Becoming BB

A Personal Blog by a Human Being

[aotmultifandom]

your hands are cold

[rheanrya]

“I love you. Most ardently.”

Pride and Prejudice (2005 dir. Joe Wright)

[etcetera-drawings]

[becomingbb]

Grief

It’s a funny thing, grief. It turns you into a being that isn’t quiet like yourself. It holds you ransom in a carved out patch in time. Everyone says grief is a process, but I think it is more like a never ending cycle of “popcorn” moments that literally pop up whenever it feels like. It interrupts happy moments, sad moments, inappropriate moments, moments of guilt, moments of shame -- grief holds no bounds. Could grief be like a cancer to the soul? Is it a hindrance? Is it a curse? One of the worst things about grief is the constant reminders of what you are trying to move on from. But grief is what also makes us human; the memories.

[resqectable]

That’s the thing about life; everything feels so permanent, but you can disappear in an instant.

Jonathan Tropper, This is Where I Leave You (via resqectable)

[haertbreaker-deactivated2020021]

sleep doesn't help if it's your soul that's tired

[thebrokengenderqueer]

[fighting-ghosts]

[madeline-kahn]

Music in Film: Yesterday (2019) dir. Danny Boyle + Jack Malik original songs

[fuckstruckswan]

[becomingbb]

I'll never have this, but in fantasy it is a beautiful story of pretend and make believe.

[samaraweaving]

Endless list of favorite movies       ↳ P.S. I Love You (2007) ”Every morning I still wake up and the first thing I want to do is to see your face.”

[harmony-is-happiness]

[organicslut]

Family is supposed to provide love and support, and if they don’t, then you have no reason to consider them family.

[wannabe-skinny-af]

I’LL SHOW THEM ALL

I’LL DO IT. I’M GONNA LOSE THE WEIGHT. THEY’LL ALL BE SORRY THEY CALLED ME UGLY.

[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

[becomingbb]

Anyone But Me

I'm not sure when everyone instantly became successful when they turned 30. Or when people were happily married - having kids.

Wish I was anyone but me. I'm single, obese, depressing, barely making a living, ugly...the list goes on. I wish I was anyone but me.

I will never marry or have children. I will never find happiness. And I guess God wants it this way - I haven't seen another way form in 30 years. I'm done holding out hope.

My life is as good as it's going to get and I never truly had a choice in the matter - it was all taken from me and now I get to live with it for the rest of my life.

Wish I was anyone but me.

[yasmin-khan]

365 days of captain swan: day 350 ❥