i want so desperately to be better than I am. but I’m so lazy... I want to improve myself but I’m too damn lazy to actually do anything. ugh.
i want to lose a crapton of weight. like 150 lbs. (honestly i would settle for just 100 lbs.) i want to graduate (GOSH DANGIT.) i want to get a job and help support our family. i want to be so much more than I am. but it’s so overwhelming. i don’t know how to fix me. I’m ashamed of me. will I ever be able to be proud of myself?
i am ashamed of nearly everything about me. i am a failure at everything I do. and no matter what I do I will never be Good Enough. I am trying to convince myself that I can be Good Enough, but since right now I fail at everything I touch it’s not going so well. ugh.
















