~Broken~

Trigger Warning!! 26, Canada Mental health/sexual things, you have been warned. Second blog: wordsofthebrokengenderqueer Welcome in my mind and welcome to my blog!

[thebrokengenderqueer]

I miss when I was venting here and this website wasn’t entirely dead and I had interactions. Quite ironic to be the one wanting to die but seeing my coping mechanism die instead

[thebrokengenderqueer]

2023/10/15

Can you understand?Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little?Can you love me a little? For all my despair, for all my ideals,For all my good, for all my bad?Can you love me, for all that I am?

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[thebrokengenderqueer]

2023/09/10

Today I ate 1,058 caloriesIt’s just a number, a simple numberAnd yet tonight here I lay in bedUnhappy with this numberUnhappy with the scaleUnhappy with all of my numbers How many reps was it?How much did I lose?Divide that number again and againYou can do better, suck it up!Just suck it up until you suffocate My worth is measured by decimalsExcept the higher the score,The less I am worth.

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[brightxswan]

And in the end you will forever be that "it could have gone that way" kind of person.

Luckily I found my "forever last" partner after you left and realised how much I deserved to be treated better than this.

[shellofamann]

ok but is the blade getting dull or am I just not going deep enough..

[stonespulledoutheart]

[thebrokengenderqueer]

TW EDNOS AND SH

I haven’t eaten a normal meal in over 10 days, my scars won’t bleed, I feel like shit and so proud at the same time, it is a weird feeling to be mentally unwell and self aware

[thebrokengenderqueer]

It's my 10 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[spooxie]

[guitarplayermrs]

[thebrokengenderqueer]

Hey guys, I’m apparently still alive

[viindiicta-deactivated20230130]

myfitnesspal but the fucking barcode scanner behind a pay wall this is the worst timeline i hate it here

[thebrokengenderqueer]

IM SORRY THEY DID WHAT NOW

[thebrokengenderqueer]

I’m going back to my old habits, the not taking care of myself, the staying up too late, the listening to sad music hoping to cry and let it all out but just feeling both so much and so little inside…

[thebrokengenderqueer]

[thebrokengenderqueer]

Everything went quiet in my head

[thebrokengenderqueer]

I wish I was back at 16-17, when I used to have so much motivation to write, when I felt like my words resonated with people.

I just wish I could write once again just like I used to. It's not even that I have nothing to write about, so much shit has happened to me. But I just became too depressed and dissosiative to truly care about writing... It was my goddamn dream to get published one day, what the fuck happened to me

[thebrokengenderqueer]

I don't want to run away from my demons anymore. I feel less alone with them. Psychosis is scary for sure, but also somehow comforting