The Life of an Anxious Sunflower

Just a girl with dreams of sharing her experiences and being happy :))

[bellsiebelle]

~ Your weight DOES NOT define your worth ~

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Every wound leaves a scar that tells a story. And that story says ‘I survived.’”

— Unknown

[bellsiebelle]

~ Don’t  ever say that you aren’t good enough. If that person can’t see how good you are, then they’re the one who’s not good enough for you ~

[bellsiebelle]

Daily Happiness Reminder #10

“A best friend isn’t someone who’s just always there for you. It’s someone who understands you a bit more than you understand yourself”

For a lot of people, our friends or family may know us better than we thought. Better than we know ourselves at times. During tough times, having friends that understand you on a level you never thought possible is extremely important in helping you recover. For me, I had two friends that knew me better than I ever knew myself. They both played such an important part in my battle against mental illness, and ultimately were the main reasons I survived. They both stuck by me when times were tough, and they were there for all the good times as well. And at my darkest point, they knew what I needed before I knew myself, and I thank them for that. Even now, after all those hard experiences, they have still stuck by me. And for that I owe them everything. I’ll never be able to repay them, and I will be eternally grateful. When you find friends that stick by you during the very low lows, and stick around for the highs, keep them. For they are truly hard to find. As without my two amazing best friends, I probably wouldn’t be here today.

[bellsiebelle]

~ You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it ~

[cwote]

[bellsiebelle]

Daily Happiness Reminder #9

“You are worthy of everything good in the world”

At many moments in life, we don’t feel as though we deserve happiness or the love of others. Our mind tells us that we ‘aren’t good enough’ or that we are ‘worthless’. These tricks lower our self-esteem and further damage our mental health. But after suffering from mental illness for a long time now, I’ve grown to accept that I deserve love and happiness. And no, it wasn’t an easy journey to allow myself to feel positive emotions. Because being in such a dark place for so long hinders your ability to feel as though you will ever be happy again. But after countless battles with my own mind, I’ve taught myself that I can be happy, and that I DESERVE happiness. Although I still have days where I find it hard to be happy, at least I know that I’m still on the road to recovery. I urge you not to be hard on yourself, as difficult as that may be. Be happy for any achievements you have made today, no matter how big or small. Cause those achievements are so amazing.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

It’s a slow process, but quitting won’t speed it up.

Unknown

[anniespositivity]

You need to listen to your own heart, my love. For your heartbeat is a unique melody that cannot be felt by anyone else. This is your life. What might be right for you, may not be right for someone else. Listen to your own heart and choose to dance to your own melody. Do what is right for you, darling and stop listening to what others might have to say about your decisions. Be unapologetically yourself. It is time to break free from expactations. Live the life you are meant to live. Live, my love.

[bellsiebelle]

Daily Happiness Reminder #8

“Good friends are like stars. You don’t always see them, but you know they’re always there”

Due to the anxiety that I experience every day of my life, I tend to doubt the connections that I have with others in my life. At the peak of my battle with mental illness, I found it hard to believe that my friends really wanted to be around me. I would feel as if I was a huge burden. A waste of space even. At that time I was in such a dark place that I isolated myself from the people that loved me most. The anxiety I would experience convincing me that I meant nothing to everyone in my life. But now, looking back on those moments in my life, I realise that those people were my biggest supporters. And separating myself from them not only hurt me, but hurt them as well. In some ways I’m grateful for the experiences that I’ve been through, as I’m now able to understand the relationships that I have with my friends. And although I still struggle with doubting my connections with my friends, I am able to tell myself that they do care, and that they DO LOVE me. My best friends understand my mental illnesses, and know that sometimes I need a little extra confirmation from them. And they are okay with it, cause they love me and appreciate me. So yes, good friends are like stars, cause even when you doubt how much you mean to them, they will always, ALWAYS be there for you. 

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“I will keep on telling you that you are important, deserving, loving, intelligent, inspiring, beautiful and strong until you believe it for yourself.”

— Unknown

[bellsiebelle]

~ Dude, a beautiful thing is never purfect ~

[bellsiebelle]

Daily Happiness Reminder #7

“Turn your wounds into wisdom” - Oprah Winfrey

The battle we fight in life. The wound we receive during hard times. These are extremely important in shaping our character. Although these wounds may not have been physical, they may have effected us mentally. And from these mental wounds, we are able to educate others in order to help them understand. This is extremely important in breaking down the stigma towards mental illness. Through sharing the battles we have faced, we are able to show others that they are not alone. For me, my emotional and physical wounds that have resulted due to my fight against anxiety and depression, have allowed me to educate others in hopes of preventing the from going through the same battle that I did. Yes, this is always a hard task, as it takes so much courage to remember hard times in your life. Although my physical and emotional wounds are a result of the hard times I went through, they are also a reminder that I was able to survive. This makes me hopeful for the future, as I know I am strong enough to overcome hard times. So instead of treating your wounds from mental battles as imperfections, remind yourself of their story, in order to educate others, and remind yourself that you are SURVIVING. 

[extramadness]

[positivelypositivethoughts]

[vanish]

[bellsiebelle]

Daily Happiness Reminder #6

“The best therapist has fur and four legs”

Sometimes in life it is hard to find your own source of happiness. And that’s okay. The love of an animal can be amazing in supporting you and bringing a smile to your face. For me, my little puppy was crucial in recovery. He was something for me to wake up to every day, to look after, to love. He was also someone that would never judge me, and would love me endlessly. So on hard days, yes, my puppy was the best therapist, and overall, my best friend.