Ducky bayBee🐝

|27|💟DLM💍💙|☯️🍡🔥🦁🩵| ~ Autizzy ~ 🎶 searching for a heart another world away 🎶 🌻🐝🐣

[eunoiadoll]

౨౿ ⁺ thinking about ex-husband!smoke. the divorce yall went through was quick and straight to the chase. you dropped the papers on his desk and he signed them without a messy fight, court hearings, or anything like that. ex-husband!smoke let you have the house in the divorce and moved into his own makeshift apartment, since he never wanted for much. ex-husband!smoke still comes over yall used to be shared house to fix on things that broke or to put groceries in your fridge.

“you said the sink acting up again?”, he asked with the phone pushed up on his shoulder while grabbing his keys and toolbox. “i’ll be over there mama.”

to be honest, smoke didn’t even fully process the divorce. he got that yall weren’t legally married, but in his eyes you were still his wife. he kept pictures of yall together up on his social medias, yall weddings pictures were still framed at his apartment, and your contact stayed “wife♥️.”

ex-husband!smoke will find any excuse to be in your presence again. you sick? he’s at the house with soup already on the stove and some nice lemon tea with honey ready for you. you going out with your girls? he’s yall personal driver. you tired at your job? he callin’ your boss to tell ‘em you not coming in tomorrow and sending you double what you make in a day. he honestly didn’t give a fuck yall was divorced.

ex-husband!smoke hasn’t touched another woman since yall divorce and he wasn’t planning on either. stack would often tease him about it, but no matter how many times his younger brother took him out for a night—no other woman could compare to his beautiful ass wife.

ex-husband!smoke who honestly can’t stop yearning for you and wants to wake up to you every morning in bed again. he knew you divorced him for a reason, and he was putting in the upmost effort to fix his issues and put that rock back on your finger.

ex-husband!smoke who finds himself back in the bed yall shared together when one of yall can’t sleep. “you had a nightmare, baby? ‘m sorry”, while slipping under the silk sheets and guiding you to lay on his bare chest—head rested right below the tattoo of your name on his collarbone.

ex-husband!smoke who’s actually a little delusional about you trying to head back into the dating scene. he would kill any nigga who thought they had a chance with you . . .

© EUNOIADOLL

🐆 sev’s comments ┆chat are yall taking him back? or you standing on big business?

[cartoonofmilk]

yknow, as counterintuitive as it may seem, helping a suicidal friend isn't a matter of stopping them from dying. it's about helping to make their world one that's worth living in.

it's important to make that distinction, lest we make people's quality of life worse in the name of "protecting" them.

[theconcealedweapon]

A child is punished for moving and making noise.

To avoid more punishment, the child sits still and is quiet. But they have to actively remind themself constantly to sit still and be quiet.

The teacher sees the child sitting still and being quiet. The teacher treats this as the baseline.

Since the child is putting a lot of effort into sitting still and being quiet, doing so distracts from paying attention to what the teacher is teaching. The child then is punished for not paying attention.

The child now knows that they'll be punished no matter what they do. And they can't explain why they struggle, because any attempt to explain is arguing.

[skaylanphear]

Okay but teacher Grace on Erid having very little say in which kids get filtered into his class, though he is aware that the selection process is super specific and that most of the kids he gets are high performers with star academics and some even with influential parents. He isn't quite comfortable enough with Eridian culture yet to object to the selection process and make it more inclusive, however. That is, until he learns about the special needs kids.

Obviously, there are Eridian kids with special needs, and a few of them even filter into his classes. But one specific type of special needs kid has never shown up in his classes, and the only reason he even learned of the condition is because Rocky and Adrien's first pebble has the condition.

It's initially quite a struggle for them to deal with, and Grace sympathizes of course, because the child will apparently have huge learning and academic struggles and will likely never be able to live on their own. That is, until he learns the details of the disability.

Basically, it's a condition where the part of the Eridian brain that gives them their eidetic memory isn't fully developed, and so these kids just... can't remember things the way most eridians do. And in a culture where an eidetic memory is the norm, all things cater to that, so not having that is actually a massive disability.

But Grace is like, so... this kid just learns the same way a human does, or something like. Which is nothing new to him, though he is somewhat boggled at how much Rocky and Adrian struggle with their infant and their "slow" learning curve, even as far as initial developmental stages. Grace, on the other hand, simply treats the kid the same way he would a human infant, and Rocky and Adrien are impressed with his patience.

But, through this, it occurs to Grace that there must be other kids out there with this disability who likely aren't getting the attention and chances in life that they deserve, because Eridian culture is particularly hostile toward this disability, and actively views those with it as unable to function in regular society.

So Grace demands that a special course be put together where he teaches kids with this disability specifically. Rocky is hesitant, as most kids with this disability are home schooled and kind of... kept shut away. But Grace insists and as one of Erid's saviors, he gets what he wants eventually.

His first class is super small, maybe only three kids because so few parents were willing to advertise that their children have this disability. And because of the stigma around it, even those who agreed to it are super unsure and want to be present during the lessons, perhaps paranoid about the impression it will leave on Savior Grace, who is so accustomed to only teaching the most gifted students.

But Grace knows exactly how to deal with these kids. Some of them have varying degrees of function when it comes to their memory banks, which isn't so unlike teaching kids on earth. And so Grace is able to introduce all these tools and teaching techniques that were previously unheard of on Erid (though very normal on Earth) like having textbooks for reference with you at all times and having strategies that are less focused on memorization for understanding, and providing these kids with tools like calculators and teaching them the art of taking notes to look back on, etc etc.

Suddenly, with all these tools that most Eridians don't need, these kids are learning at a much faster rate, and succeeding with the help of all their little tools. And because so many normal eridians are ignorant of Grace's actual biology, it's shocking to them that Savior Grace doesn't have an eidetic memory either (shocking to everyone but Rocky anyway)--that his brain functions quite similarly in capacity to these "disabled" children.

Once this news gets around, suddenly there's more kids in his special classes, and there's all kinds of discourse being inflamed because the real reason these kids can't live on their own or function is lack of support from Eridian society.

If Savior Grace, who is well respected as a genius in his own right amongst the Eridians, can function so successfully, they why can't these kids?

I dunno, I just think it's an interesting premise.

[its-timego]

Imagine the surreal insanity of being Irina Petrova and just hanging out having a hobby that you're very intense about and then you notice something weird and then all at once your name is one of the most uttered in history, by total accident. In the movie universe they describe her as a "radio telescope enthusiast" she does not even do this professionally. And suddenly everything is Petrova line, Petrova frequency, Petrova wavelength, Petrovascope, Petrova Task Force, Petrova problem. And you're like man. I have a day job.

[eggsdoodz]

ily <3

[beeingbumble]

🎶 yeah I'll love you in a hundred years. never see another face 'cause you're right here. I would choose your love over gold and pearls. and I would take your hand and turn my back on the world 'cause you're all that matters to me 🎶

[natjennie]

the concept of thrums is really fucking me up actually because like. imagining your whole planet and your whole culture centered around this idea of togetherness, the equality of everyone's voices, the humming energy of the world, alive and connected to you at all times. you are a part of this great force, surrounding you and supporting you, a constant vibration that soothes your hearts and reminds you with every breath that you're a part of the whole, we're here, we hear you, you are not alone, you are not forgotten, we're together, we'll figure it out. and then being a part of a smaller but no less worthy whole, tasked with saving your stars and your people and your music.

and now picture rocky, holed up in this workshop by the fuel tanks, separate but never truly alone. until one day the constant hum of life gets just a little bit dimmer. a little quieter. one less voice in the chorus. and maybe at first he thinks there's something wrong with him, his hearing is getting patchy, he's losing his connection, something is off. and days go by and the song trails off in an unresolved melody and he's all alone, surrounded by the lifeless shells of his crewmates and the silence is suffocating him. he trills and he wails and he hopes against hope that if he keeps watching them sleep someone will wake up and join his harmony and they can figure it out and he can fix it he will he'll fix it but he can't do it by himself he needs help and there's nobody there.

and then, from across the universe, a new song drifts through the nothingness and it's like nothing rocky has ever heard. it's squishy and icky and disorganized, a chaotic orchestra off tissues and fluids and gas that cannot answer him the way he needs but it is something! sound in the silence! and then he gets to know grace and learns that the symphony is completely involuntary. the steady hum of his breathing and his blood rushing and his digestive tract moving bring life back to rocky's hearts and he doesn't even know! his song is reactive and vulnerable and entirely improvised and lets rocky know at every turn that once again he is not alone, he is a part of a whole, they will figure it out. together!!!

but as much as he hums and sings and opens his auricles as wide as he can and puts all of his ammonia into his melody, grace can't hear him. grace can't thrum. rocky gets all of this comfort and support and physically, biologically, cannot give it back. and yes rocky lost that when his crew died but what do you mean grace could never feel it at all! he grieeeevessss for grace, grieves for mary's crew, grieves for the human race as a whole, sharing a world with no way to share their souls. it's all guesswork and miscommunication and betrayal and loneliness. and despite having no way to truly know him, grace trusts him anyway. grace puts his life in rocky's claws over and over again, and rocky vows that nothing will ever hurt him again. grace brought music back to rocky's ears, a life of love is the least rocky can do to repay him.

[natjennie]

@jubileebloom yeah yeah yeah!!!! dance specifically is such a great point like! before grace and rocky even talk their ships are dancing together! playing and grooving and spinning in an unspoken tango from minute one!!! and oop look at that, their first attempts at real communication are through silly little copied dance moves and laughter!!!! bees waggle dance to communicate!!!! explain physics like you're in love, everything sings!!!!

[fangorn-forest]

children heed my warning. one day your body’s check engine light will come on and demand that you start eating so many vegetables and whole grains. do not ignore it.

[blackwoolncrown]

I want to explain this a bit more since 'health' and 'biology' are loosely speaking, special interests of mine and also what I went to school for.

People SAY that your health 'suddenly' starts to decline in your 30s but that's not really a good way to put it A) bc that's not really accurate and B) bc it frames this decline as something inherent and unavoidable, which does nothing to convince you that you have some agency about this.

So I'm going to explain this in LOOSE NON-SCIENTIFIC language:

When you are an infant or child, you are actively growing. Nature is throwing tons of new cells into you bc your body needs to BUILD BUILD BUILD. What you're able to do, eat and heal from is all largely dictated by this-- for example little kids often LOVE sweet foods or dairy-like foods and are relatively less interested in anything else. This is bc their body is running on HIGH all the time since building body parts is very energetically intensive. They can eat a fistful of sugarcubes and burn them off in an hour. Ask me how I know.

When you are a YOUNG ADULT you are actually still developing to a secondary extent, but your bones and such are fused and now that development goes into solidifying the structure and also finetuning its reproductive capabilities and features-- these, too, are HIGHLY energy consumptive when they first come online. Nature is STILL, thus, throwing tons of energy and new cells your way hoping you'll do something cool with them. You regenerate very quickly, and recover from harm rapidly-- But please note: swift recovery from harm is not absence of harm. This most relates to the consumption of 'junk food' and alcohol-- many people say they could 'eat whatever they wanted and nothing would happen' when they're in their 20s or that they could go out drinking and 'not be affected'. You were affected. You didn't notice.

Once everything has come online you go into maintenance mode. Nature stops throwing excess cells and energy your way bc you don't need that-- your body is yours and you are now responsible for maintaining it...hopefully with what you learned by experience in your 20s. IF YOU WERE NOT PAYING ATTENTION, you did not learn this, and are in for a surprise in your 30s bc your 'free recovery' subscription has ended. Recovery and maintenance- processes that are constant in the human body- now cost MINERALS & ELECTRICITY. You can go into DEBT now, and that debt will come in the form of joints that pop, inability to recover well, lowered immune function, and feeling like shit.

This debt accrues interest RAPIDLY once you hit 36-- the age of around 36 to 46 or so is a kind of reckoning stage where Nature assesses how well you've managed your body and you will be SWIFTLY downgraded if the result is you were just winging it.

So how do you build this account? 2 main things ( LOOSELY SPEAKING this is so not 100% scientific but I have to be general here): MINERALS -- you get these from eating well, mostly. You might want to take supplements based on your unique needs. But you need Minerals & Vitamins (i'm lumping these two together) bc they are the chemical building blocks (currency) your body uses to rebuild and fix up cells. ELECTRICITY is- again loosely speaking- having the proper chemical voltage throughout your body. This 'voltage' drops when you don't move enough, or when you're dehydrated. The building and repairing process your body wants to do may have the materials (minerals and vitamins) but there's not enough power in the factory, or the AC isn't working and the workers are overheating and can't work well. To fix this, drink lots of water and MOVE AND STRETCH your body. The action within your muscles and bones GENERATES ENERGY and it keeps your cells happy.

So the thing is, it's not that you suddenly find yourself taking damage after 30+. You were taking damage the whole time. You're just kept from really feeling it bc you're young and full of extra juice and given time to figure things out.

But at some point Nature expects you to do that, and you will pay if you don't.

Best to start out giving a shit, even if none of your friends think you're cool, even if you get called a 'health nut' bc you will still be able to frolick at 45, 50, probably so on while everyone who said it was dumb to have 'balanced meals' shares memes about how they wake up feeling like shit every day.

Sidenote don't let our shitty fatphobic society obscure the fact that it's okay to care about what you eat. Counting calories or being preoccupied with physical perfection is a sad way to relate to your body BUT that doesn't mean that paying attention to your diet AT ALL is bad. Baby, bath water, etc.

[blackwoolncrown]

My goat ranting has been justified for this day.

[yossyislandd]

racism literally bleeds through the cracks of everything and if you dare to even barely point it out everyone will kill you

[yossyislandd]

racism runs so deeply in people that if you call it out you are calling out them, and instead of sitting down and examining their own racism they lash out at you for being sooo meansies to them. you don't even have to be talking about anyone's racist behavior in particular because it makes racists so uncomfortable they will come forward themselves and act like you're targeting them specifically. it's okay when they do it because they're doing it in the correct way, in the nice way! they don't mean it like that. in fact they're actually being progressive. you're the cruel one for acting like their racist behavior is racist. you're the problem if you're bothered by their comfort racism. you're the bitchy colored person who makes eeeverything about racism when it so clearly isn't. i'm fucking sick of this.

[beeingbumble]

hello hello, its ya girl, formerly known as @/the2daily4scoop!

beloved mutuals do not be alarmed. here, take this with you: *a forehead smooch*

[beeingbumble]

if anybody curious im living to see my Dashie plush get delivered lmao

[beeingbumble]

they started shipping!! Come next month or September "Dachie! Dachie!" will be in my hands!!!!

[lvmimis]

does your selfship follow a loosely linear (or nonlinear) narrative, mostly vignettes, or an aesthetic?

[beeingbumble]

a very loose nonlinear narrative! like I have an overarching story line for my selfship but ideas hit me at different times for different points of our lives together.

[beeingbumble]

day 1 starting my psoriasis treatment!

documenting in case my skin falls off idk

[beeingbumble]

so its been 3 weeks and I still have my skin! and not only that, it looks and feels better than it ever has!!

it's incredible how much time I spent being itchy and uncomfortable in my own skin and really thinking thats just how life is for me

[werepires]

weemp weemp 🚀

[movementnudge]

Movement nudge, hand mobility! 🙌

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[ruffboi-mags]

1) do this even if you're under 40. seriously. I definitely should have been doing something like this for years and I only turned 40 a month and a half ago

2) if you're like me just now trying this going "oh god i've only done 15 and i think my hands are cramping" start lower than 30 and increase by 5 once whatever number you're doing no longer makes your hand cramp up. I can manage about 15 per exercise at the moment.

[creations-by-chaosfay]

If you're hypermobile, be especially gentle.

[beeingbumble]

I stg apps take away the updates that you'll actually use or like and keep the absolute dog shit ones that dont matter