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Hey. I’m bee and I go by any pronouns.

This a vent blog and I talk about sh a lot. I may bring up some ed stuff too at times. I am not pro ed or pro sh. I may use the tags but it’s unlikely

I make a lot of jokes about sh etc. I am not glamorizing those things. t’s a way I cope and as far as I know nobody is being hurt by it

I am pro recovery though I may not be in it myself

Boundaries:

- Do not send me photos of your sh unless asking first. I don’t like to see anything deeper than Styro and even deep styro makes me squirm a bit

-Do not publicly mock or judge anyone’s self harm on my blog. Just fucking dont

-I do not support fatspo. Those folks are just living their life and being happy. Let them.

Stay safe and please block dotn report. This is an important outlet for me <3

This is a side blog. My main is @bred-boy where I post more about my interests n stuff

beesedees

I am in recovery for sh but not ed. Above things still apply to older posts. Be kind <3

hihi seeing this blog get a little bit of traction again uhmm

ive been doing ok! started transitioning and honestly that Really helped with a lot of my body image issues and though i still struggle with disordered eating, i no longer have an eating disorder! as for self harm, did lowkey relapse recently, but it kinda was meh. idk i feel like i know self harm isnt necessarily a healthy coping mechanism but its still what my brain automatically goes to, even if i don't have the physical follow up. idk im not Better but im doing okay!

beesedees

its funky to me sometimes to see posts from this blog get a bit of traction every once in a while just cause

idk ive been doin better and its interesting to look at

stay safe yall, ily <3

beesedees

i fucking lied life is evil i hatw this

its funky to me sometimes to see posts from this blog get a bit of traction every once in a while just cause

idk ive been doin better and its interesting to look at

stay safe yall, ily <3

cvpiid111

hw: obese

cw: fat

lw: almost pretty

ugw: dead

trashdogpenultimate

RULE NO. 1 OF WOUND CARE: ignore itttt :33

centers-for-disease-control

DO NOT

oarfjsh

ignore thattttt :D

bladefairyqueen

I wanna relapse, I wanna relapse, I wanna relapse

addicted2skinny

(slightly toxic rule)

If it has more calories than you weigh in pounds,

why would you eat it?

babyfrogstuff

(directed to myself and a hard pill 2 swallow)

Did you even think this through? Of course you didn't.

What exactly do you think is gonna happen when your little 4n4 game is over? You think you're gonna reach your ugw and then everything is gonna be fine and dandy? You think you can just happily go back to eating regularly and stay that weight for the rest of your life, just because you reached it?

Be forreal dumbass.

Now what's gonna happen, is you'll reach it eventually, and come to the horrible realization that you can never eat the way you used to and maintain that weight. You'll have to st4rve and exercise for the rest of your life to be able to maintain that body.

And we both know that's not going to happen. Maybe you'll keep doing this for 5, 10 or 20 more years, whatever. You're not going to be 4n0rex1c when you're 50 years old, things and mentalities change, thats a fact.

So what's going to happen is you're putting this big pressure on yourself to be sk1nny for years, you're going to suffer and st4rve and cry and do exercise for years and its going to break you.

And the second you reach that weight, the second you think you can let go of that horrible monster of accumulated guilt, that's when you get fucked.

Your metabolism is used to so little food so that when you start eating like a normal person again, you'll very quickly become the one thing you worked so hard to avoid for years. Fat.

But you'll notice you cannot bring yourself after these years of guilt and mental anguish to repeat these years. You'll gain, and gain, gain...

Until eventually you accept the hard reality that you wasted your youth without ever being satisfied with your, you are overw3ight now, you'll become old, there is no saving your body, this is your life now and forever.

💜Anyway, that was your public PSA to do your metab days so this doesn't happen💜

I just scared myself shitless typing this 😭

incubicide

hey. it’s okay, you’re okay. 1 tablespoon flour and almond milk, a half a tablespoon of stevia, cocoa powder, and baking powder, a tiny amount of vanilla extract, and an equally tiny amount of black coffee stirred in a short mug, microwaved for one minute, and it’s all around 50 cals. yeah. things will get better, I promise.

edenxbytheheaven

SUMMER TH1NSPØ i found on telegram today ;3

its a great th1nsp1ration 4 me and also i cant wait to get really sk1nn1 and th1n 4 summer 🥹 I've been doing well lately, im so excited ୨୧

incubicide

☆ fasting tips for newbies ☆

aka the post i’ve needed for a while but never found

⋆ start petering down food consumption days before ur fast

⋆ don’t eat carb/sugar-heavy foods; all they do is sit in ur gut, waste your carbs, and make you more hungry

⋆ start at 12 hrs. every successful fast, add another 3 hrs to your window

⋆ 🗣️stay hydrated🗣️

⋆ during the fast, especially if you haven’t done something like this before or successfully, have water with protein powder/supplements mixed in to stave off cravings/hunger signals

⋆ chew gum especially if you’re a bored eater

⋆ stay distracted. read a book, go on social media, draw, write, something, anything.

⋆ if you really feel the urge to eat but can’t break your fast, remind yourself how disgusting eating is. how food weighs heavily in your gut, how sick and foul that full feeling is. watch disgusting mukbangs. look at unappetizing food pics (e.g., r/badfoodporn). remind yourself of your goals.

⋆ remember that you are in control.

⋆ coming out of the fast, eat gentle foods— nothing high in sodium, capsaicin, sugar, fiber, or fat

⋆ avoid overeating after breaking your fast by eating slowly, chewing more, eating in front of a mirror, and eating without distractions

good end of fasting foods

fruit smoothies, dried fruits, clear soups (aka no cream), bone broth, unsweetened yogurt, eggs, avocados, fish, whole grains, berries, miso, pickled vegetables.

you got this! you will reach your goals soon! I believe in you ♡