So today marks one year of living in Georgia and I love this place. I will tell you this, moving here was a love-hate relationship. I hated the fact that I lived in Georgia. Everything was literally so FAR away. Trying to do those late-night runs to Walmart or Kroger, that’s not possible here, actually, that’s not even considered a thing here because when you try to do those things, you walk to your car, and walk back to your house realizing that the 30-minute drive to Walmart for ice cream really isn’t worth it anymore, and you end up going to bed at 10:30. But there is so much to love about living here. The beautiful scenery you get here, you can’t get that in Michigan. The hot summer days and BOMB variety of food here is amazing, the fact that my whole family basically lives on the same road, and the amazing atmosphere here.
If you ever ask me about wanting to move back to Michigan I would say “no” in a heartbeat. I would never ever want to go back and live in Michigan. After living here for a year you realize how old and dirty everything is up there. Everything here is so new and CLEAN! But on a real note, you just learn so much when you are moved out of your comfort zone. But I do miss the people in Michigan, just not the place.
Now it’s time for the good stuff.
While living here I had gone through so many different emotions and seasons. I never thought I would ever be able to get back up. It’s like the same feeling I had when I tore my ACL. I never thought I’d ever be able to get back up and play the game again. But with God anything was possible and here I am still able to play. But when I had this feeling when I moved, it was on whole different level. I remember not wanting to do anything because I knew that I would be lonely. I was always sad, I cried almost every day because of how hurt, lonely and mad I was. After this point, I was so discouraged and knew that I was never going to be happy again. So I literally dug a hole and forgot who I was and who Jesus is.
So throughout the year of living here, I felt as if God was only trying to show me where I am right now is where he wants me, and that’s okay. I notice that the first few months of living here I would try to find a reason to go back to Michigan. Later on, I would try to understand why God wants me here, and this is where He is teaching me to be still and steady. God has been teaching me that trust is all I needed. I don’t need to be in Michigan to feel like I’m at home. All I need to do is trust in Him. I would try to control my own life by trying to go back, but there was always something that prevented me from actually going. This is where God said, “You don’t trust me, this is where I want you to be right now and it’s okay, everything is going to be okay, trust me.” Now trusting in God, I realize how blessed I am to be living here. There are so many people here who love and care for me, God even brought back home the most amazing people in my life.
Now that it has been a year I can say that I have found myself again, and most importantly Jesus.
