizonans actually had proper sex education maybe this wouldn’t have happened.

[manyblinkinglights]

#im not sure what good they expect these streetcars to do when no one will be able to find them

[cheers-mrhiddleston]

Jonathan Pine

[beckthetransman]

Dear adorably hot British guys with sexy cheek bones, FUCK YOU!!!

no seriously, I want to…..

[cowzroc]

Googly Eye Alchemist part 2

[beckthetransman]

Dear 9 year old me.

By now, you are wishing that you’d never been born. You think of yourself as ugly, fat, and unwanted. Father asked you if you wanted to go live with Uncle and Aunt. What is happening there isn't your fault. Father doesn't hate you. No 9 year old should think of themselves like that. You are young, but you are already so old. You are bright and shining, you are brilliant and loved. You are intelligent and caring. All of these will follow you into the future and not amount of pain, abuse, or hurt will ever diminish these attributes. You love. You care. These are important attributes to have. Even after all the pain people put you through, you will never stop loving them, but that isn't a bad thing.

As for your curiosity about your mother, that’s not a bad thing either. You will eventually meet your mother and you’ll get to know the real her. Dont be in a rush to find her. I’ts OK to be curious. I believe she loves you, but doesn't know how to show it. Some people aren't meant to be parents.

So, you sweet, caring, loving, beautiful child, please take care of yourself. You don't have to become me. Embrace all of the good that you are and hold on to that. I love you.

Love,

You at 21.