noooo pookie come backk I didnt mean to be non committal and play with your emotions I swearrrrr who else is gonna proof read my naruto fanfic pookie dont goooooo

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noooo pookie come backk I didnt mean to be non committal and play with your emotions I swearrrrr who else is gonna proof read my naruto fanfic pookie dont goooooo
can we get a lil commotion for the bitches that been losing their minds recently?
severely deficient in whatever vitamin makes u a person
WHY WAS IASKED THIS sjsnnebsb
lonely? develop a god complex.
I lowkey hate when programs talk to me in a friendly way. "don't worry, nearly there!" Shut up. It should say "loading 64.3% completed. Do not turn off device" and absolutely nothing else. You arent my friend you are computer. Act like it
"ugh my mom's so manipulative by not telling me how much shes gonna pay me for a chore!!!"
me, the child of two addict parents: *eye twitching* yeah thats sooo shitty...
i am an unreliable narrator both because i do not remember and also i love to lie
big fan of killing my ocs <3
is it wrong for me to be pissed at a friend (who knows im a recovering alcoholic and who also knows that im going through a very hard time in my life and am actively fighting relapse urges) who is sending me constant Snapchats of them doing the drink around the world challenge at epcot? justified crash out?
rant post tw in the tags idk i need to vent and also advice
my mom broke up with her long term live in boyfriend like two weeks ago. hes from out of town and stayed here to be with her for almost 7 years. both are recovering addicts who met at a sobriety treatment center here in town. my mom was working there temporarily and he was at the end of his program but was also staying to work there. anyway. they both started on Adderall and klonopin... both diagnosed with adhd/anxiety and given these meds despite their history with drug abuse. so.. like... whatever. theyd been on them for about a year when he started to act really erratic. paranoid about his phone. lost his job. paranoid in general and hearing/seeing things that werent there + making up insane stories (like that he met the CEO of Temu at a grocery store in town, mind you we live in rural KY) and a bunch of other weird stuff. notes left on his car that we never had proof of. twisting stories and straight up lying... hes been using meth. I have thought so for several months, my mom denies says its his Adderall and hes taking too much etc. but she finally kicked him out for good this past weekend and he wanted to talk to me and my brother before he left town. he admitted to the meth use. told us that our mom was also using and drinking on top of it.
my mom denies it of course... she seems okay enough. emotional of course. she wants to help him but she cant. he talks his way out of all police encounters (the cops around here are idiots and the social systems in place for people with addictions are overrun and underfunded/staffed) and despite his behavior and the fact that we know he is using and we know he is living out of his car and that he is actively going through some kind of psychotic episode, there is no help to be found. my mom filed an EPO against him this morning, so she cant be in contact with him anymore. ive been through this kind of thing before with her. my mother is a recovering addict and at 18 I had to go the legal route to get her help. but the legal route is closed off by a pay wall now... so its just like we're out of options. but I haven't blocked him because I feel bad. he is truly alone. his ex has instructed his daughters to cease any communication with him. and ive known the guy for 7 years. thought he was gonna marry into the family.
I have such a hard time letting go. and hes messaging me. but I cant say anything back. or I dont know what to say or if I should and im just beside myself and so tired and worried sick and pissed at the system and at him but I know he needs help and theres still a part of me that worries if my mom has really relapsed even if Im like... 70% sure she hasn't? its just so much and I wish I could turn it all off. stop caring so damn much and stop letting this stuff eat me up but its like I cant. I thought id grown past it. but im just as sick and worried as I was when I was a kid. I wanna cry and curl up in a ball and turn it all off but I cant. and I cant really tell my mom because I dont want to further upset her. so again I carry this weight that no one else around me seems to feel. my brother doesnt care. my grandparents (who I dont speak to) i know they dont care either. not like I do. and I cant burden my mom with it anymore.
why is it so hard for me to just let people go and so easy for everyone else?
update. I have since become the only person in this man's life he can talk to. its exhausting and I cant share any of this with anyone I talk to because it either makes them angry or sad ❤️❤️❤️❤️ yay!!!! I feel 14 again!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!
update!!! I blocked him but my mom's let him move back in and she has relapsed ❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 I cant stop winning!!!!
rant post tw in the tags idk i need to vent and also advice
my mom broke up with her long term live in boyfriend like two weeks ago. hes from out of town and stayed here to be with her for almost 7 years. both are recovering addicts who met at a sobriety treatment center here in town. my mom was working there temporarily and he was at the end of his program but was also staying to work there. anyway. they both started on Adderall and klonopin... both diagnosed with adhd/anxiety and given these meds despite their history with drug abuse. so.. like... whatever. theyd been on them for about a year when he started to act really erratic. paranoid about his phone. lost his job. paranoid in general and hearing/seeing things that werent there + making up insane stories (like that he met the CEO of Temu at a grocery store in town, mind you we live in rural KY) and a bunch of other weird stuff. notes left on his car that we never had proof of. twisting stories and straight up lying... hes been using meth. I have thought so for several months, my mom denies says its his Adderall and hes taking too much etc. but she finally kicked him out for good this past weekend and he wanted to talk to me and my brother before he left town. he admitted to the meth use. told us that our mom was also using and drinking on top of it.
my mom denies it of course... she seems okay enough. emotional of course. she wants to help him but she cant. he talks his way out of all police encounters (the cops around here are idiots and the social systems in place for people with addictions are overrun and underfunded/staffed) and despite his behavior and the fact that we know he is using and we know he is living out of his car and that he is actively going through some kind of psychotic episode, there is no help to be found. my mom filed an EPO against him this morning, so she cant be in contact with him anymore. ive been through this kind of thing before with her. my mother is a recovering addict and at 18 I had to go the legal route to get her help. but the legal route is closed off by a pay wall now... so its just like we're out of options. but I haven't blocked him because I feel bad. he is truly alone. his ex has instructed his daughters to cease any communication with him. and ive known the guy for 7 years. thought he was gonna marry into the family.
I have such a hard time letting go. and hes messaging me. but I cant say anything back. or I dont know what to say or if I should and im just beside myself and so tired and worried sick and pissed at the system and at him but I know he needs help and theres still a part of me that worries if my mom has really relapsed even if Im like... 70% sure she hasn't? its just so much and I wish I could turn it all off. stop caring so damn much and stop letting this stuff eat me up but its like I cant. I thought id grown past it. but im just as sick and worried as I was when I was a kid. I wanna cry and curl up in a ball and turn it all off but I cant. and I cant really tell my mom because I dont want to further upset her. so again I carry this weight that no one else around me seems to feel. my brother doesnt care. my grandparents (who I dont speak to) i know they dont care either. not like I do. and I cant burden my mom with it anymore.
why is it so hard for me to just let people go and so easy for everyone else?
update. I have since become the only person in this man's life he can talk to. its exhausting and I cant share any of this with anyone I talk to because it either makes them angry or sad ❤️❤️❤️❤️ yay!!!! I feel 14 again!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!
applied for a job im more than qualified for. knowledgeable, well trained. completed and passed their tests. sat through an hour and half worth of interviews where I was fawned over and told that the company had had a hard time finding someone with my level of knowledge and experience and that they'd been looking for months and they were so glad to finally have a serious applicant who knew the system etc etc. just to be told that im essentially over qualified and they would consider my application for a manger role IF one became available sometime next year. lmao. lol. what the fuck.
Anyway I told them that it was this role or nothing as i have no interest in management (did it, hated it). and that if they didnt hire me for the position I applied for then it would be a waste of the talent I could offer the company ❤️❤️❤️ eat my dick!
update on this. they have created a role for me and I had a meeting with the VP friday.... supposed to hear back tomorrow/Wednesday and the VP said "were basically ready to move forward" so I think maybe? I got it?
update. got the job description. a role they CREATED for me. its in the bag folks
update. I presented an idea and they took me seriously and had me roll it out to the entire team today... IM A BOY IN A MANS SUIT. I PLAY OVERWATCH AND MAIN SUPPORT. I AM A FRAUD!!!!!!
rant post tw in the tags idk i need to vent and also advice
my mom broke up with her long term live in boyfriend like two weeks ago. hes from out of town and stayed here to be with her for almost 7 years. both are recovering addicts who met at a sobriety treatment center here in town. my mom was working there temporarily and he was at the end of his program but was also staying to work there. anyway. they both started on Adderall and klonopin... both diagnosed with adhd/anxiety and given these meds despite their history with drug abuse. so.. like... whatever. theyd been on them for about a year when he started to act really erratic. paranoid about his phone. lost his job. paranoid in general and hearing/seeing things that werent there + making up insane stories (like that he met the CEO of Temu at a grocery store in town, mind you we live in rural KY) and a bunch of other weird stuff. notes left on his car that we never had proof of. twisting stories and straight up lying... hes been using meth. I have thought so for several months, my mom denies says its his Adderall and hes taking too much etc. but she finally kicked him out for good this past weekend and he wanted to talk to me and my brother before he left town. he admitted to the meth use. told us that our mom was also using and drinking on top of it.
my mom denies it of course... she seems okay enough. emotional of course. she wants to help him but she cant. he talks his way out of all police encounters (the cops around here are idiots and the social systems in place for people with addictions are overrun and underfunded/staffed) and despite his behavior and the fact that we know he is using and we know he is living out of his car and that he is actively going through some kind of psychotic episode, there is no help to be found. my mom filed an EPO against him this morning, so she cant be in contact with him anymore. ive been through this kind of thing before with her. my mother is a recovering addict and at 18 I had to go the legal route to get her help. but the legal route is closed off by a pay wall now... so its just like we're out of options. but I haven't blocked him because I feel bad. he is truly alone. his ex has instructed his daughters to cease any communication with him. and ive known the guy for 7 years. thought he was gonna marry into the family.
I have such a hard time letting go. and hes messaging me. but I cant say anything back. or I dont know what to say or if I should and im just beside myself and so tired and worried sick and pissed at the system and at him but I know he needs help and theres still a part of me that worries if my mom has really relapsed even if Im like... 70% sure she hasn't? its just so much and I wish I could turn it all off. stop caring so damn much and stop letting this stuff eat me up but its like I cant. I thought id grown past it. but im just as sick and worried as I was when I was a kid. I wanna cry and curl up in a ball and turn it all off but I cant. and I cant really tell my mom because I dont want to further upset her. so again I carry this weight that no one else around me seems to feel. my brother doesnt care. my grandparents (who I dont speak to) i know they dont care either. not like I do. and I cant burden my mom with it anymore.
why is it so hard for me to just let people go and so easy for everyone else?
love when cats hear that you've woken up even just a little bit and they're like hiiiiiii oh my god oh my god!!!!! i wrote some poems in the night let me recite them for you. this one is called: screaming and knocking your water bottle off your nightstand