lost what loved

Love doesn't discriminate Between the sinners And the saints It takes and it takes and it takes

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tyrell-garner​:

Her answer hit him harder than he had expected. It honestly never occurred to him that age was a factor now that he knew she was a synthetic. He wasn’t even sure what to think about that. It didn’t necessarily bother him so much as it surprised him. He hadn’t even processed her second revelation. “Fifty-two, huh?  You’ve certainly aged well. “ What else was he supposed to say? “Wait. What?” Now the second part dawned on him. “You have a son? How does that work?” His brain was still spinning and he certainly couldn’t access great thinking abilities. “Is it Finn? I thought he was your brother.” He was so confused. Ty couldn’t even really try thinking it all through. All it did was give his head another spin. “You know what. Just blast me out of consciousness and we’ll go through that over some nice food and a soft red.” He definitely preferred just watching her, looking at her - the only thing his eyes managed to focus on.

“I haven’t aged a day, but thank you,” Emeline couldn’t help but chuckle. It must have been hard to process that information given.  “That’s just what we tell... what we used to tell people. It was safer that way for both of us, you know?” She hoped that Finn was safe, wherever he was. “Sounds good to me, Ty. Have a good rest, okay?” she said, injecting the pain medication into his IV. She smiled at him as she watched the medical kick in, finally leaving when he was unconscious. 

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tyrell-garner​:

Tyrell shook his head carefully as not to cause him any more discomfort than he was already in. He didn’t wanted to negate the meds, just her other comment. “No. You don’t have to. I don’t want you to. It’s fine. I wanted to do that. Money is just an abstract concept. Just like time. I’d give all the money to get more time with you.” He was babbling again. It was getting awfully ridiculous and cheesy. Ty was already expecting himself to mull over this conversation in his head a thousand times once he got his senses back. It would probably mean being angry at himself for a while but he would also be glad he said everything to Emeline that he was usually hiding away. “Gimme the good stuff, Ms. Nurse.” 

“All the money? I mean... really, Ty? I’m fifty-two, I have a son as old as you... we’re a lot different than you thought. Don’t say that yet,” Emeline couldn’t help but mention with a sigh. She loved how he spoke to her, but realistically? It was going to be hard to do this. She stood, preparing to give him something that was much stronger than the normal pain medicine. Burn repairs weren’t delightful by any means. 

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tyrell-garner​:

“I’ll try my best.” Groaning, he reached for his forehead, but he’d forgotten about the burns on his arm and whinced. “Damn. This hurts like a bullet to the knee.” Her words made him smile through the pain and he sqeezed Emeline’ hand reassuringly. “Of course I had to. I never wanted to lose you. I told you I’d try to keep you safe best I can.” Her sudden motion sent his entire vision spiraling down in an endless loop of shaky circles. “Hell yeah, I am. It’s fine though.” He didn’t want to worry her. It was stupid. He wanted to be strong for her. “Nothing new. Same ol’ burns and my face is throbbing.”

“N- Okay, I can get you some pain medication,” Emeline said, blushing at his comments. “It’s just so much money, Ty. I... I could never pay you back for it. I wish I could.” Her brows furrowed when he said that he was in pain. All she wanted to do was take that away  ——  and a good dose of narcotics would definitely do the trick. “I’ll get you something for it. I imagine the treatment won’t be fun without it, anyways.” 

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lonesomeadam​:

It was only for a second that his face twitched in confusion. Being in Arcadia, it wasn’t that often that you came around people who had previously lived on a farm. Even when he told others where he grew up, he was given skeptical looks. He couldn’t erase the country from him, even now. But that confusion grew into a smile as her excitement was contagious. He could make a new home on Abellio, out in the country so he could always look at the stars. “I forget people haven’t had that luxury. It’ll be a different sky, though. Different stars and constellations. Either way, it’ll be beautiful, huh?”

When Adam returned the smile, Manon couldn’t help but beam even more. “I guess the only sky I’ll ever really see is the one that’s not even really mine,” she said, nodding as he said it would be beautiful. “I’m guessing it would be. It should be. What’s not beautiful about the sky?”

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tyrell-garner​:

Tyrell pulled her closer just slightly and shook his head while smiling at her. “No chance. You’ll see me here all the time from now on. I planned on visiting you down here way sooner, but-” He paused, cleared his throat and had to look away. She knew why he hadn’t visited her before. “I knew you wouldn’t want me around.” Honestly, he didn’t want to be around himself either but he didn’t really have a choice in that matter. “I was worried you wouldn’t even be on the ship. I would have never seen you again.” He was babbling again, the world around him spinning and swaying. He groaned. “Damn, I feel sick.”

"If you visit, you better not be injured.” Emeline nodded, listening to how he knew she didn’t want him around. It was true ——  but the fact that she had no idea where her son went during all this made everything much more amplified. Every emotion was amplified for her, having experienced a loss she had no intention of ever feeling. “... Thank you for the ticket, Ty. I would’ve been lost without you. You didn’t have to.” She almost jumped up when he said he felt sick, but remained as still as she could. She had to go about this objectively. This was her job. He was her patient. “Are you in any pain?”

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magnctise​:

“I wouldn’t put it past you to lie about this. Especially to me. Just don’t try to feed your mom the same lies, it’s cruel.”

“Wh— You really don’t fuckin’ believe me, huh? Trust me, I’m not coming up with a terminal illness just to fuck with you.”

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magnctise​:

“That’s because I actually have a moral compass, which I’ll remind you isn’t a bad thing. Unless you’d prefer me to go around pointing guns at everyone?” Rosie gave him a pointed look and raised her eyebrows. “Guess I’ll just have to find a different way of making money. And I will pay you back. I never break a promise.”

“Moral compass doesn’t count when you’d fold under self defense,” Alexei corrected. “No, I don’t want you pointing guns at everyone. And no, I don’t want your money. Save it for something that’s actually important, like funding your life on Abellio.”

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magnctise​:

“Knocked out completely?” Peggy laughed a little harder. “Are you sure about that? It’s not gonna be as traumatic as you’re imagining it to be, trust me.” A baby’s first cry was one of the most beautiful sounds in the world. There was really nothing better. “I think you’ll change your mind about that.” 

“No, I’m not sure about that. I’m not excited about it, definitely not,” Wren replied, not sure how she felt about the labor aspect of the pregnancy. She was thrilled to be pregnant, to have her children with her wife  ——  but on a military base? Likely without the technology that they had on Earth? It was unsettling. “Will I, love?”

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magnctise​:

Xavi could live with that. His arms stayed wrapped around her and he followed her sigh with one of his own. “Honestly, I don’t know. Scientifically speaking, it doesn’t look all that promising.” It wasn’t his field, though he had colleagues who’d been looking into the sustainability and atmosphere so he’d gleaned some knowledge from them. “I’m hoping we have a miraculous breakthrough,” he let out a small laugh, “maybe we will?” He could live in hope.

Astrid frowned at the mention of it not being promising. It was better than the radiation of Earth, sure, but how much longer were they going to stay sustained? “If we can send thousands of people into space, create synthetic life, then I’m sure we could figure out a way to make it better,” the Synthetic said, trying to sound as optimistic as she could. 

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keisa-diaz​:

“No.” Keisa was shaking his head quickly. He needed to pay closer attention to what he was saying to his mother. He really didn’t mean to stress her out. “Yes, sure they can.” He wasn’t convinced at all, but Astrid seemed tense and already worried enough herself to also bear her son’s worries on top of that. That’s why he decided to try a grin instead. “But you do know that you don’t really do heart attacks, right?”

“Thank you.”  𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐𝒏’𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒅𝒐 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒔, 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕? For a moment, Astrid thought that she was found out. That her son found out that she really wasn’t human, that she was a Synthetic. Years of protecting the Diaz children from the truth was wasted. But no, it couldn’t be. Right? “Of course I don’t. We’ll leave that to your father with his smoking and drinking.”

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keisa

“Honestly, it’s the same for me. The little messages from Mr. President himself don’t really help either.” He rolled his eyes. “Unknown wildlife that’s potentially not wild and dangerous. Leaves enough potential room for the other option, in my opinion.”

“Kei, are you just trying to send me into another heart attack over this situation?” Astrid asked, shaking her head. “It’s a military base, they can protect us from anything that’s potentially dangerous.”

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rosie

Rosie couldn’t help snorting her laughter. “A sex wizard? That sounds amazing and terrifying at the same time.” There were many other comments she wanted to make but she bit her tongue. “I appreciate your faith in me, but I just don’t think I’d have a promising career as a dancer or a sex wizard. I haven’t had any wand action in, like, years.” She shrugged. 

“Y—Years? Did I... Did I hear that right?”

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LOCATION: DINING HALL TIME: THREE DAYS INTO NO POWER

To say Wren was coping well was a lie  —— the woman was maintaining her calm and cool exterior, despite it all, but no, she wasn’t calm in the slightest. If the power remained out for days, whose to say that it wasn’t going to stay out forever? She was going to bring a child into a world that was just a ship, with limited supplies, and doom them. There was such a strong chance of the USS Visitor never truly turning back on again.

The lights finally turned on after a good while, giving her a glimpse of the small rationed meal in front of her again. “You think this is the end?” Wren asked, looking over to the person seated near her. 

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tyrell-garner​:

And just like that, his heart skipped a beat and his hopes were up again. He couldn’t care less about special care for his burns. Her words already soothed his agitated mind enough. She still cared about him. It almost made him blush, it was ridiculous how impossible it was to deny that he definitely still cared about her as well. He slowly shook his head while reaching for her hand. This was already more than he had expected, more than he deserved, honestly. “Don’t. You can take as long as you want because I don’t even want you to forget.” The two of them would work past that and get over it. Yes, it was probably going to take some time, but if Emeline wanted this too, they would make it work somehow. “I won’t forget either. Society’s underlying structures that we can’t change. Not even together. Other people might be serious about their hostility against synthetic humans. We don’t know what we are getting into on Abellio. It could be dangerous especially for you and I do still want to keep you safe, Em.” The more he was talking, the more his head was spinning, so he just laid his head back and closed his eyes for a moment. It was true. They didn’t know how people on Abellio thought about Synthetics. In a way, Tyrell was glad he knew the truth about Emeline.

Emeline watched as he reached out for her hand, allowing him to take it. She wasn’t sure if she was ready for that physical touch, but if he needed it at that moment she would provide.  𝑰𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒆𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖. The Synthetic hadn’t thought about that. Sure, a new planet meant a whole new world to fool into thinking she was human  ——  but it was potentially a more dangerous world for her to exist in. “You worry about keeping yourself safe first,” she said, gently brushing her thumb against the back of his hand. “You can’t do much help if you’re dealing with your own mess. Promise me I won’t have to see you in the medical bay again?”

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𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥／／

TAGGING: @teddyhunter-s2​ LOCATION:  OBSERVATION DECK

Manon was attempting to get over her fears of being out in space, slowly but surely. She’d spend an hour adventuring out onto the observation deck, trying to withstand as much as she could before she got a nap between her shifts. She had to repeat mantras of the ship being safe, that there was no way a door or window could just open and launch them out into the nothingness of space, among other things. No, it didn’t seem to be helping. But what other real option did she have, apart from being put into cryosleep until they reached Abellio? Her employers wouldn’t let that happen, as much as she wanted that.

The Synthetic was just about to speak to the man that had arrived in the observation deck, but the sudden screeching of something distracted her. Before she could comprehend what was happening, the woman was forcefully sent flying as the ship stopped  ——  crashing right into the man that had walked in. “Wh— What! What was that?!”

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keisa-diaz​:

Oh no. He already regret everything he’d just said. “Mom, no. Please. I’m fine. Really. I’d just rather this voyage into the unknown would be over already.” He reached out to her and squeezed her hand softly and, hopefully, reassuringly. “This is probably hard on everyone. I want to stay with you. At least we’re all in it together.”

Astrid squeeze her son’s hand back, not reassured enough. But she’d let this go for now. “Trust me, Kei, everyone wishes this was over with. I’m just ——  i don’t know what Abellio is like. I don’t like the unknowns. It’s making me go mad.”